Girlfriend
So, as most of you know, i've been dating this girl named Aubree for about a year and 6 months. I used to be the type of kid who didnt believe in love, or thought that anyone who dated during highschool was just in "puppy love". But this girl has shown me different. I'm no longer in highschool, and she is graduating... but i love her. I can say that with no hesitation, and i don't care who knows it. Sometimes my parents may scoff and be like "oh well its his first relationship ( which its not), of course he thinks he is inlove" But its not that, its so much more. I am one of the lucky few people who find the one person they love, with all their heart. Sometimes i worry, not because i don' think she loves me, i know she does... but i worry if i can make her happy... if i'm the right person to make her happy... I've thought about it... for days- even weeks. And i've come to the conclusion that Aubree is perfect... you may say " well no one is perfect"... well she is, everything about her is perfect... and i wouldnt have it any other way. So i don't know if i'm worthy of being the man that makes her happy, but i'm going to damn sure try. Love isnt about finding your 'soul-mate'. You make your soul mate... you work at it, and sacrafice for it.
I know she reads this, so Aubree... I LOVE YOU. I love you more than you can imagine. More than the trees love the rain and the sun. I love you more than i think my heart has room, but thats ok... because as long as im with you... it'll just keep growing with your love.
good friends?
I feel compelled to tell someone about this no matter how childish it may seem. It seems no matter who I make as friends there always seems to be one of these there. Oh, lets start with this.. I make alot of friends. More girls than guys usually. I make these great friends, and we're real close. This has happened quite a few times. and then I introduce them to another one of my friends, figure we can all hang out. Well pretty soon after that, that new friend I made doesnt really want to hang out with me anymore, who used to tell me everything, now tells the friend introduced her to everything. They act like everything is fine.. but now Im feeling left out of the picture on everything... And its not like just a one or two person thing... it happens to EVERY single person that meets this friend. I know this probably just sounds like jealousy but... Everywhere i go there seems to be a friend like that... and I can't stand the feeling of being replaced.
100th Angry post.
Well this is my 100th post. Kinda lame. I dont even think anyone reads this anymore... if you do.. leave me some kinda comment.
First... YES FINALLY GRADUATED... and YES IM FINALLY 18!!!
Aubree and I have been going out for 6 months.
Ok, now for the complaining. What the hell is with fickle people. They piss me off. This girl tells me Im her cloest friend and she calls me everytime she has guy trouble or just wants to talk. and It is always at 2 am.. and I dont mind because I care. But she tells me she doesnt want a relationship with anyone and that she jsut wants to relax and take a break, she tells all the guys that... and then all of a sudden... the NEXT GODDAMN DAY she is dating some guy.. who i'v expressed that I dont care for, and whome graduated years ago. But that doesnt matter...I dont mind that... BUT SHE LIED TO ME. She lied to everyone. Shes done this 3 times. Im tired of shit happening to her and then all of a sudden she calls me at 3 am crying saying "I dont know what to do" and I pat her on the goddamn head and tell her everything is going to be ok, and give her adivce on what she should do. She never uses my advice and her situation always gets worse, so she calls me again. I pat her on the head, tell her its ok and give her more advice. But no, what does she do? A guy is obsessing over her and she doesnt like him at all.. so she goes to talk to him while they hang out becuase they are old friends and then they start dating? WHAT THE FUCK!? So then that goes down the hole and she calls me again. I pat her on the back tell her its ok and give her advice. She starts hanging on another guy, tells him she had a crush on him. Then tells him she doesnt want a relationship... tells me she doesnt want a relationship... but the next day shes dating some guy she has only hung out with for a couple of hours, and known not even a day!! I've known this guy but she wont listen to the guy who always gives her advice that will save her the heart aches and troubles. No, I'm tired of patting her on the head and saying its ok. She lied to me and she betrayed me. I am tired of being lied to.
Goddamn it.
Fickle people piss me off.
Matts Wisdom: 1)Mybuttons are hard to find but they are sensetive so if you keep looking, your going to nudge it.
2)IF you are a guy, do not invest in a relationship untill you can afford to buy a house. Sometimes gifts are a 1-up thing and you have to do better than last time or else you feel like an ass. So one day when you dont think you can out do her gift be like BAM I bought you a house! what now? K.
Thats all for today. Sorry if this is rambling and doesnt make sense. Im not sorry if someone is offended. Should have stopped reading if you were offended. I wrote this in anger and frustration so it may not all be how i REALLY feel I am just angry and this is the only way I can get it out because I cant talk to people about how i feel.
lol first post in a while.
Alright, a few things have been bugging me lately, and i normally wouldn't post it here, but it is really starting to bug me. Alot of people have been leaving me out of things lately. One second i'm your best friend, and people are telling me things, and asking me for advice... and the next im not trustworthy enough, or you act so distant from me that i think i've done something wrong. And it also pisses me off, when someone is talking about something, and i miss part of it and they say "nevermind" or "you dont need to know" i'm sorry? wtf that pisses me off. Im also sick and tired of people particularly two people who one, always comments on crap about me, and then the other one plays off of their comments and just sits there and teases me. I seriously can't take this shit anymore. This goes for everyone (except aubree and a few others)... You can trust me or not, you can tell me and let me help you... or not... but if not... then leave me the fuck alone, because i'm tired of the bullshit.
Thank you and have a Nice day.
Actually pretty much anyone who has access to this blog, is ok... Speaking of which.. Rachel, we REALLY need to hang out soon, we keep sort of planning things and then not following through, we need to follow through!!
Smurfs.
I've wondered before... why is smurfette the only female smurf? And where did all the other smurfs come from if she is the only one? is she REALLY that old that they are ALL her children? is that why she never hooked up with any of the smurfs? is papa smurf... REALLY papa smurf? and if so, was it forced? Is papa smurf a bad smurf? Why dont the smurfs have pets? and if smurfs were as tall as 3 apples, then how could they fit in mushrooms? Why did that one smurf like the bake so much? was he gay? Why was papa smurf wearing red pants instead of another color? red doesnt show dominance. Do the smurfs have hair under their hats? They obviously have it on their face. How do the cloth shoes protect their feet so much? How many smurfs WERE there actually?
Just a couple of thoughts.
9 things i hate about everyone.
I love this list... seriously.... love it... i hate it when people do these things... but its absolutely hilarious.
9 Things I Hate About Everyone
1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?
2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.
3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?
4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!
5. When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.
6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?
7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.
8. When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!!
9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?
Matt's Wisdom
Mmkay, its been a while since i've done a Matt's Wisdom post. So today kids. I'm going to take a suggestion from Rachel, and explain each of the Labels to you. Are you ready for this? Good. We'll start with the most common and work our way down to the least common.
Punk- One of the most common labels there are. Now, stereotypically in todays culture. A Punk is a person who is against any form of government(anarchy). They don't care about anyone or anything. They are druggies, and get in trouble with the law. Now what Punk originally is, or rather was. Was a form of music. Not a certain sound, but rather a certain context. Punk music generally talked about standing up for yourself, QUESTIONING the government... not going against it. It told you to be part of your country, because we are. And we do have a voice... it's just that no one uses it. Alot of people also view punks as the heavy metal kids with colored hair and mohawks and drugs. Again this is wrong. Being PUNK as a person is about expression and being who you are because you want to be that way. It's about being able to stand up for what you believe; even if you are the only one.
Prep- Ah... the preps. Now many people think of these people as the stuck up kids. Who have never lifted a finger in their life, and get whatever they want. Who think they are better than everyone else. Snotty. Originally 'prep' was a term given to people who were constantly PREP-ARED for things. Someone who constantly expected things to happen and were prepared for it. But now days your associated with prep if you've have alot of money, if you like to dress nice or if you give someone the stiff upper lip.
Emo- The emo kids. I personally have alot of problems with emo kids. But i'll do my best not to make this oppinionated. The Emo kids are exactly that. Emotional. They over react, or take things to heart way too often. They fall in love easily, and feel the world is collapsing when a relationship has a bump. Stereotypically, they wear dark clothing and usually color their hair black, or a dark red. But to be emo you don't have to do that. Also, don't confuse dramaqueens with emo kids. They take offense.
The Jocks- Alot of people can confuse the jocks with preps. But they are actually different people. The jocks are the kids that do anything for sports. They love their sport and can't think about anything but that sport. Many of them do, or have done steroids. They are the ones always yelling at the pep rallys, but don't exactly know whats going on.
Goth- The goth kids. Now these kids can be confused with the emo kids. They stereotypically, are really pale, wear black, black eye liner and everything. They constantly think about death and believe themselves to be worthless. Goth kids are typically the "straight edge" kids. meaning they cut themselves. yes thats what straight edge means... its a razor. When actually a goth kid can be anyone. Usually they are the quiet kids that no one talks to, they don't think there is a meaning to life.
Nerd/Geek- Ah... i love this group... Nerds and Geeks are actually different, but i thought i'd put them together so i could explain them better. A nerd is someone who knows alot about book things. Such as school. They are school oriented and know the book studies... and yeah, teachers pet and all that good stuff. A Geek, is someone who knows alot.. more than they should about one thing. Such as... computers. They know their way in and out of a computer and can tell you anything, but couldnt tell you a damn thing about the civil war.
Ghetto/Gangsta- Now this is probably one of the most general labels. You can be ghetto if you live in detroit, if you wear baggy clothes, if you have WHITE shoes, if you wear gold, if you have a golden tooth, if you tell someone you gonna pop a cap. a Ghetto is actually a jewish term for poor/homeless during the holocaust. You look at what we call a ghetto today... and it really has no real relation to the holocaust. But many people view ghetto as Rap, and bling bling.
I think that about sums up everything I wanted to say today. This has been you daily dosage of Matt's Wisdom.
Fear:being ignored.
oh my god..
Before the MySpace frenzy.
Before the Internet & text messaging.
Before Sidekicks & iPods.
Before MIKE JONESSS
Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.
Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night.
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.
Way back.
Tag.
Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.
Red Light, Green Light.
Heads Up 7 Up.
Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Hopskotch.
Slip-n-Slides.
Tree Houses.
Mother May I?
Red Rover.
Four Square.
Hula Hoops.
The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.
Playing Street Hockey with the neighborhood friends.
Running through the sprinklers.
Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.
Wait.
Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter.
Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.
The original Power Rangers
Or what about:
The Secret Life of Alex Mac.
Ren & Stimpy.
Double Dare.
Rocko's Modern Life.
AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.
Wild & Crazy Kids.
Clarissa Explains it All.
Are You Afraid of the Dark?
The original 'All That' cast members.
Kenan & Kel.
Who could forger Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.
Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.
Not finished yet.
Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.
Class field trips.
When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.
When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.
When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.
When Toys R Us overuled the mall.
Go back to the time when
Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'
'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.
It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
Being old referred to anyone over 20.
A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.
The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.
Nobody was prettier than Mom.
Nobody was cooler or stronger than Dad.
Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.
When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.
When Ninja Turtles ruled the world. (THEY STILL DO)
If you can remember most or all of these
than you have lived in the 90's!
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I remember the good days... I remember all those things... I'm so old... but im young. I don't want to grow up.
Good times
Well, its been a long time since i've updated this thing. Hilary has been bugging me to update here so here you go. As you probably already know, I have a girlfriend now. Her name is Aubree. SHe has more energy than I do. I'm told that i need someone that can handle MY energy, so if she has more. its gotta be good. My parents grounded me for bad grades, and now that they are up they are being assholes, thinking that i have all this time to do things for them. Because they are too lazy to do it themselves. Well, friday is the zapzone thing for the band. I should be going but who knows... my parents are probably gonna be assholes about that too. Next week starts christmas break... oh excuse me. Holiday break. i'm supposed to be doing a sleep deprevation study. its like a point extra credit for every hour past 16 hours that you remain awake... bwahahah... Probably doing a LAN party at ski's so i can stay up longer. That all depends if my parents are gonna be jerks or not. I really do NOT want to live here after i graduate. I wont be able to stand it. I wont be able to take it.
I'm gonna start a new tradition...atleast with my own blog... every post, im going to tell everyone one of my fears/things people dont know. just so i can get them off my chest, because i feel as if i'm going to explode. or implode. or just plode...
GREATEST fear: My father. I'm deathly afraid of my dad. not so much him in general. He's raised me in such a way, where i'm deathly afraid of dissapointing him. To the point where if I lie to him, i panic. I freak out if i even THINK about doing something remotely different. I'm afraid of what he thinks.I break down if i do dissapoint him. I try my hardest just to get him to say 'good job'. We used to be best friends... now i can't even see him without there being a problem... there is always something wrong. I don't know if it will ever be the same... but i know i'll probably always be afraid of dissapointing him.
Guilt stricken, sobbing, with his head on the floor..
These are supposedly 27 questions that no one would ever think to ask.
1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you think? "eh?"
2. How much cash do you have on you? I recently missplaced 20 bucks.
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? chest
4. Favorite planet? Neptune
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? mum
6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? Puff the Magic Dragon
7. What shirt are you wearing? a black one
8. Do you "label" yourself? haha no
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing right now. Im not wearing shoes.
10. Bright or Dark Room? Dark
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? funkay
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? thinking.
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say? "Um yeah thats fine with me :)"
15. Quote some rap lyrics: WTF rap blows.
16. What's a saying that you say a lot? "what?"
17. Who told you they loved you last? parental
18. Last furry thing you touched? dog.
19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days? none.. not even asparin.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? 2?
21. Favorite age you have been so far? I live for the moment
22. Your worst enemy? "im my own worst enemy" its a song.
23. What is your current desktop picture? none.
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? "I have to ask for you to tell me stuff?"
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret? A million dollars. mistakes and regrets make me who i am.
26. Do you like someone? I gave up, remember?
27. The last song you listened to? The Freshman -Verve Pipe
Bowling
Well saturday I went bowling with a bunch of people. This happened to include, Hilary, Becca, Cliff, Amanda, Aleksa, uhh... Emily, Brendan, A guy named Jordan, Ski, Mcbride, A girl names Lisa, Another gril from fowlerville, Alex Scott, Krystal and her boyfriend! So it was really fun. I drove Hilary there, but Follwed Ski, and his car kept overheating.. so we had to pull over , many'a time. When we did get there, it was Ski, Hilary, Aleksa, Mcbrizzle, and Alex on one lane. I was rather busy goofing around to actually try to bowl, i was having too much fun. After the second game, Mcbrizzle, and Alex left... and soon afterwards, Aleksa, so it was me and hilary, and ski on one lane. I can't remember much from the 3rd game except what happened during the games "I can't find my cherries!" "matt, did you pop your cherry?" "I broke my sword and popped my cherry...." After we all left, Hilary, Ski, and I went to Mcdonalds ,t oacquire ourselves a 5 star ***** meal. Which ended up being only 2 stars **. Hilary yelled at some guy as we were leaving and that was about it. I can't remember anything else.
Deffinetly. Need. to. do. That. Again. With. Everyone. Else. Capish?
Tired
You know, i've been worn out lately, tired, and stressed. I'm not as happy as I usually am. I'm just really good at faking it. I gave a stress presentation.. but it doesn't mean i know how to coop with it any better. I just need to get away. I need to get out. I need to move on. But i'm not ready to leave.
You know, i think im gonna stop wearing my hat after this school year. It's been 4 great years of my hat.. but maybe its time to move on eh? Haha, maybe i'll give it to someone as a "remember me" gift? haha right... like i'll be able to seperate myself from my hat.
Good times and old times
You know, being a senior, and having tons of homework, I've had alot of time to think. And you know what? Im excited. But sad. I cant wait to go out and see whats there. I want to go to college. I want to experience it. But I'm afraid of loss. Im afraid of lisng my friends and not seeing them. I'm almost 100% sure im going to northern. Atleast I'll have Cliff up there, and if Rachel goes up there that'll be even better! I've been in an AWESOME mood lately too, i'm extremely happy. I recently made Senior class rep. for band counsil, im excelling in music, i finally made up my mind what i want to go to college for major and minor. I'm getting good grades (except physics). I like this really cool girl, some of you know who she is, some of you probably figured it out, not that hard. I'm happy, and just knowing that makes me feel even better. I'm getting a car today, and hopefully wil lbe able to drive it by monday. YES! I was listening to a really good old song today, so i thought i'd put it in here.
Please come now I think I’m falling
I’m holding on to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I’m trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I’m down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain’t so far down
I’m looking down now that it’s over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I’m down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain’t so far down
Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there’s something left for me
So please come stay with me
‘Cause I still believe there’s something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me
Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
Late
It seems lately I am always showing up late to friend get together. Because of work or because of my parents. I hate it when I show up late, I always feel like a third wheel then, and i never really know whats going on. I have the insistant feeling that i missed something (which I have). I need to quit my job.
Im also getting tired of people thinking that just because I act stupid and have fun, that I really am stupid. I'm not stupid >=(. AND WTF is with struck?! giving me such a low grade because i went a step further on the problems. I hate you struck. I'll give you a significant figure. >=O
Grand Ledge
Wednesday we had the grand ledge invitational. I'll be honest. I had my doubts. We havent pulled together as well this year as in past years. I was almost regretting going to grand ledge because we always set a standard there... we always get the crowd going. This year was no let down. We did awesome. We rocked our show. We may be small, but we're awesome. We played so awesome. The video rocked too. Thanks to the band for making my last grand ledge so awesome. As i said in my little speech. I was actually crying I hope you know. I love band. Maybe ill come back and chaperone your trip next year. Wednesday is the FINAL marching band show.. and thats going to be really sad. We also start jazz band and concert season. <3 band. Yeah, i know im a band geek, but hey... atleast i have something to enjoy this much.
I've been in a really good mood lately.
Last football game
So friday was My last football game. It was sad. I wont have another home football game... Band is my favorite class, and marching band is.. just... gah i love it. I almost broke out in tears after half time. This wednesday... i probably will. Grand ledge invetational. My last one. A week from the grand ledge invitational is my FINAL marching show. It's gonna be sad.
Rachel, sorry for not going to your bon-fire after the game. I figured we could always ahve another bon-fire but Becca's birthday only comes once a year (unlike mine which is twice a year).
Physics happens to be my worst grade. and I dont know why im taking it. The class is rediculous. there is so much CRAP. its not hard.. just alot of CRAP.
I made employee of the month at my work... Its about time. 5 free meals, a parking spot, and 1 paid day off. Which I will be using.
Becca's party was a blast. Went to her house after the game. Sat around and talked for a little. played with her brothers drum sets. We played twister again. I love twister. Jojo is my faorite freshman, im sorry but shes nuts. She looks innocent, but once you get on that twister mat... its all over with. She is really good at it, not to mention flexible... and pushy. Unfortunetly friday I had blood drawn, and was leaning on my left arm (the arm that blood was drawn from) and I had to fall to the side, to avoid falling on her. My arm started shaking. oh it was interesting.
Yup thats about it.
I'm tired...
So today.. for the first time in 3 years.. my mom asked me if"anything was wrong" or "are you stressed?" i said yes, and for some reason... started crying. I told them that I don't talk to anyone about my problems andthat was probably partly what was wrong.. and they kinda just left me alone... I thought they were going to be nice to me, but my dad as soon as he got the chance, he began lecturing me and starting his long spiel, making me wrong, and glorifying himself. That went on for about an hour... then when I thought it was over, he had me go to the store with him. He asked me a bunch of questions, and told me what its like to be a parent and about my brother and sister... yeah... Needless to say, this is the first time i've cried in a long time.. not very happy. Sorry to anyone who read this.
Yeah..
Yeah... I'm extremely stressed. ANd I feel like im about to break down. Chances are I'm not going to tell you why.. cause I generally don't share my problems... But if you ask me... I might... But if you ask with other people around... Don't expect an answer. Again, I don't generally share my problems. So good luck if you think you can get it out of me. Also... please.. if you ask, and I just say no... for the love of god.. don't bug the hell out of me.
Rennaissance festival.
To start.. Brady couldn't go. He was doing stuff with his parents.. lame excuse... but whatever. So it was just Jake, Brandon, Rachel, and myself. Rachel's mom drove us again, and that was spifftacular, because no one had to pay gas money. So we got to the rennaissance festival, and not even 5 minutes of being there... We were approached about Jail. Rachel, of course was going in, because well.. she just was. Turns out she had all 3 of us guys thrown in too. I was thrown in for being a "pudding filled sock puppet". They let Rachel out really soon, and she won jailor says (i almost won last year... i was so close... bah) and then she had to wait about half an hour for us to get out because it was her fault.. ALL HER FAULT. YOU SEE THAT RACHEL, ALL YOUR FAULT. So all we had to do was sing a song about being a cow. We got some turkey legs, and watched a joust. The joust wasn't that entertaining and the lady behind me gave me a headache... we walked around for a long time... missed a ded bob show, walked around some more... saw the ded bob show and left.... There was ALOT more in there... but i for some reason cant seem to remember it all. Oh, i found this really cool mask under a bench... ill bring it monday... because it is that cool.... Anyway, I had an awesome day... and I'd love to go every year, with the same group of people. because.. my friends are just THAT awesome.
I'll give you a dollar.. if you read this all.. and then fill it out...
[-] If I were a month I would be: August
[-] If I were a day of the week I would be: Wednesday
[-] If I were a time of day I would be: midnight
[-] If I were a planet I would be: saturn
[-] If I were a sea animal I would be: Sea horse
[-] If I were a direction I would be: east
[-] If I were a piece of furniture I would be: my bed!
[-] If I were a sin I would be: ice cream
[-] If I were a historical figure I would be: JRR Tolkien or... JFK
[-]If I were a liquid I would be: water...or hydrochloric acid
[-]If I were a stone, which would I be: sapphire
[-][ If I were a tree, I would be: maple
[-] If I were a bird, I would be: hummingbird
[-] If I were a tool, I would be: a chainsaw
[-] If I were a flower/plant, I would be: tulip!
[-] If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Rain.
[-] If I were a musical instrument, I would be: WoOo a drum set.
[-] If I were an animal, I would be: armordillo!!!!
[-] If I were a color, I would be: blue.
[-] If I were an emotion, I would be: Happiness.
[-] If I were a vegetable, I would be: disabled.
[-] If I were a sound, I would be: elation.
[-] If I were an element, I would be: Sulfur.
[-] If I were a car, I would be: A Taurus SHO.. fast...
[-] If I were a movie, I would be directed by: haha justin bailey
[-] If I were a book, I would be written by: JRR Tolkien, margeret weis.
[-] If I were a food, I would be: lo mein
[-] If I were a place, I would be: The Amazon Rainforest
[-] If I were a material, I would be: sssssilk!
[-] If I were a taste, I would be: strawberries
[-] If I were a scent, I would be: good smelling.
[-] If I were a word, I would be: SPIFFY
[-] If I were a body part I would be: eyes
[-] If I were a facial expression I would be: smile
[-] If I were a subject in school I would be: band...what?
[-] If I were a cartoon character I would be: stitch
[-] If I were a shape I would be a: square =(
[-] WHAT IS YOUR NAME? Matt
[-] WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING NOW? im not wearing pants...... its ok im wearing shorts.
[-] WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Rush
[-] WHAT'S THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Ramen Noodles
[-] DO YOU WISH ON STARS? aye.
[-] WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? blue
[-] HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? its night time... its dark.. cloudy... awesome.
[-] LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Brandon?
[-] FAVORITE DRINK? vernors, Ruby red squirt... OH OH and, Ill go with Rachel on this one... Cherry Vanilla Dr pepper
[-] HAIR COLOR? tan/sandy
[-] FAVORITE SPORT? Marching band.... what?
[-] DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? nope
[-] SIBLINGS? 1 brother and sister
[-] FAVORITE MONTH? october.
[-] FAVORITE FOOD? taco?
[-] LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Merlin
[-] FAVORITE DAYS OF THE YEAR? June 4th, January 1st.
[-] WHAT DO YOU DO TO VENT ANGER? I cant.
[-] WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? Ninja Turtles
[-] HUGS OR KISSES? hugs
[-] CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? swirl
[-] LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? house (durrr)
[-] WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? uhhhh
[-] WHAT DO YOU HAVE UNDER YOUR BED? the floor.
[-] WHO IS THE FRIEND YOU HAVE HAD THE LONGEST? Bekah
[-] WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? watched Merlin.
[-] WHAT INSPIRES YOU? Silence.
[-] WHAT FRIGHTENS YOU? losing friends.
[-] PLAIN, BUTTERED OR SALTED POPCORN? buttered
[-] FAVORITE CAR? Dodge Charger.
[-] FAVORITE FLOWER? Tulip... purple ones actually.
[-] NUMBER OF KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? 4
[-] CAN YOU JUGGLE? school and work.
[-] FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK? friday, and thursday.
[-] WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? had cake.
[-] IN HOW MANY STATES HAVE YOU LIVED? 7
[-] IN HOW MANY CITIES HAVE YOU LIVED? 11
A - Age you got your first kiss: 7?
B - Band listening to right now: Rush
C - Crush: you'd really like to know wouldn't you
D - Dad's name: Ron
E - Easiest person to talk to: Rachel actually.
F - Favorite bands at the moment: too many to list.
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: are the worms sour?
H - Hometown: Williamston
I - Instruments: Alto, Tenor, Baritone saxaphone, Clarinet, BassClarinet, ContraBass Clarinet, Drums.
J - Junior High: WMS
K - Kids: Paco.
L - Longest car ride ever: to TN
M - Mom's name: Antonia
N - Nicknames: Matt? Giggles.
O - One wish: not sharing, you can ask me
P - Phobia[s]: none really
Q - Quotes: "The depths of a person that truly show who they are can never be seen, the likes of who they want you to see are all to obvious... the small things you pick up on when they aren't looking will always prove to be true"
R - Reason to smile: everything.
S - Song you sang last: lol barbie girl...
T - Time you woke up [today]: 6:00
U - Unknown fact about me: uhhh..
V - Vegetable you hate: zucchini
W - Worst habit(s):being reserved.
X - X-rays you've had: 3
Y - Yummy food:tacos
Z - Zodiac sign: gemini
01. What is your name? Matt
002. Spell your name backwards: Ttam
003. Date of birth: June 4th, 1988
004. Male or female? male
005. Astrological sign: gemini
006. Nicknames: MAtt? didnt we go over this?
007. Occupation: MCDONALDS
008. Height: 5' 8"
010. Hair color:sandy tanish.. brown?
011. Eye color: blue
012. Where were you born? Louisiana
013. Where do you reside now? Williamston
014. Age: 17
015. Screen names:j0k3r5gam3
016. E-mail addy: ask me in person or on AIM
017. What does your screen name stand for? jokers game?
018. What is your lj name? who?
019. What does your Blurty name stand for? don’t have one
020. Pets: 4 dogs, 5 birds.
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? 17
022. Piercings? 0
023. Tattoo's? none
025. Righty or lefty? lefty
026. Wearing: t shirt and shorts
027. Hearing: RUSH
028. Feeling: happy
029. Eating/drinking: nothing currently
~Girls/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love? not “in love” but I’ve loved people
062. How many people have you told "I love you"? several
063. How many people have you been in love with in ‘that way’? 0
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? No lol but that’d be so weird
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? one of each
116. Are your parents divorced? no
117. Do you have step parents? Nuh uh
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? No
119. If so for what? N/A
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country? Mother
02. Music Stuff
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life?
122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own? i like my CDs
123. What's the best cd you own? Green Day
124. What song do you absolutely hate? RAP
125. Do you sing in the shower? ...how did you know that?!
126. What song reminds you of someone special?
03. Okay, I Name An Artist And I Give A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs:
127. Pink: get this party started
128. Aerosmith: walk this way
129. Madonna:it’s time for the good times, forget about the bad times
130. Korn: im a freak on a leash
131. Backstreet Boys: backstreets back alright!
132. The Beatles:oh god... uhhh.... yesterday..
133. Sublime
134. J.Lo: waiting for tonight
04. 135. *Nsync: it’s tearing up my heart when I’m with you
136. Limp Bizkit: lets keep rolling rolling rolling
137. Britney Spears: hit me baby one more time! lol
138. Creed: im 6 ft from the edge and im thinking
139. Enrique Iglesias: you can’t escape my love
140. Good Charlotte: This is the Anthem
141. Christina Aguilera: no matter what they say, words cant bring me down
142. Eminem: im the real shady
143. New Found Glory: im feelin this
144. Kelly Clarkson: but hes so beautiful, hes such a beautiful disaster
145. Kelly Osbourne: fuck?
146. Mandy Moore: I’m missing you like candy
147. Eve: don’t know don’t care
148. Aaliyah: err...
149. Nelly: N they say
150. Alicia Keys: No one to share, no one who truly cares for me
151. Incubus: morning sun
05. Favorites
152. Color: blue..
153. Food: tacos....
154. Song: Alot..
155. Show: Family Guy
157. Band/singer: Green Day
158. Animal: Armordillo
161. Movie: LOTR, dungeons and dragons, anything that can make me laugh.
162. Pair of shoes: shoes are shoes.
164. Actor: Mel Gibson.
165. Actress: Sandra Bullock
166. Potato chip:The kind you eat.
167. Drink: vernors
168. Alcholic drink: I'm UNDERAGE!!!!
169. Holiday: april fools day.
170. Perfume/cologne: females.
171. Pizza topping: cheese.
172. Jello flavor: blue raspberry
173. Lunch meat: ham.
174. Board game: Monopoly. Catch Phrase
175. Video game: GW
176. Website: xmission.maddox.com
177. Book: DragonLance
178. Computer game: DaggerFall
179. Number: 5
180. Cereal: Lucky Charms
181. Comedian: Robin Williams,adama sandler, jim carry
182. Dessert: ice cream
183. Disney character: Stitch
184. Clothing store: Sam goody.
185. Passtime: reading or biking.
186. Teacher: Roman
187. Childhood toy: Ninja Turtles
188. Carnival game/ride: ferris wheel.
189. Candy bar: snickers.
190. Magazine: Pc Gamer... lol
191. Salad dressing: French or Ranch.
192. Thing to do on the weekend: Movies,hang with friends.
193.Hot drink: hot chocolate
194. Season: Fall.. specialyl when its starts to get colder..
195.Sport to watch: Hockey/football
1 96. Person to talk to online: Becca, Rachel, Phil, Justin...
199. Do you have posters on your wall? haha the williamston softball team.
200.If so of what? ^^
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? yes
202. How many pillows are on your bed?: 5
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? I have a cell, does that count?
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? sometimes
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: Haven't had one recently
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? …maybe
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? Comfortably? 3 probably.
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? every night
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? no
214. Do you snore? yes
215. How about drool? no
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? Yeah
217. What color is the carpet in your room? wood floor
218. What's under your bed? the floor
07. This or that
219. beach/mountains: mountains
220. Donuts/bagels: dbagels
221. Day/night: night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: east
223. Heaven/hell: heaven
225. Coffee/tea: tea
228. Britney/Christina: neither lol
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: american
230. Real World/Road Rules: what?
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: ...
232. Silver/gold: silver
233. Nike/Adidas: adidas
234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: taco bell
235. Sweet/sour: sweet
236. Punk/emo: punk... emo kids make me sad.
237. Hot/cold: cold.
38. Winter/summer: winter
239. Spring/fall: fall
240. Operas/plays: both.
241. Read/watch tv: read
242. Cd's/tapes: cds
243. Dvd's/vhs: dvd
244. Old/new: depends on what
245. Shorts/skirts: skirts duuuhh
246. Pink/red: Pink
247. Coloured pictures/black and white photos: depends on what
248. Meat/vegetables: meat
249. Mexican food/chinese food: chinese
250. Commercials/infomercials: commercials
251. Scary movies/comedies: comedies
252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: uhh..
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: bare foot
254. Dogs/cats: dog lover.
255. Unicorns/fairies: fairies
256. Water/land: water
257. Sugar/spice: spice girls? I liked ginger.
258. Black/white: white and black
259. ribbons/bows: ribbon!
260. Chicken/beef: chicken
261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: colored!
262. Cars/trucks: trucks... and fast cars.
264. Popcorn/pretzels: popcorn
265. Hip/hop: hop! lol
266. Passionate kiss/peck: uhhh. hand shake.
267. WWE wrestling/real wrestling: WWE
268. Back rub/foot massage: havent had a back or a foot rub.
269. Picture frames/photo albums: albums
270. Pens/pencils: pencil, you can erase
hat Is Your Opinion Of The Following
271. Eminem: sucks
272. Virgins: what about em?
273. God: i have a different opinion
274. The Osbournes: ._?
275. Reality TV: bah
276. J.Lo: omg...I'd pay her to go away
278. Emo music: ...meh
279. Valentine's Day: Only fun if you have a Valentine and sometimes, not even then
280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: she came back?
282. Abortion: pro-choice
284. Murder: bad
285. Death: sad
289. Pornography: dont do that.
290. Fortune tellers: fortune cookies are lame.
293. Politics: independant.
294. Country music: naah
296. Cloning: for medical reasons.
What You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?.
299. Jack: Jill
300. Tiffany: jewelry company
301. Ben: er..
302. Maria: cary
303. Jennifer: aniston
304. Nicole: sister
305. Amy: pollock?
310. Tom: Tom Hanks
314. John: foster is retarded
315. Joel: 5th grade
323. Natalie: what
324. Christy:
Have You Ever...
331. Mooned anyone? no
332. Been on a diet? yes
333. Been to a foreign country? yep
334. Broken a bone? yes
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? no
336. Swear at a teacher? yes
338. Got in a fight? yep
339. Dated a teacher? wghat?!
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? nay
341. Thought about killing your enemy? Haven’t we all?
342. Gone skinny dipping? no
344. Told a little white lie? DUH
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell? no
346. Stolen anything? banned for life.
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? YEP!
348. Been on TV? yeah
349. Been on the radio? yeah
350. Been in a mosh pit? lol yep
351. Been to a concert? yup
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? no
355. Broken the law? yes
356. Been to a rodeo? no
357. Been on a talk show? No maybe when I'm a movie star...
358. Been on a game show? no
359. Been on an airplane? yes
360. Got to ride on a firetruck? Yeah!
361. Came close to dying? Sort of
364. Terrorized a babysitter? Ummm…..
365. Made a mud pie? yes
366. Had a dream that your falling off a cliff? Yes many times
367. Snuck out of the house at night? to watch the stars, yes
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name? uh no there's the slight problem of me being UNDERAGE!!!
370. Felt like you didn't belong? yah
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? yep
372. Smoked? no
373. Done drugs? nope
374. Been arrested? no
375. Had your tonsils removed? nope
376. Gone to camp? YEAH! I could live there
377. Won a bet? no
378. Written a love letter? Umm…no
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? no
380. Written a love poem? Isn’t that the same as the letter?
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? nay. to shy.
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? No
390. Done jail time? no
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? yes
392. Won a trophy? yes
393. Thrown up in public? yes
395. Failed/got held back? no
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school? One year I think
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? yahh
398. Taken ballet lessons? no
399. Attempted suicide? nah
400. Cut yourself? Not intentionally
Randomness
425. Do you believe in aliens? well in a manner of speaking
426. Name three things that are next to your computer: games, books, tv
427. Do you have any hidden talents? make noises.
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? yes
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? fantasy
430. What would your movie star name be? Makel Nuklehed!
431. Do you play any sports? Marching Band.
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? excorcist.
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? 40 yr old virgin
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen? American Beauty.
435. Do you drive? yes
436. What is your dream car? dodge charger
437. Do you think your good looking? I don’t know and I honestly don’t care
438. Do others think you are good looking? I've heard yes and no
439. Would you ever sky dive? Sure!
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? sure
441. How many rooms do you have in your house? 6 or s0
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? NO I LOVE THEM
443. Do you believe in God? sort of
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? yah
446. Do you believe there is a hell? yeah
447. Do you own a pooltable? No but that’d be cool
448. Do you have a pool? yes
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? no
450. Do you like chocolate? Who doesn't
451. Who/what is on your 2005 calendar? medical
452. How many U.S. states have you been to? 7
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? all the time
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? bunny.
455. Do you carry any weapons on you? Fake sword
456. What is your weakness? Caring too much
457. Name something you can't get enough of: fun with friends
459. How many kids do you want to have? 2
460. Future daughters names: Katie, kelly.
462. What is your ideal way to die? doing something fun/stupid
463. How do you release stress? dont
464. Are you a trendy person? Not particularly
465. Are you an artisitic person? sorda
466. Are you a realistic person? sorda
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? No
468. Are you a strong person? yes, both physically and emotionally...I’m strong-willed too!
469. Are you a strong willed person? Well there you go!
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you? KAtie
471. Who is the last person to IM you? ...Katie.
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? OMG YES
473. Are you a deep sleeper? no
474. Are you a good story teller? yep
475. What do you believe is your best quality? smile and generally engergetic personality
476. What is your greatest accomplishment? music.
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? candles
478. Do you do yoga? no
479. Do you have your own credit card? no
480. Let's say you win the lotto: WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! Wait how much
481. Do you have a check book? No
482. Do you like your driver? My computer one? Heck yes
483. Do you tan easily? no
484. What color is your hair naturally? used to be blonde
485. How many fillings do you have? 1
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? 1
487. Worst feeling in the world? no friends.
488. Best feeling in the world? love
489. Is the glass half empty or half full? full
490. Last thing you downloaded? music.
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? not really
492. What do you think people think of you? Enthusiastic
493. Are you a likeable person? if you know me
494. Do you need therapy? Ummm…depends on the day
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? no
496. What the best way to be proposed to?
499. When are you moving? Hopefully never
500. Are you happy this is over? YES
And now you know more than you ever wanted to and have probably wasted years of your life by reading this, I hope you're having fun!
Adventurrrree...
I feel the need to go on an adventure. or do something adventureous.. or something I dont normally do... Like hang out with friends. Hahah... On another note... I'm not going to homecomming. Of course I don't have anyone to go with, but I also have to work. What is with the student council this year? And the teachers? The freshman are supposed to have a HARD-TIME. But no, the teachers throw a fit, and the student council reps for the freshman throw a fit.. and say we gotta take it easy.. TAKE IT EASY?! Class color day... They wanted to give the Pouse... or however its spelled... WTF is that?! no one would be able to do that... Class music day... we wanted to give them POLKA! mmkay, that would be cool.. but no... it was too hard. And since when do the freshman get class shirts? wtf is this? the teachers are supporting the freshman hardcore and its pissing me off. Their color was Turqouise... and they wore blue... AND GETTING COUNTED. no thats just wrong. Another thing, Homecomming king and queen. The same goddamn people are nominated every year. EVERY YEAR. there should be some rule that once you are nominated, even if you dont win.. you cant be nominated again, you lost out. good job!
Homecomming game friday.. you all should go.. and support the band... THE BAND...
Yeah.
Hmm..
Alright, there really isnt much to update. School has started. Band so far is my best class. We're not doing nearly as good as we should for it. I got invited by the new Fowlerville girl(senior) to go to fowlervilles homecomming game.. and Ima go. I think it'll be fun. My parents keep taking my cash. I should be getting a car on the 12th. THE 12TH!!! cross your fingers. For your entertainment... i have come across another test.
Put an X by the movies you've seen. If you get more than 70, you're a movie whore.
COPY and REPOST ! PLACE YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT LINE
(x)Pirates of the Caribbean
(x)Boondock Saints
(x)The Mexican
(x)Fight Club
(x)Starsky and Hutch
(x)Neverending Story
(x)Blazing Saddles
(x)Garden State
(x)The Princess Bride
(x)Young Frankenstien
(x)AnchorMan
()Napoleon Dynamite
(x)Saw
(x)White noise
(x)White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
total here : 14
(x)50 First Dates
(x)Jason X
(x)Scream
(x)Scream 2
(x)Scream 3
(x)Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
(x)Scary Movie 3
(x)American Pie
(x)American Pie 2
(x)American Wedding
(x)Harry Potter
(x)Harry Potter 2
(x)Harry Potter 3
()Resident Evil I
(x)Resident Evil 2
(x)The Wedding Singer
( )Little Black Book
total here : 15
(x)The Village
()Donnie Darko
(x)Lilo & Stitch
(x)Finding Nemo
()Finding Neverland
(x)13 Ghosts
(x)Signs
(x)The Grinch
(x)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x)White Chicks
(x)Butterfly Effect
(x)Thirteen going on 30
(x)I Robot
(x)Dodgeball
(x)Universal Soldier
() A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came A Spider
(x)Deep impact
total here : 13
(x)KingPin
(x)Never Been Kissed
(x)Meet The Parents
(x)Meet the Fockers
(x)Eight Crazy Nights
(x)A Cinderella Story
(x)The Terminal
(x)The Lizzie McGuire Movie
()Passport to Paris
(x)Dumb & Dumber
(x)Dumb & Dumberer
(x)Final Destination
(x)Final Destination 2
(x)Halloween
(x)The Ring
(x)The Ring 2
()Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
()Practical Magic
(x)Chicago
(x)Ghost Ship
(x)From Hell
(x)Hellboy
(x)Secret Window
()I Am Sam
(x)The Whole Nine Yards
(x)The Whole Ten Yards
(x)The Day After Tomorrow
(x)Child's Play
(x)Bride of Chucky
(x)Ten Things I Hate About You
(x)Just Married
(x)Gothika
(x)Nightmare on Elm Street
(x)Sixteen Candles
(x)Bad Boys
(x)Bad Boys 2
(x)Joy Ride
()Seven (SE7EN)
(x)Oceans Eleven
(x)Oceans Twelve
()Identity
total here: 35
()Lone Star
(x)Predator I
(x)Predator II
(x)Independence day
()Cujo
(x)A Bronx Tale
(x)Darkness Falls
()Christine
(x)ET
(x)Children of the Corn
(x)My boss' daughter
(x)Maid in Manhattan
( )Frailty
( )Best bet
(x)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x)She's All That
(x)Calendar Girls
()Sideways
(x)Mars Attacks
total here : 12
(x)Event Horizon
()Ever after
(x)Forrest Gump
(x)Big Trouble in Little China
(x)X-men 1
(x)X-men 2
(x)Catch Me If You Can
(x)The Others
(x)Freaky Friday
()Ring of Fire
(x)The Hot Chick
(x)Swimfan
(x)Miracle
(x)Old School
(x)Ray
(x)The Notebook
(x)K-Pax
total here : 15
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x)A Walk to Remember
(x)Boogeyman
(x)Hitch
( )Back Door Sluts 9
( )Anal Acres 1
( )Anal Acres 2
( )B-Cup Divas
(x)The Fifth Element
(x)Star Wars episode I The Phantom Menace
(x)Star Wars episode II Attack of The Clones
(x)Star Wars episode III Revenge of The Sith
(x)Star Wars episode IV A New Hope
(x)Star Wars episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x)Star Wars episode VI Return of The Jedi...
()Troop Beverly Hills
( )Swimming with Sharks
(x)Air Force One
(x)For Richer or Poorer
(x)Trainspotting
( )People under the stairs
( )Blue Velvet
()Sound of music
(x)Parent Trap
(x)The Burbs
(x)The Terminator
(x)Empire Records
(x)SLC Punk
(x)Meet Joe Black
()Wild girls
(x)A Clockwork Orange
(x)the Order
(x)Spiderman
(x)Spiderman 2
()Amelie
total here : 26
(x)Mean Girls
(x)Shrek
(x)Shrek 2
(x)The Incredibles
(x)Collateral
(x)The Fast & The Furious
(x)2 Fast 2 Furious
(x)Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
(x)Closer
total here : 9
(x)Titanic
(x)Saved
(x)Bowling For Columbine
()Farenheit 9/11
(x)The Sixth Sense
(x)Artificial intelligence (AI)
(x)Love actually
( )Shutter
(x)Ella Enchanted
(x)Princess diaries 1
()Princess diaries 2
(x)Constantine
()Million Dollar Baby
(x)Envy
(x) Eurotrip
(x)Malibu's Most wanted
(x)Big Daddy
(x)Black Sheep
(x)The Breakfast Club
(x)West side story
total here : 16
(x)A Christmas Story
()Spanglish
(x)Pulp Fiction
()Sleepover
(x)The Evil Dead
(x)*Killer Klowns From Outer Space*
(x)The Seed of chucky
(x)Vanilla Sky
(x)Nightmare Before Christmas
()Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
(x)Interview With The Vampire
(x)The Crow
(x)Purple Rain
(x)Reservoir Dogs
(x)Wayne's World
total here : 12
(x)Wayne's World 2
(x)21 Grams
(x)Blow
(x)Edward Scissorhands
(x)Clerks
(x)Beauty and the Beast
()Guess who
(x)monster in-law
(x) eLF
(x)stuart little
(x)stuart little 2
(x)Mall Rats
(x)Chasing Amy
(x)Dogma
(x)Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
total here : 13
(x)Beetlejuice
(x)The Last Samurai
()The Amityville Horror (old or new)
(x)The Aviator
(x)Romeo and Juliet
()Barbershop
()Beauty Shop
(x)legally blonde
()legally blonde 2
(x)the forgotten
()confessions of a teenage drama queen
(x)grudge
total here: 7
Over All: 187...
Oh my god I'm a hardcore movie whore.
Have fun with that kids.
Psychology
I really hate psychology class. So far its easy, and simple... but... its ruining how I think, or rather... telling me why I think the way I do. I dont like that. I liked being able to say that im a spaz, and thats just who I am... but now... I'm a spaz, because I have low seretonin levels? WTF. No. It's telling us why we see things certain ways, that our personalitys arent exactly original. I liked the days when I could shake my head at not knowing why someone did something, I liked it when I could use my "imagination" which by the way, may not be an imagination, in why people think that way. I don't mind knowing these things, but I dont like someone telling me how I think.
On another note, i beleive we're gonan try and go to the renaissance festival this weekend. hopefully everything works out. Rachel, if we give your mum the money again, can she get us the tickets? and shes willing to drive?! yay. I think we might have to go friday though... cause I work saturday... 11 am to 7 pm. I hate working.
>EDIT< Actually... friday wont work.. because they arent open friday... only Weekends, labor day, and friday the 23rd... so maybe you guys will have to go without me... or we can go labor day? or I could just call in.
Drain the pressure from the swelling
First Hour(1)-Physics
First Hour(2)-Physics
Second Hour(1)-Tech
Second Hour(2)-Tech
Third Hour(1)-Psychology
Third Hour(2)-Health
Fourth Hour(1)-BAND
Fourth Hour(2)-BAND
Fifth Hour(1)-English 12
Fifth Hour(2)-English 12
Sixth Hour(1)- German 2A
Sixth Hour(2)- German 2B
Anyone have any classes with me?
On Another note, Rachel read on and count the band points.
Band camp is just awesome. I am actually enjoying it, except the laps in the morning. My freshman all know pretty much what theyare doing except sometimes they don't quite understand. HILARY, is doing just fabulous, despite how much she complains. We've been doing some "forced fun time" where we have to hang out with everyone for a couple of hours. I think tomarrow im going to try and hang out with my freshman more. I'm told by some of the MSU people that I would fit right in with the other tenors and saxs in the marching band. One of our conductors told me that alot of the MSU students say im outstanding, funny, and they wish I was their brother so they could take me home.... Well... I'd take me home too, who wouldnt want a pocket matt?
It's been 4 days and i almost lost my voice today. Im very enthusiastic. Yes Rachel... ENTHUSIASTIC. I can do that. Nanner. Nanner. Boo. Boo. Carolyn(drum major) told me that during Dress Down im almost the only one she can hear... oh yah. Anyone want to call me.. please do... we have lunch at 11:30-12:somethin. and forced fun time from 12 something to 4:30 or so. so I am more than willing to talk to someone.. because ya know... I get bored sitting around singing with Mcbride.
Looking over the past
Looking at my blog I noticed that i've had this OVER a year. Looking at some of my old posts, i've noticed a few things:
1.I complained alot more then
2. the spelling errors due to my typing were horrible and incoherant.
3. I have some really cool friends.
here are a few exerpts.
"Me and my dad take the car into town. We decide on the back roads. Great, we hit a bird, ok no problem just keep going right? nope! we go to the corner, turn around and gawk at the dead bird. we open the door, poke it and roll it around, and my dad says "yep... he's dead alright" and as we're leaving scene of the crime, my dad runs it over again!! we go to the store do our stuff, and take the backroads home. My dad, runs over the bird AGAIN (3 times!!) i look at him.. "what? he might have been in pain" "oh my god, dad... we're rednecks"
MONDAY"" If you've seen the 4 alien movies, and the 2 predator movies, you'll understand it, and part of it will actually be funny. I was laughing my ass off. I think Dan only laughed because me Brady, Brandon and I think Jake was laughing... He didn't seem too impressed like you would be if you actually were laughing like that, but whatever floats yer boat. After that We hung out at bradys for a little bit. We jumped around on that trampoline, and started a fire... Of sorts.. We burned our school ideas"
Cedar Point
Cedar point; pure awesomness. Woke up at 4:00-4:30. Picked up justin and met at Bradys house. I had talked to Rachel the day before, and we concluded that as always; her. brady and I were all gonna ride in hte same vehicle, and of course Tracy(tracey?). Justin, Jake, and Cody rode in the other car. The car ride down there was actually pretty fun too. We played mad-libs and came up with some pretty intersting storys. me and Racel ended up giving a short puppet show to the others.
Ohio smells, no really; it does.
Cedar point was better than I expected. We went on this water ride, that was slightly interesting... my sock got wet. the second water ride we went on... dominated me. 3 waterfalls. though I'll admit, Rachel got it pretty bad too( My shoes stayed wet untill I got home). People kept wanting to go onto these slower rides... I was ready to go!! I wanted to go on something fasstt!!
We eventually ended up waiting in line for the Millenium... wow bad spelling tonight... But it started to rain so they shut it down.
Brady and I asked some youngins how old they were because they were smoking, later I was told one of them looked like he wanted to kill me.
Went on the Raptor, and it was awesome. I love rollercoasters. Though I have to say.. justin WAS pretty pale in the picture.
Rachel, Jake and I waited in line for the dragster for nearly 2 hours. Some lady (who I still say was on acid) randomly started talking to Rachel, it was by far one of the funniest things i've heard. They eventually shut down the Dragster due to weather conditions, and we left. We ate at fazolies, which is probably the best fast food/italian resteraunt ever. I was shivering, due to being wet in an air conditioned place... I was really..really...cold.
Toys R Us, I've noticed that whenever we go out as a group of friends, or take a trip, I end up buying Rachel something, but this time I didnt because I needed to save my money to give to Brady for Gas, so Rachel... I found something for you! ah hah!! Remind me about it.
Cody and I were ploting strategys before bumper cars, and we ended up desolating. Rawr.
Ride home wasnt as exciting as the way back, but what can you expect when the person next to you is sorda sleeping? It gave me time to think though. Most people are bothered by awkward silences... but I'm just satisfied knowing the other person(s) is/are there. Got to bradys and gave jake a ride home.
Arrived at home.
Socks were still wet. =(
Closing Time
Closing time
Open all the doors and let you out into the world
Closing time
Turn all of the lights on over every boy and every girl
Closing time
One last call for alcohol so finish your whiskey or beer
Closing time
You don't have to go home but you can't stay here
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
Closing time
Time for you to go out to the places you will be from
Closing time
This room won't be open till your brothers or your sisters come
So gather up your jackets, move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend
Closing time
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
Take me home
That song has currently been stuck in my head. I remember when I was in middle school, having MTV on before I left for school, and that song always being on, that song was awesome. Which makes me think, we're not kids anymore, and our fun times are starting to go away... We all keep thinking about things that STOP us from having fun, When we were little.. we never thought of why not, just always "when?". Just because we're getting older, doesnt mean we can't still have fun, we just need to stop worrying so much. I mysely worry constantly. This is our Last year guys... We need to make it the best its ever been. Plus we need to start thinking of senior pranks.
I hate work.
I'm still working alot...
Thursday- 11 am-7pm
Friday-2pm-10pm
Saturday-2pm-10pm
Sunday-11am-7pm
Next week Im not so sure about.. I was supposed ot have the 14th-19th off for band camp, but she scheduled it a week early.. so she has to re-write my schedule.
Brady is planning a Cedar Point trip, and I REALLY want to go, not just because I've never been... but because its with friends, and I havent done anything for a while, plus I havent seen brady all summer. My parents are telling me its too far to go... Why? 1. Its only ohio. 2. Im 17 you cant baby me anymore 3. I want to go explore things, Im at that age...not want.. NEED to go out and explore things.
I've been really stressed lately... actually to be honest, I almost cried I'm so stressed. I dont cry much. I'll admit I do, but not regularly... I need a break. Summer vacation is supposed to be exactly that.. a VACATION.. but its been filled with working, lectures, and hardships.
Long...ass... survey
(>>yOuR pasT<<)
1. what was your kindergarden teachers name? I cant remember, it was in howell
2. what was your most embaressing moment? Its hard to embaress me.
3. have you ever made fun of someone, then felt so bad about it that you appologized?yep
4. when was your first bf/gf and who? lol.. 1st grade. Mandy.
5. have you ever asked someone out? yes.
6. have you ever rejected someone? yes
7. have you ever been rejected? yeah =8. have you ever thought about suicide just because life wasnt going your way? Hasnt it crossed all out minds?
9. who was your first crush? Oh my god, this girl in my day care, she couldnt read but she rocked. but she ate her boogers O_o
10. what was your first job? uhh, Advertisment.
(>>yOuR PrEseNt<<)
1. whats your advisory teachers name? is that like a counselor? Mrs. Cockeril
2. what always seems to embaress you over and over? talking about how I feel.
3. whats your area code? 517 home slice.
4. do you have a gf or bf? Nope
5. what toothpaste do you use? Colgate is currently in the restroom.
6. where do you shop for lawn gnomes? Franks nursery.
7. do you highlight your hair? Ii've dyed it
8. do you have a wild waves season pass? fo' shure.
9. whats your favorite breathmint flavor? Orange
10. do you dislike one of your friends boyfriends? Yes.
(>>yOuR fUtuRe<<)
1. what do you wanna be when you "grow up"? I really dont know anymore, im having second thoughts
2. what would you want your future daughters name to be? Kelly? emily? hell if I know.
3. what would your future sons name be? I always thought Mark was a cool name
4. do you want to ever get married? yeah.
5. how long do you think youll live? lol not very.
6. where are you going to live when you "grow up"? I dunno.
7. what collage do you want to go to (if yur going to collage)? its COLLEGE. not collage =(
8. how old are u gonna be before u move out of your mommys house? lol probably like 20
9. whos gonna be your brides maids? I have to decide that?
10. whos gonna be your best man? ME!! no..
WHAT DO YOU THiNK OF:
50 First Dates: pretty good
The Bourne Supremacy: i have it
The Village: have that too, not that good.
The Butterfly effect: was ok
Anchorman: have that too, you know.. too many people quoted it
Catwoman: booty call
A cinderella story: wouldn't want to see it
Harry potter 1, 2 and 3: I've seen them.
Signs: NEVER SEEN IT
The Ring: funny
I. robot: Amber still has my copy
Shrek 1 and 2: puss n boots!
Spiderman 1 and 2: ok
13 going on 30: never watched the whole thing
Bruce Almighty: own it
Confessions of a teenage drama queen: havent seen it
Freaky Friday: was ok
Dirty Dancing: never seen it
Cold Mountain: have it
The Princess Diaries: never seen it
Lord Of the rings 1, 2, and 3:have them
New York Minute: NSI (never seen it)
Jennifer Anniston: what? oh. shes pretty.
Jim Carrey: he's pretty funny
Halley Berry: *shrugs*
Adam Sandler: he makes me laugh
Ben Stiller: he has his moments
Ashton Kutcher: ASSHOLE! take my name!
Tobey Mcguire: don't care for him
Denzel Washington: I think he's cool
John Patrick Amedori (sp?): who!?
Andy Dick: what?
Bam Margera: hair cut
Opposite Sex
||1|| Guitar or Drum Player - female drummers are so cool
||2|| Skater or Surfer - skater?
||3|| Brown or Blue Eyes - i don't care!
||4|| Blonde or Brunette - doesnt matter.
||5|| Brains or Looks - both would be nice.. but brains would be a must
Food
||11|| Hamburger or Hotdog - hamburgers
||12|| Pie or Cake -jake likes pie.
||13|| Apple or Banana - Banana
||14|| Coke or Pepsi - Pepsi
||15|| Chicken or Beef - Chicken.
||16|| Oreos or Chips Ahoy - ..Oreos
||17|| Pancakes or Waffles - WAFFLES
||18|| Chocolate or Vanilla - both
||19|| Strawberry or Cherry - strawberry! ^-^
||20|| Watermelon or Cantaloupe - Watermelon
||21|| Potato or Macaroni Salad - macaroni salad
||22|| Wheat or White - both
||23|| Tic Tacs or Altoids - both.
||24|| Sausage or Bacon - bacon.
||25|| Sour Cream and Chives or BBQ - depends.. o-O
Sports
||26|| Baseball or Football - football.
||27|| Swim or Track - swim
||28|| Tennis or Golf - Tennis
||29|| Skiing or Sledding - oh oh , sledding
||30|| Bicycling or Jogging - bike
Stores/Restaurants
||31|| McDonalds or Burger King - I WORK at mcdonalds
||32|| JC Penny's or Sears - wtf?
||33|| Walmart or Target - Target! you anti-american communists
||34|| Trophy's or TGI Fridays - lol what?
||35|| Albertson's or Vons - say what?
Clothes
||36|| Pants or Shorts - pants
||36|| Zip-Up or Pull-Over Sweatshirt - both
||37|| Sandals or Tennis Shoes - tennis shoes..
||38|| Dresses or Skirts - Say what?!
||39|| Mittens or Gloves - mittens! I wanna feel like a kid
||40|| Print or Solid - solids
Names
||41|| Bob or Bill - Billy bob!
||42|| Jessica or Jennifer - Jessica
||43|| Aaron or Erin - Erin.
||44|| Carrie or Kari - Carrie
||45|| Todd or Tom - Todd
||46|| Lynn or Lee - Lynn
||47|| Sarah or Susie - Sarah
||48|| Jack or John - john
||49|| Lisa or Linda - Lisa
||50|| Matt or Nick - MATT!!!!!!
Music
||51|| Punk or Rock - Rock
||52|| Country or Bubble Gum Pop - wtf?
||53|| Rap or Techno - techno
||54|| Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera - neither
||55|| *N Sync or Backstreet Boys - lol backstreet boys.
||56|| Korn or Staind - Staind
||57|| Limp Bizkit or Linkin Park - neither
||58|| Guitar or Drums - Drums
||59|| Piano or Violin - both
||60|| CDs or Radio - Cd's.. though the radio is cool
TV
||61|| Dawson's Creek or 7th Heaven - what?
||62|| Angel or Buffy the Vampire Slayer - ooo...
||63|| Law and Order or The Practice -
||87|| Fish or Hamster - say what?
||88|| Tiger or Lion - what is happening?
||89|| Butterfly or Lady Bug - what?!?!
||90|| Seals or Otters - seals.
Products
||91|| Tide or Gain - Tide
||92|| Herbal Essences or Suave - YES! YES!
||93|| Dove or Irish Spring - Irish spring because it says irish
||94|| A-JAX or 409 - a-jax. old fashioned oh yah.
||95|| Crest or Colgate - either
Banned
I have made disabled anonymous commenting. It's not so much the comments that bugged me; because they wern't true. I really have nothing to hide. It's the immaturity of some people. Names would have been great. I really wouldn't have cared who said it. Chances are you are either afraid of me, or afraid of being proved wrong to your face. Either way, you can no longer comment.
Deep wounds heal slow
Whats with the beach boys lately? First common ground, which was TONS OF FUN. Rachel, please thank your dad for letting me use his pass. But the beach boys are every where!! Second I hear them on TV. Third, 90% of the music played at my work is the beach boys! So because of this... I have been forced to constatly think of my favorite song by them:
Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong
You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together
Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice
Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice
You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice
Busy
I've been realyl busy lately with work. I havent had much time for friends. So to give you guys the scoop, Heres my Schedule for the up comming week.. starting with.. Tomarrow (saturday the 23rd)
Sat- 2pm-10pm(possibly later)
Sun- 7am-3Pm (I can probably do something that day)
Mon- Off
Tues- Off:They gave me alot of days off this week
Wed- Off: I wasn't kidding
Thurs- Off: See what I mean?
Fri- 5pm-10pm: 5 hour day
Sat- 11am-7pm
If you want to hang out.. LET ME KNOW. All of you should have my cell phone number. Give me a call, leave me love voicemail.
Disney Movie Marathon
While I was at work I got a phone call! Rachel had called me and left a voicemail. Asking if I'd like to go to a Diney Movie Marathon at her house! I didnt get the message till after work but it all...worked out. no pun intended.
At Rachels we were supposed to watch disney movies; but justin could not find them. We ended up watching Office Space. I have to say.. no matter how much you watch that movie, it is still awesome. Afterwards we did not exactly feel like watching a movie so we ventured to Rachels camper to gather board games!
Uno Scores:
Rachel-3
Matt-1
Yeah she wooped us all on that one.
Life- Probably jsut as long as Monopoly
I ended up winning, but not without my faults... 4 kids. 1 boy. 1 girl. and 2 twin girls.
"oh no! theres been a car crash!"
"Emily! learn to drive!"
"That's up to Rachel"
"take him"
"here let me set this up for you"
"suck up"
"Matt! are you trying to provoke her again?!"
Born Anew
A new template, what do you guys think? The Earthy colors just wasn't cutting it anymore.
So, I went to see Batman Begins. I have to say, it is a rather good movie. I like how they went indepth with the ACTUAL batman past. Also they left it open for a sequal, which is always good. I was dehydrated the other day. Almost passed out. Went for a bike ride and went farther than I thought I would. Didn't bring enough water. Too hot for this eh?
I don't really have anything to write about so... YEAH!
***WELCOME BACK RACHEL!!!!***
Paranoia
This is gonna be a mix of Matt's Wisdom and Matt Ranting.
My Brother. Everytime he comes home from his "school" my parents treat me like im stupid. I excel at computers and the like and my brother is going to school for it. He learns things that I do not know. But this does not mean he knows more than me. Just simply knows different things than me. But my parents would rather treat my like im stupid and dont know what im doing. They treat and tell him that he is great. They put the impression on me that he's better. why?
Addiction. Whats with people being addicted to things and making excuses? People smoke and when asked about quiting they say "it's not that easy" fine i'll accept that. but when it becomes such a problem, and you give me more than "its not that easy" there is something wrong. It's not that easy will work for a while but sometime you just have to suck it up. My brother smokes, and he tells me that "you just cant stop". No you really just can stop. you really can just drop it and walk away. People make too many excuses for these things. Sometimes people you jsut need to stop. So heres my message:
Stop making excuses and do it. I don't care how hard youthink it is. Get off your lazy ass and do something about it.
Phils blog. blame him.
The True You |
| You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you. |
| With respect to money, you spend as little as possible. |
| You think good luck will definitely be yours, someday. |
| The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. |
| You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. |
| When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends. |
Now about the money.. thats not so true... i actually have a problem with spending too much on a person.
Bad Luck.
I swear. I have THE worst luck. First. I back my dads car into a pole. He pretty much freaks out a that... Then I get into trouble for staying at Rachel's house a bit too late... and even worse yet.. on the way home from Rachel's house... I hit a goddamn deer. A DEER. I crested a hill and there it was, I pressed on the brakes, and luckily was able to slow down enough to not cause any damage.... The deer got up and ran away... I called my parents, and it gave me the answering machine the first time.. and then I tried their cell phones... it rang and then gave me the voicemail... tried the cells again and it went straight to the voicemail... they shut off their phone. well thats just freakin lovely. GAH! Deer. As Kyle said... they love the light.
time flows by
I was gonna put a song here, but that'd be kinda lame eh? it's a song I wrote, and maybe I'll put it here later. but have you ever had this feeling?
You know people care for you, and you know no matter what happens they will be there... yet you still feel alone, and like no one cares... because the person you want to care like that, doesnt?
If you do... I've felt that way before, It's not a great feeling and It is hard to describe. You know whats wrong... yet you don't. Either that or you don't want to know whats wrong. Sometimes people just like to have that lingering feeling. People say it and you try to believe it... but you can't ALWAYS be happy, you have to be sad if even only for a couple of seconds. Life just flows by in a matter of minutes and moments and we're too busy to stop and realize it.
Many people don't realize it, but I am actually a good person to talk to. I may not seem like it.. because I'm a bit of a spaz... but I do love to listen to people (if you are my friend) I love to help people out, and give advice.. or just to listen if they want to get something off their chest. I used to do it for Kelly and Bekah alot... Also.. I'm good at keeping secrets.. you know why? because I can't remember them half the time =P... just kidding. But if you guys ever need someone to talk to... ya know i'm here... anyway. that was random..
You know what a good song is? Mr. Brightside(the killers)... You know what another good song is? Sweet Dreams(dont remember the name)... Another... Church on Sunday(Green Day).. another... 500 miles (The Proclaimers) i think thats the name of the song...
Tag you're it.
someone gave me this:
1)List ten things you enjoy, even when no one is around. What lowers your stress / blood pressure / anxiety level? Make a list, post it to your journal, and then tag five friends and ask them to post it to theirs. Do it now because it's fun.
1. Read- I love to read.
2. Blast Music, even oldies- I love music.. I could cut out all the vocals and still be happy.
3. Listening to people who don't talk alot- talk.
4. Bike Ride- Gives me time to think, or not think. And it makes me feel less stressed.
5. Watching the rain- This is relaxing. I'll add dancing and singing in the rain here.
6. Passing cities on the highway at night. I love all the lights. its pretty.
7. PLAN HOW I AM GOING TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD!! BWHAHA....again.- Self explanitory.
8. Singing when no one is around- now, you may think that this is a bad thing, and i need to sing in public more.. but theres just something about it that makes you feel good.
9. Ranting- Now, I actually ahve fun while I do this, and I try to make it funny. Most people find it humorous. but it actually does clear some of that anxiety.
10. just simply hanging out with friends, it gets you away from everything and its like a cleansing of the system.
.... I tag... Rachel, Justin, Phil, Becca, and for the hell of it, cause she reads this every now and then. Chelsey. Go forth and do this!
Ode.
Friendships will end
As new ones begin..
My heart cries out
and I don't know where to start
I say i'm happy for you
I smile a time or two
Yet inside I want to cry
because I may be happy for you...
But not for me
Chorus:
Don't go yet
Don't leave yet
I'm not ready for us to part
So
Don't go yet
Don't leave yet
Because we're just about to start
Sitting in the rain
dealing with the strain
feel it pounding on my heart
yet it only seems to stain
Somtimes when
I see you
I can't stop
the memories
What will happen when we leave?
Will we all change?
For the better?
for the worse?
well..
Chorus:
Don't go yet
Don't leave yet
I'm not ready for us to part
So
Don't go yet
Don't leave yet
Because we're just about to start
don't go yet
Don't leave yet
I'm not ready for this part..
That was inspired by many different peoples thoughts and feelings as of late, It's not that great, I know. hah.
Soft Spot
If you thought I was a hard person... I'm really not.. I'm actually pretty much a softy... example:
So Today... My mom went and got her new puppy.. it's a long haired Miniature Dauschund. You knoe something that REALLY bugs me? Taking an animal like that. I hate it. I feel so bad and sad when I take a puppy away from its mom & family. I feel even worse.. when you have to put it down for the evening to sleep.. because you have to make it go to sleep.. but you can't touch it when it cries.. so it learns? What kind of fucked up world is this? That's way too much for something like that... I wouldn't be able to handle that.
It makes me incredibly sad to think about it, it's just wrong. Don't get me wrong... I like the puppy.. but... I feel bad. Tonight... when my mom put it in its new bed thingy, and turned out the lights.. it sat there and cried and yelped...
I wanted to cry! holy crap!
What right do we have to take something from their parents or family like that? So what if we are the most advanced race on the planet, or the smartest.. Homo Sapian sapian?! why the hell did we put "smart smart"?! That's just wrong.. lol I feel bad... O_o
Eventually the ties where down and they stop crying, or rather... he's cried himself to sleep.. anyone else think thats horribly wrong? but what can you do? Blah. People suck.
Loss for words.
Lately I've been at a loss for words. If you know me I can usually jabber on for hours. -- Maybe not hours, but you get the idea. I haven't wrote a thing of Matt's Wisdom in a while for that reason... I don't know what to write about. Though, after Rachel said it in her Blog/Journal... I think I shall write about Depression.
What makes a person think they are depressed? What classifies you as depressed? Is it all mental? or is it biological? Is that why medication can "supress" the feelings? Who TRUELY knows. We're supposed to take doctors words for things, but they have been wrong so many times... why is it we take their word for this?
I don't think being depressed is when you want to kill yourself, think you are worthless. No... thats
depressing but it is not depressed. I think being depressed is something you allow yourself to be. I'm not saying you can turn it off and on, but its more of an emotion. That's why you FEEL depressed. Not to be confused with sad... Sad is when something bad has happened. Or something of the like. Depressed is when you can no longer feel happy. You no longer
want to laugh. To take an exerpt from a friend... Hope he doesn't mind :
"The darkness that consumes me is the punishment for messing up....i have messed up everything in life, including other peoples lives....i try not to mess up but it only makes things worse...in the end, all the things i know and all the people i love....thats one big mess up too....i seek help from friends, i seek quideance, i seek the only thing that friends can give me....but not even friends try to help me....i should just never do or say anything, but that would turn into a big mess up....friends tell me that if i dont always mess up that i wouldnt need to apologize so much.....their right too....if i can figure out what i mess up on, then i wouldnt have to apologize so much."
That is depressed. You can no longer function normally without feeling... like that. Now why do we allow ourselves to get this way? We just stop thinking about everything that we have ahead of us, we concentrate on what could have been rather than what will be.
People need to laugh more. We need to stop being so serious about things. Now I'm not suggesting that we all stop drop and roll... but rather that when we break a nail... Wreck your parents car *cough*, or lose the TV remote, that we don't go int oa fit of crying and whining... laugh about it. The night I wrecked my dad's car... I wasn't crying myself to sleep and wondering when I would next see daylight. I was
laughing as Justin as my witness.
If depression is biological, then it is something we obviously cannot help. They now make medication to supress these depressed feelings and make you see the brighter side of life. Be more social, let you know what there is to live for-- why don't we just give people some alchohol? hah.
That's all I can think of for now.. I may add more to this later. This wasn't as good as past wisdoms, but ...yeah.
This has been your weekly broadcasting of Matt's Wisdom.
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Well... I'd love to post about the day before Brady's party... or Brady's party... or hell today... but...I just wrecked my dad's car... and... I'm screwed...
Rachel... Thank you for being such an awesome friend.. and the only one to offer to come pick me up. Your such an awesome friend and it's great to know I can rely on someone like you. If you EVER need ANYTHING let me know, and I will try my hardest to do it or get it.
But Rachel did it...
SURVEY
1) What time is it right now? 8:00 pm
2) Name as it appears on your birth certificate: Matthew Ryan Cutcher
3) Nickname(s): Matt, Matty, Cutch ( only people who dont really know me call me that)
4) Parents name: Ronald and Antonia
5) Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake: 17!!
6) When do you regularly blow them out: June 4th
7) Companion Animals: 5 birds (die bastards) 3 dogs
8) Eye color: Blue
9) Hair color: Sandy I guess... err... someone want to tell me? I dont look at my hair much..
10) Piercing: no!
11) Tattoos: no
12) How much do you love your job?: Dont have one... YET
13) Favorite color: Blue
14) Hometown: Billtown, MI
15) Current Residence: Billtown, MI
16) Favorite food: Edible kind.
17) Been to Europe: Yup! twice. Germany.
18) Have you ever toilet papered anything: Sisters room.
19) Loved somebody so much it made you cry: This is besides family right? I dunno.
20) Been in a car accident: nope... I'm a safe Driver!! ask Rachel... =D
21) On salad, do you want Croutons or bacon bits?: both
22) Sprite or 7UP: 7up
23) Favorite Movie: I Love anything that can make me laugh
24) Favorite Holiday: St. Patricks day
25) Favorite day of the week: Friday
26) Favorite word or phrase: Last it would have been "pineapples will rule the world!" but... now... I'm not sure.
27) Favorite Toothpaste: The kind you use.
28) Favorite Restaurant: bravo WAS good.
29) Favorite Flower: Tulips.
30) Favorite Alcoholic Drink: Rachel had a good answer for this one. clever. O_o
31) Favorite sport to watch: hockey.
32) Preferred type of ice cream: SUPERMAN!!
33) Favorite Sesame Street Character: Never watched it
34) Favorite Disney or Warner Bros.: Marty the Martian
35) Favorite Fast Food Restaurant: Wendy's
36) When was your last hospital stay: LAst year.
37) What color is your bedroom carpet: Wood
38) How many times did you fail your driver's test: I didnt.
39) Have you ever been convicted of a crime: Nope.
40) Who was the last person you hugged?: Rachel.
41) Which store would you choose to max out your credit card: I don't like credit cards.
42) What do you do most often when you are bored: Read, Bike ride.
43) Name the person that you are friends with that lives the furthest away: Lyn
44) Favorite class: BAND!!!!
45) What time do you go to bed? 11:30pm-12:00 am
46) Who was the last person to call you? uhh.... I dont get very many calls.. probably Ski.
47) What/who are you currently obsessed with? Losing weight! damnit!! (excuse my langauge) and hanging out with friends.
48) Favorite all time TV show: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
49) Last person you went out to lunch with: Myself
50) Last Movie you went to: Kingdom of Heaven
51) What time is it right now? 8:06... holy crap that was fast.
Epiphany
You know, I realized.. through all my worrying and such... It's not worth it. I should take things as they come and not try to change them. I'm pretty much done in my attempt to get a girlfriend. Somethings just aren't going to happen, and I have to deal with it. On this not, because I have stop worrying about it so much... I'm back to being the old me! that's right. I'm gonna be loud again! I'm going to try and hang out with all you people again, I wasn't really trying before, just kinda hoping someone would invite me to something.
Mmkay, so lets play some word association/fill in the blank... some of these will be about me.. so be honest and say the first thing that comes to your mind.
Matt is _______
Matt should _______
House-
Cat-
Cell phone-
Fan-
Summer-
Graduation-
Exercising is ______
If I were Matt I would ________
I ______ Matt because ______
T.V.-
Shoes-
Friends-
Family-
Legos-
Mmkay thats all I can think of. Everyone who reads this has to fill this out... why? because. That's right. Because.
Scratch that
Yeah that last post... You can ignore it if you want... because... I felt really sad.. and... it was stupid. Rachel made it a rule that you can't delete posts.. so.. yeah.
School... Was ok, another day... Brady gave me one of those school scarf thingies... it is SO cool. I was suprised when katie gave me a birthday present.. she called me over, and I was expecting to be nailed with something.
Tonight.. went to jakes for a bon-fire. It was awesome.
"you just play the g-string"
"fantasy position"
"The cowses and the horses"
"MARSHMELLOWS!!! ... I don't like marshmellows"
"I think I'll have a cookie...frosted sugar cookie..."
"I don't like frosting"
"It's pooping gum?"
"twinkle twinkle had a little star"
So many more.. These are the reasons I am afraid to graduate. I don't want to lose things like this!!
Communication skills?
I've noticed lately, after talking with Rachel for a bit... that I'm not as talkative as I used to be. I used to be able to chatter for hours. I could go on for hours. About absolutely nothing. Now... I can hardly hold a conversation... Rachel.. you may say I'm paranoid... but I'm not really... I mean about somethings... yeah.. but others.. not really. I personally.. believe this lack of talking is due to the gap in my hanging out with friends. I havent hung out with anyone lately.. and that bugs me. We need to get together soon. Just a group of us.. Hang out. I've been trying to hang out with a person for a while, and they are always busy... you probably know who you are... and I don't mean any offense by this. Just merely venting. Other than the talking on my part. I haven't been exactly happy lately, and I think thats why.. I get the feeling that I'm losing my friends. Now that may seem critical, and you'll say "thats not true!" but it's the feeling I get.
Prom and all that good stuff.
So, I guess I should talk about prom eh?
Let's start with Friday. Friday I woke up around 7 or so. Did some work, and then at 3 I went and picked up my tuxedo. Saw brady and jake there too. Put in some job applications.
Saturday... I woke up at around 7:15... I went early to wash the Car. I needed to get a post prom form so I tried multiple times to stop at the highschool and pick one up... first time.. around 9 o'clock.. no one was there. So I go and wash the car. That took roughly 2 hours. On my way back home, I stop by the highschool again... still no one there. So I go home and do some yard work. 2 o'clock rolls around and I head off to pick up Rachel's corsage(coursage?). After the corsage I head off to pick up Rachel and her mum some flowers. I do that.
After that I head back to the highschool.. and YES someone is there. I get a form, fill it out. I go home and take a shower and get into my tux. After manipulating the button thingys for the wrists.. My father took many pictures. I escaped from his grasp and headed off towards Rachel's. I had no trouble finding her house that time and actually picked the right drive way too! When I pulled in Rachel and her parents were outside taking pictures. Rachel had on an absolutely gorgeous dress, and she looked just stunning.
Her parents take some pictures, her mom fixes my shirt/pants and they take some more. Rachel nor myself much like pictures. Or rather as we described it... we dont mind them... just do not prefer them. I did give the flowers to Rachel and her mum first (hoped they liked them) and after the pictures, Rachel's parents took even more pictures of Rachel, and did some 'hair shots' for an aunt? We head off to my house so my dad can take some pictures. Eventually we get off to bradys around 4:30. we show up at bradys close to 20 minutes early and his mom says " I never thought I'd live to see the day"... She takes pictures of me and Rachel.She offers us some lemonade and we jsut wait for everyone else to show up. Brady and Tracey(tracy?) show up and bradys mom takes pictures. Jake and Hannah show up, more pictures. Cody and carie show up... more pictures... then we take the group pictures. boy girl boy girl... boy boy boy.... girl girl girl... they opt for some outside photos but we decline and boycot. We eventually make our way outside with minimal pictures taken and we head off.
We get to Bravo and we order and eat... Rachel was rather upset about her dress... I still say you can't see it. After dinner we headed off to schulers, and Rachel wanted this big soft stuffed ducky... but it was 50 bucks... and I couldn't afford that =(, so I got her the smaller one. Brady reminded me to take the receipt so she couldn't return it... Good thinking brady. We head off to Prom and get there with only a little bit of trouble, nothing much. Rachel and I danced for some songs and not for others. We all went outside for a walk and just goofed around... Follow the leader!! Near the end there was one last dance, and then we left about 15 minutes early. We headed back to bradys house and we all changed. I went back to my house for a pair of pants (which I had forgotten) and we get to the Post Prom around midnight. There was lazer tag, bungee thing, twister and coffee things. I played 4 games of lazer tag, 4-0. didnt lose (woohoo!!) I think the greatest victory was Rachel and I ( believe there was another kid... didnt really ever see him though) against phil and 2 other people. 28-13 win. We rock Rachel. Near 3:30 I started to think some things... thats why I wasnt smiling like I normally am. and I decided that it wasn't worth thinking about and started to have fun again. We all ended up laying on the floor. Jake and Hannah ended up falling asleep I believe. Rachel kinda dozed near the last 15 minutes... though brady wouldnt let her sleep. Phil did attempt to wake her up during that time... but I shooed him away.. I dropped Hannah off after passing her house, head off to jakes and drop him off. Finally drop Rachel off. And that was prom.. I actually had LOADS of fun, and thank you Rachel for inviting me.
Oh my god I'm bored.
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. |
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now. |
Religion?
Lets talk about Religion today.
What is religion? is it peoples way of being secure? Is it so they can blame someone or something else for everything? Is it so they have something to believe in? Or is it so people can have a way on explaining what they cannot explain?
I believe it depends on the person. Many say that in the begining, God created the heaven, and the earth. you learn that god is timeless, and God is everything, but nothing. So, if god is the timeless being, then I wonder... who created God? If he was not created by someone or something else, how did he come to be? My mian problem with the Bible is that it leaves to many questions un answered, and too much room for skepticism. Alot of people... like me... Need proof of things to believe them... Most of the time. It is hard for me to take something "on faith". Then again, I also find the theory of how the earth was created to be a bit far fetched. No no.. there must be another answer that we have not discovered.
Many people cannot explain things that happen... like how the sun was created, or how the spacious vaccum of Space was created. So they look to a religion to tell them how. Then they are happy with "god made it that way" As a child, we're told "god made it that way" and it was all explained, no need to question further. Many people also look to religion for meaning, and security... For if there is no life after death, what becomes of us? Our natural instinct for self preservation makes us panic... what if I wont exsist anymore? what is the point? why should I be alive now? I must have a greater purpose. Many people look at these things that way.Speaking of God's. Why is it that Christians worship Jesus more than God? In church you hear songs of praise to jesus. In my life, I've heard maybe 2 or 3 songs dedicated to GOD. When we pray, we pray to jesus, when we end our prayer, we say it to jesus. Jesus was not the Christian creator, it was God. God controls everything.
Then there is believing. The need to know that someone or something is always there. Something to put out faith into. If we have nothing to put our faith into... then what are we faithful to? what do you believe? what do we look for when things go wrong? Now don't get me wrong.. you may think I dont believe in a God. Or I'm a sinner. No... this is not true. I simply do not believe the same way you do.
I believe there may be a God. What I refuse to believe is that this god spoke to men, and said "write this down". I believe the Bible was made by man. I believe that a God wants me to do what is right in my heart, and what is right in my mind, only when these 2 objects can agree, is when something is truely right. I do not follow the 10 commandments... I do not follow the bible. I follow my heart. I use my mind to determine what is the right, and the logic.
This has been my weekly(biweekly?) Matt Wisdom.
I THINK this is what I was supposed to do....
1. You're stuck inside Fahrenheit 451. Which book do you want to be?
I never read the book..
2. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character?
Only the hot ones? Not really... Though when they kill off a a character I really like it makes me sad. poor flint!!!
3. The last book you bought was...?
...I buy alot of books.... I think it was one of the
Twin series from DragonLance.
4. The last book you read was...?
Bo
unre Supremacy. I did a book report on it.
5. What are you currently reading?
Dandelion Wine. We're reading it for english. I really dont mind the book. I can read it for a while. I'd even go as far to say that I like it. But it kinda makes me depressed. Because it makes me think of how old we've gotten and how we DO let things pass us by and we don't take the time to be who we are, we're too worried about who we want to/will be.
6. Five books you would take to a desert
island...
Five? The DragonLance Twin series (3 books), The Davinchi code (thanks for that one rachel), and.......
HARRY POTTER!!! just kidding.
Talen of the Silver Hawk7. Who are you passing this stick on to and why?
uhhh.... I dunno who reads this alot... I know Rachel does... but I wont pass it back to her.... I'll pass it to Katie and Becca R. because they do read it... or glance at it.... I hope this is what I was supposed to do, Rachel... if not... Beat me untill I fix it.
Band Trip
Just got back from band trip yesterday.
Bad News:It was a national Competition
Good News: We placed 1st
Better News: I recieved an award that says, out of every person that was there, that played my same instrument ( even in the other bands) I was the best. So there for. I r the bestest ContraBass Clarinet Player in the nation. (ok I doubt it was the WHOLE nation, but its nice to think so)
Wednesday night we left and it was a 8-10 hour bus ride. It was horribly long. I didnt sleep. Everyone else around me slept, and it was nice every couple of hours Emmaleigh would wake up and we'd talk for about 2 hours and then she'd go back to sleep. There are some of the most BEAUTIFUL mountain scenes I have ever seen. I'm not even kidding. It was gorgeous. So we finally get back to civilization around 8 am. we stop at a gas station to change clothes. We get back on the bus for another hour to drive for breakfast. We eat at a place called Shoneys. I ate a bowl of cereal. 6 bucks? wtf mate? we got back on the bus for about another half hour. We eventaully get to our hotel. My and my 2 room mates were on the 4th floor, cliff and his roomates in the room next to us, and Amber and her roomates right below us on the 3rd floor (remember those facts for later) We take a shower, and stuffs. We head back out and we go into a town. very small town, but many cool things. Not much detail there. We get back on the bus around 3 o clock. We head back to the hotel to hang out for another hour and get ready for dinner (we had to dress nice) so I wore khaki dress pants and a blue button up shirt. and my hat with all the pins (yeah try and take that away from me punks) so we go to dinner, lo' and behold we had to jump through hoops for dinner. we had to wait an hour before we could even be seated. so we listened to some horrible people sing. It was called "the Dixie Stampede" well we finally get seated in this huge arena area. and we watch this civil war thingy. They do a bunch of competitions to see who wins and blah blah blah ( keep in mind we were in the south ( tennessee)) we were on the north side, so we cheered for the north. We had to eat out dinner with our hands. they gave us a whole chicken,potatos, bread, soup, pork, corn on the cob. and then some thingy for desert. it was pretty cool. We go back to the hotel, and play around for an hour or two. Me and cliff get bored and we start talking. Amber comes into the room and starts to hang out with us. Well.. she had left her pictures in my room. So me and cliff go and play mission impossible, running down the hallways, and going down the elevator, we snuck past the security gaurd and returned her pictures. Once we are forced back into our own rooms and lights are out. I make a clever plan to send amber an note. except I cant leave my room. so I go out on the balcony of our room, and I put a message in a bottle, and tie duct tape around it... to swing it into her balcony. I get it in there *YES!* so, then ryan wants to send one to his girlfriend. Yeah... OK... we were out of tape.. so we were trying to get becca ( who was in ambers room) to throw the bottle and tape back up, there were 3 of us in our room trying to catch the bottle, and cliff and his roommates watching us on their balcony eating cookies. well becca is trying to toss it up, and then the security gaurd walks outside, all me and my roomates see him first, ryan runs into our room, laughing his ass off. I drop to the ground, and army crawl into the room, our other room mates toe got stuck in a crack, so he just plainly fell... cliff and his roomates all run for the door at once, and end up running into each other and spilling cookies everywhere. becca being oblivious didnt notice the gaurd untill he flashed his flashlight at her. Busted.
Well she only got a warning, and someone stole the guards report from the door or the conductor.
The next day we woke up early and went to breakfast, at a pancake house. It was really good. Except ryan freaking out. I started talking in a southern accent on accident when i was approached by a southern lady. We then proceeded to eat lunch and walk around somemore... oh my god... I found this huge ball beAring that was on top of some water. I swear I sat there for 15 minutes spinning it. we then had our band competition. We roxord! we went back to the hotel, and prepared to go on a hike. We drove about an hour with a tour guide, up a mountain. my ears popped. I talked to amber pretty much the whole way. I cant remember all the conversations but they were funny. We got to about 6644 ft. then we got off the bus and hiked up to the top of the mountain. it was hard... but awesome. Emmaleigh was my walking buddy. We got to the top, and took pictures and all that good stuff... it was awesome. and very pretty. on the way down, emmaleigh fell.. poor emmaleigh. We got back on the bus, talked to amber somemore, ears popped some more. so We finally get back to the hotel.. and have to get ready for dinner! *whew this is long* have to dress nicely again. Amber insisted that I wear my pink dress up shirt so we can match. So I did. We went to this Black Bear Jamburee thingy. where I sat at a table with emmaleigh, amber, chrstian, new kid number 2, and vincent. They played alot of comedy stuff, but they sang some songs too. they sang songs from broadway shows, and dances. They pulled Katie up on stage and danced the Twist with her. She had a short skirt on though, so I felt bad at that. well when she got off stage, I stole her cowboy hat, and gave her my hat with the pins. I wore that cowboy hat for the rest of the trip (thats right I was wearing a girls cowboy hat). We eventually left there and we went on a Wally World run (wal-mart). Me and ryan picked up these big blue buckets for our baskets, and RAN around the store, picking up survival supplies (pop, cheezits, kool-aid....etc) I had just grabbed the cheetos when this girl turned the corner right in my way as I was running so I stopped. and didnt say anything. she looks at me with such a disgusted look, and says "uh, excuse YOU" so I stood there, and gave her the absolutely funniest look ever. then I ran. We get back to the hotel, and Stephanie ( a senior) was told by a chaperone to make sure everyone picks up their trash, well Thomas(new kid number two) was back talking and giving her shit. As we were getting off one of the chaperones stops me and yells at me "you were being very rude to stephanie so you better have cleaned up" so I flatly told her "It wasn't me(at this point I showed her the trash I picked up) so dont blame me for something I didnt do" she proceeded "I dont care, you were very rude--" that set me off "look lady I told you it wasnt me so get off my back" and I got off the bus, and told my Band conductor the nature of th events. The chaperone didnt bug me the rest of the trip. Once we got into the hotel room (cliff was in my room for some reason) ryan was putting away pop, and thomas was standing there with a bag. I opened up on him. (just an hour before this emmaleigh had told me how I was her favorite because I had kept such a happy attitude during the whole trip) but I opened up on him. I started bitching about he must be trying to fuck things up and etc etc. I FORCED him to go apologize to stephanie for being a dick, i even escorted him. We got back, ryan looked at me "oh my god, I so saw that comming, I have been waiting this whole trip for you to snap". Well lights out came and I snuck onto the porch and the security gaurd was standing right outside, looking at our 3 balconies. I didnt get to send another note, because once he went inside, another gaurd showed up.
SATURDAY MORNING... jesus this is long. We woke up and had breakfast at the hotel. we them loaded all of our stuff and got on the bus, we went to DollyWood. a theme park. We rode a couple of rides, and then Right when I was at the very peak of the ferris wheel. the stop it. I'm just like "wtf?" and it starts downpouring. So Im up there and its raining, and then they start going backwards.. they were letting people off. they let the people behind me off... then start going forward again.... letting the people infront of me off. so basically I got twice as wet as everyone. So I was soaked, and it didnt really matter, So I just stood in the rain, rather than under a roof. We rode a couple more rides, and I eventually split off and hooked up with Becca R. Katie ( the one that got on stage... she as wearing my hat, and I was wearing the cowboy hat) we went and rode a roller coaster. I did everything but sleep through the first one. the second one. was freaky as hell. I sat next to katie. There was a drop that you couldnt see the bottom, and you couldnt see the tracks. It was hilarious. I saw us comming up on the drop, and I was just like "oh shit oh shit *holds out my hand* katie grabbed my hand, and we rode the rest of the ride. Luckily, i didnt squeeze her hand to hard ( i asked if I did). Yeah I'm a big softy.... I was scared I'll admit that. I know... leave me alone.. lol... so we eventually leave the park.. after being there for... oh.... 7 HOURS. We go to a nascar speedway. and we race go karts. this little kid cut me off on the track. I was so pissed. He ran to the same track as me and cliff after wards and guess who won?! MATT DID. BOOYA. It was raining so I was skidding all around the track, it was hilarious. but because it started to rain, they gave us 30 tokens to do with what we will. me and cliff shot a couple of deer of Dee Hunter, but then we found this game... by the end of it. we . we combined ours with another kid to have nearly 3000 tickets, and we just loaded it all. We bought so much small crap. I asked the lady "you spazzing out yet?" she told me "just a little" it was fun. We then found a simulator. they had manual shifters. oh my god. it was awesome. I took emmaleigh as my passenger and we raced other people. I got 3rd place, because I forgot to press the clutch once when I shifted and I stalled out. We then started on our way home after that.
We stopped on the way to get food. that took roughly an hour or two. so it was 9-10 pm before we got started driving. at 1 am we stopped at a rest stop. at 2 am we stopped to re-fuel, where.. because I'm such a gentleman I lent Donna my jacket because she had forgotten hers and was wearing a tantop. The same deal on the bus ride... I stayed awake... every couple of hours emmaleigh would wake up, sit next to me and we'd talk. We got home, unloaded all that jazz. FINALLY the trip was over. holy crap.
Monday (today) Katie never gave me my hat back untill band hour. She gave it back, and oh my god. it smelled. wonderful. I loved it. she said some of her perfume spilled on it. GGAAAHH thats enough to drive a guy insane. I refused to put it on, and smelled it the rest of the day.
YUP THATS IT... oh my god that was long.
Bought rachel this crystal horse thingy. Cassie a carebear ( they didnt have any nascar stuff at the nascar place) and then bekah a shot glass) We also spammed rachel with zillions of calls. We spammed bekah too... but with not nearly as much as rachel.
Stole this thingy from Rachel..
Your Birthdate: June 4 |
Being born on the 4th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer.
You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize.
Sincere and honest, you are a serious and hard working individual.
Your feelings are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times.
The number 4 has something of an inhibiting effect on your ability to show and express affections, as feeling are very closely regulated and controlled.
You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details.
There is a good deal of rigidity and stubbornness associated with the number 4. |
They have that whole emotion thing pegged. I can be stubborn but I'm actually pretty giving. They didnt say anything about sense of humor! I love to laugh/make people laugh. I also love to see people smile.
I've also come to decision. I'm never really depressed. maybe once or twice. but I'm usually either happy, or thinking. You may say... thinking isnt a mood. well for me it is. because my mood/temperment generally reflects whatever I'm thinking about. so If I'm thinking about something that isnt very happy.. then I might not be happy. but It's usually things I dont want to share with others (back to that emotion thing) or dont know how to share. but I'm always happy! Come on think about it. If i'm not laughing, or complaining (which I can usually go about doing in a funny way) I'm quiet and serene. anyone know what I mean? or am I wrong?
I cant think of a title
I've been in relitively high spirits lately, and I dont know why. I dont have very many reasons to be happy, but I am. well I should say the bad outweigh good. I havent been on lately to update so I'll let you guys know why... well the very few of you who read this anyway. I am grounded.I failed the first marcking period of Honors Gov. Because she is a maniacle BITCH (for the girls who read this, excuse my langauge). I swear she hates me. But I've been over that before. My dad. in his Fit of Fury.. would not let me explain that as long as I get a high grade on this marking period the last one is waivered. So he grounded me from friends and computer. I'm scarcely allowed to go on bike rides.
Also, I'm going to prom. Rachel made my day with that one. Band trip is going to be awesome. I cant wait to get away from my parents for a while. I had alot more to type in here but I forgot. I was gonna rant...but I guess I'll save that for later...er...
Talking to anonymous person A alot lately, which is awesome. I've known them for a long time, and I love the fact that our friendship hasnt dwindled. I hope all my friendships stay this vibrant.
Also, I have been quite distant from my friends lately. and I'm sorry. I've been really stressed lately and It's sucked. I've been on the edge for a while but I'm comming back. no going over yet =P
Matt's update! Stay tuned for a rant! yarg?
When I'm ungrounded. Brady,Jake, Brandon, and myself are going to build a pirate ship. It'll be awesome. Shouldnt be too mcuh longer... hopefully by this weekend.
Yeah well screw you too.
I have this gut wrenching feeling. And you know what? It does not piss me off, like everything else does. No, it makes me sad. During english we had vocab. One word was Stoic. Meaning to not show alot of emotion, or hides emotions etc etc. And I thought to myself..."huh... I'm pretty stoic I guess" And then I started to think about how do I really feel? I'm generally a pretty happy person... I have tons of energy all the time. It's really hard to get me down.
Someone told me a while ago, that I have a repressed box. Where I store all my emotions and things that bother me, and just keep it in there, hide it. Don't let it bother me. I've been having some pretty weird dreasm lately, and I'm not one to just believe in any dream, because come on? some of the dreasm I've had are pretty fucked up. But the dreams, are making sense once I think about it. My friend said my repressed box was getting too full or something like that, i put something in there I really care about.
Think about it, do you ever really see me moping around and all "Woe me, woe me... I fucked up my past, and now I'm going to dwell on it, oh if only I could go back, I would do it all differntly!" No, you don't. I'm a perky person, either I'm complaining, or I'm actually having a conversation. I'm full of enthusiasm. I'm hyper! I'm willing to take a risk for just a little bit of fun!
But is that really me?
I'm actually a really shy person. I mean extremely shy. Some of you know this, others do not. I'm unbeleivably shy. I may not seem so because of the above paragraph... but I really am. I hide alot of my emotions. You know what I've been feeling lately? alot! But thats too bad, because should I tell you? Do you REALLY want to know how I feel about things? about myself? about people?
Stupid online quizs are fun!....
Your dating personality profile:Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Intellectual - You consider your mind amongst your assets. Learning is not a chore but a constant search after wisdom and knowledge. You value education and rationality.
Your date match profile:
Funny - You consider a good sense of humor a major necessity in a date. If her jokes make you laugh, she has won your heart.
Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw her out of her shell and get to know what she is all about.
Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things. |
Hmm?
How well do you think you guys know me? I don't know either! So!! I wan't those of you who read this, to post a question or two or three, of things you want to know about me! I'll answer the questions to the best of my ability. (i'm sorry, this is what happens when I don't have anything to rant about... yet)
I need time to think...
I think i will rant. But I don't know what to rant about.. So I'll type about something else untill I think of it.
Rachel, in her journal watcha-ma-call-it was saying how people will do whatever it takes to gain the attention, and to have the world 'smack dab in the middle of their forhead'. She also said how she's a cynic. Giving the definition... "Someone who beleives everyone is motived by their selfishness". I believe this is true. Think about it. What is everyones goal in life? As a teenager(general populace of teenagers) your goal is to get a good job in life, that makes alot of money, and that you like. Or maybe your goal is to find the love of your life? In highschool. Over... and Over... and Over... and Over again. Life is based on being selfish. In todays society. Look at jobs. We try so hard, to get that promotion, or we try so hard to just get the job. When we do, or if we do, she shut others who tried for the job, thereby advancing ourselves through others disadvantages. So in a way, once you realize this... you have to be a cynic.
Speaking of Life. Lets discuss... The Meaning of Life. First, we must know the defintion of life.. atleast the textbook defintion;
Main Entry: life
Pronunciation: 'lIf
Function: noun
Inflected Form: plural lives /'lIvz/ 1 a : the quality that distinguishes a vital and functional plant or animal from a dead body b : a state of living characterized by capacity for metabolism, growth, reaction to stimuli, and reproduction
2 a : the sequence of physical and mental experiences that make up the existence of an individual b : a specific part or aspect of the process of living
—life·less /'lIf-l&s/ adjective
and our defintion? Would we say the defintion of life is to "Live, Learn, and Prosper"? sure why not. But this cannot be the meaning of life. No matter even if when asked the meaning of somthing we give its defintion. No, because this is not enough. We need something, something material to hold onto, something that can be distinguished above anything else.
So lets look at it this way. Life. To be alive, pulse whatever. When you die. that is the end. When looking for something that you do not know the 'meaning' of, you go for the end result, what occurs as a result of this. As a result of Life... You Die. So, could we simply say the meaning of life is to die? Quite possibly. but still not enough. What good would it be, to live through all the strugles, and aspire to everything, that only ends to be nothing?
So tohse are the answers we have come up with. Which do you choose? certainly.. you may choose one, but is it really what you want your life to mean? The same thing as everyone elses? This is why when we ask the meaning of life, there is none; because we like to keep ourselves hoping that one day we may find OUR answer. Not anyone elses, just our own. is it perhaps each life has its own seperate meaning? I think it may be. Look at Albert Einstein. and Hitler. These people, chose what to do with their life, giving it meaning.
So why do we wait for an answer? When we could give ourselves one.
Wisdom of Matt
So, what information and complaining shall I bestow upon you today? Maybe we shall talk about the Media!! Yes lets.
Alright. So for most of us, the media is our main source of information. We all hear something drastic, and we run to the nearest person and say "oh mah gawd, did you hear about blah blah blah blah!?" But is it really that drastic? The media lives to make things appear worse than they are. We all watched the war via the News. Notice during all these shows of violence, they never showed what happened to us? Or the people who actually wanted us in the country? During these little raves, they would go on and on about how this can't be a war just for the common good of people, forcing their own opinion into the news, delivering us a tainted and distorted truth.
The media does not show us the good side of things. Only reporting the bad things, casting fear into the people of this country. Why can't they talk about the Annual Texan Chili Fest? or how quickly old people are dying?! What would it be like if we hardly heard about the bad things that happened? Who knows? But what would you prefer? To hear about murders and rapes everyday, or about how we plan to cure cancer?
More Matt Knowledge for ya rachel =P.
Revelation
I think I have had a revelation... I've been tossing something around in my mind for the longest time. A VERY long time. Everytime I would think about it, I would be sad or whatever you want to call it.. sure brady you can even call it
emo. I would be thinking about it constantly.. so therefor.. I would be sad all the time. As I have thought about it more and more... I've decided on something, which happened to be what I decided on a long time ago, but of course; I think alot.
So i should be happier from now on. Unless I start thinking about other things. I have too much time to think. Oh magua.. I need to do something. I have way too much time to think.
Greenday
This is my favorite Green Day song;
Church on Sunday
ooh
today is the first day of the rest of our lives
tomorrow is to late to pretend everything's all right now
I'm not getting any younger as long as you don't get any older
I'm not going to state that yesterday never was
bloodshot deadbeat and lack of sleep
making your mascara bleed
tears down your face
leaving traces of my mistakes
when I sayif I promise go to church on Sunday
will you go with me on Friday night
if you live with me I'll die for you and
this compromise
hereby solemnly swear to tell the whole truth
and nothing but the truth is what I'll ever hear form you now
trust is a dirty word that comes from such a liar
but respect is something I will earn if you have faith
bloodshot deadbeat and lack of sleep
making your mascara bleed
tears down your face
leaving traces of my mistakes
when I say
if I promise go to church on Sunday
will you go with me on Friday night
if you live with me I'll die for you and this compromise
if I promise go to church on Sunday
will you go with me on Friday night
if you live with me I'll die for you and this compromise
(lets go)
ooh ooh ooh
oooohh
if I promise go to church on Sunday
will you go with me on Friday night
if you live with me I'll die for you and this compromise
if I promise go to church on Sunday
will you go with me on Friday night
if you live with me I'll die for you and this compromise
and this compromise
it's a compromise
I'm bored.
Alright. you know what? I haven't done anything. with anyone. in a long time. We're all growing up so fast. Before we know it.. its all going to be gone and everyone will have moved on. Who honestly will keep in contact with me?
So, because im bored and havent hung out in a while. And brady and rachel invited me to the "anti-feb follies" thinger majig. I am skipping the dance. why? Becausethere is no point to going. Because.. i
never do anything. maybe 1 or 2 dances. and then i sit there the rest of the night about to fall asleep. I refuse to dance to the hip hop and rap because. wtf? I'm not black. and wtf? I can't dance. So, why not do something usefull? like go to the anti thingy majig, where chances are. I wont do anything either. but its better than falling asleep. yes. awesome. woohoo. good game.
More complaining.
You know... People in the band are making me mad. We are an awesome band... But this year, everyone just seemed to drop dead and not care. No one puts in an effort, no one practices. It's make the band sound like crap. No one knows WHAT they are doing, they can't play worth a crap. I put in tons of effort, and practice alot. They are dragging me down. I'm tired of peoples lack of skill, and forcing me to stay down on their level. What is wrong with people? It's not that hard. 1-2 flats... OOOO scary. No. Hard is 4 flats, and jumping up and down the octives in 16th notes. Jazz band people. Freakin morons.
All good things must come to an end...
What happened to me? I've seem to have fallen out of the loop... Fallen out of our 'clique'. I've been put-offish for a long time now... I keep seperating myself from everyone... All in my attempt to not show emotion. It's been working wonders... but i don't spend any time with my friends...... I'm busy as hell with everything I do. Between school, band, jazz, the play... well the play is over... and then i have other obligations... I don't have time for anything.
I miss my friends... some of them more than others. But i fear i've fallen out of the group... I'm an outsider again. Hooray...
Nothing seems to be going my way. Things are happening, I'm not going to mention. I'm getting screwed over. People lie to me. Lots of people lie.. I don't know waht to think about something anymore. Everything is so confusing. I'm going to give up again. YES! awesomeness. Hoor-freakin-ay.
What Happened?
The bright orange was too happy. Had to change it.
I've been extremely busy lately.. with the play.. and Band. The play took so much of my time. Band is taking the rest. It's taking so much effort just to get my school done. I have 3 math assignments to do(used to be 5), I have Honors Gov. Out my .... Chemistry like nothing before, Concert band test almost every week, English 11 book to read, german crap... And the play... jesus... that's my rant for today.
I helped with the play, as you all know. I built sets (along with brandon), moved sets, was even in a scene untill the day of the preformance... we had to many people in that scene. I spent on average 3 hours afterschool almost everyday helping with that play. IT comes time for the rehersals. Zach nagy , because he is Alec's brother... gets to help, and is "put in charge" of the set movements when Stephanie is not back there. Whenever she isn't... Who was the one telling just about everyone what to do? Myself. Why? because this little punk of an 8th grader, was too busy getting his 'groove' on with sarah jansma. Slut. So... Review time. I put in 3 months to the play. He puts in roughly a week. at the end of the play... They give off awards. I'm not expecting one, because-- I'm not in the class. They gave Zach, an award... saying he did all the set movements, and he was the 'leader', and how he moved this half ton sets all by himself, he was the whole freakin crew apparently. He did
JACK SHIT, now; I'm not mad that I did not get an award... I'm mad because he got one, and did nothing to deserve it. I ask Charles about this, telling him... That everyone gives him credit saying "you saved the day" blah blah blah. He told me "well, he's in 8th grade it'll be good for his ego, plus we bought into that whole thing" What the hell is that? Relapse time. I spend 3 months working on the play. Zach spends a week (builds nothing), I make sure everything gets moved backstage, Zach flirts with slut. Zach gets award, I get 8th grade ego boost remark?
This isn't even right.
Also, they want to do another production this weekend. Why? Because they paid for the auditorium. Which is understandable... If it was still first semester. These kids are not getting ANYTHING from this. No grade, they are already out. Certainly not money. What about those of us who never got anything? They are asking these kids... to come out... leave their plans, that they had made after the play timeframe.. just SO it did not interfere... they want them to take time out of their lives for this? For what? so they can get the schools money's worth?.. It's completely wrong. I'm thinking about skipping the thursday practice, just to see if the zach kid, really can do it all himself. I'm sure it will be done.. but at the rate, everything will take TWICE as long.
That's my rant.. hope you enjoyed my complaining.
Pissed off.
I am up to my neck in "don't give a shit". I'm through. I give up. Fucking parents, pressure me and push me untill I'm at the top, and then push me even fucking more. They relentlessly cease to give a shit. I'm FED UP with being treated like I am inferior, to a FUCKING PET. They treat their goddamn birds like they are FUCKING GODS. FUCK THAT. They treat me as if I'm a slave instead of a REAL FUCKING PERSON, DO I LOOK LIKE A FUCKING MARY POPPINS TO YOU? They respect about as much as they respect the shit the dog just took. Fuck this. Fuck it all. I'm FED UP. Fucking FED UP. I don't care about the language in this one. Why? I'M PISSED THE FUCK OFF. They've pushed me too far, straight to the GODDAMN edge. One more time, come on.
ONE MORE FUCKING TIME I'm
so close to snapping.
If I don't talk at school tomarrow. This is why.
So, saying I would continue this. Lets go. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm working on my way to not showing my emotions anymore, like I used to. I have seen no retribution from revealing myself, only things that bother me. No positive influence has come from this, only dissapointment. So That's basically All i wanted to add.
No title this time. I didn't know what to put. Nothing is happening, and I see things falling apart before me, yet it is all still intact. If that makes sense. No brady... its not THAT emo. Just things are happening, that I did not expect to happen, things that should not. But.. Oh well, I'll live, i'll move on, and some people will end up with more out of things, and some people with less.
Students are throwing a fit becasue they are being forced to disect things. They call it, unnatural, and inhumane. It's already dead. Get over it. Kind of makes you think about vegitarians. the animal rights kind. They say "It's just wrong to eat another living thing like that.. blah blah blah" well, as once said by a man greater than I... I shall eat 3 helping of meat just because of you guys. HAH! not really gtg for now... more later
New Years with a pinch of Tidal Wave.
Well... Rachel wanted some "Matt Knowledge" as she put it, so i decided I'd give her some.
Ah, the New Year, what can we expect? Well, for one thing, we can expect me to keep putting 04, on all my papers, cause we know i'll forget. But i'm expecting better things from this year. I want it to be different, I wasted last year... And you begin to realize just how close you are to Graduation. And you still have no idea what the freak is going on. But i plan to make the most of this year... Because... I wasted last year... yes.... It's all becoming clear now...
I MUST TAKE OVER THE WORLD!!! We all heard about the Tidal wave or the Tsunami (sp?) as it's called. I have a question-- Why is the United States involved, We're literally potty training Iraq, and now we're helping with that?
They have found no dead animals in all this wreckage... why? They ate them all. Thats what I say. They ate all the animals, those dirty communists. I heard on the T.V. 2 or 3 days after the incident, that a lady "had not eaten for 5 days" why the hell do we care? thats before the wave, Psh, she wouldnt have eaten anyway-- She found a dog i bet.
But, enough with that, Rachels blog said that she never told anyone anything, and they had a problem with that... and now she tells them.. and they twist it and blow it up in her face. Whats wrong with people? Never satisfied. I myself, was not an open person, and people pried, always trying to get into it and "help". Well it doesn't and when people do tell you something, it's not because they wan't you to go around and screw with crap, it's because they trust you and expect you to understand. My advice to you people who do that, is to not take things into your own hands, Your causing more problems than you are fixing, did the person originally ask for you to get involved? no? then don't. They just want to get it off their chest... because they know they can talk to you.
I'm typing alot in here... Man. I've been bored... And plan to continue being bored, because I have no plans.... Anyone want to make plans?
G'day.
Santa or Jesus?
When you think about Christmas, what do you think of? Santa, Elves, Reindeer, Sleighs, and gifts? But thats not what it's supposed to be about is it? I mean... I can remember as a young Child, Giving thanks to god, for jesus. Not all this stuff about Santa. Sure we wrote letters to santa, but that wasn't what it was about. We were thankful. To god... For jesus. Ask a kid now. What is the meaning of christmas? And you'll get an answer along the lines of "To get Presents from santa for being good".
I see so many houses, with blow up Santas. and snowmen. For every 10 of those, I see one house with a manger, or a jesus.
People today have lost sight of what it is really about. We see people, celebrating Christmas who aren't even religious. I myself... am a bit of a christian. But i don't know whether to consider myself one. Because i question it all. I never get answers for these questions, and faith dwindles. And all these scientific means of things start to seems correct. But somehow you just can't believe them... But you can't believe what you've been told to believe all your life... So you don't know what to believe...
Great...
So... lately I haven't been happy... but i have not been really sad either... Nothing really to be happy about. But nothing to be sad about... So i'm just there...
Parents have been getting on me again... keeping making me mad with this whole "Birds are wild animals, and shouldnt be disciplined because you can't tame a wild animal" B.S.... I dont really feel like typing much.. So thats all i'm really going to put... Oh... and i said something a while ago about that friend replacing me... Yeah they did... But i guess i'm still they're friend...Just not as a good i used to be.
Hooray for Overthinking.
Stress/ maybe happy?
My Family is stressing me out so much. My dad is pissed off because Duffey made a mistake on my Progress report. And he keeps yelling at me and dogging on me about my homework "No you wont do it in school you'll bring it home" blah blah blah. Mom acts like she cares but gets pissed off everynight for NO freakin reason. Everytime my brother is around my dad acts like i'm a freaking retard. "well blah blah blah your brother" doesn't believe me unless my brother says it. My mom keeps getting pissed off because im really not being able to handle the birds screaming anymore, so she blames it on me.
But I'm happy, because i thought one of my long time friends had replaced me with someone else, Becausewe never talk anymore... and they were telling this person things they would have only normally told me or their significant other... The only reason it bothered me so much is because this person I've known for so long, and they're really important to me. But i found out that they did not replace me... We talked for a long time the other day. Made me happy.
The other day I decided i was so bored... i was going to think... so i thought... then i started to over think.... And all that over thinking, made me depressed. But now I'm happy...-er. So all is good i guess. Anyone have anything to talk about, lets talk! anyone want to hang out.. lets go! i'm bored and i need to get out of my house becasue i want to kill my family, that or run away.
Untill Next Time......
MEDIC!!!
Me and My Pink Shoe
You know... i was actually kinda happy today. But Brady keeps telling me I'm being EMO, so I'm not gonna put why in here. Damn you Brady... The title of the book of everything i hate is "Me and My Pink Shoe... and Every thing WE hate" And it'll have my Poem in it, for english.
I once found a Shoe
But it was nothing new!
So i threw it away
Right into the Fray!
Then I noticed i was missing one too!
It's horrible, It's somewhat funny. I guess you have to hear me read it. But yes... tHis is short.. Becasue apparently i'm being emo.
Hey guess what!... No seriously... guess...
You ever notice when you say "Guess what?" People don't guess? They say "what?" Your supposed to guess what what is... Not say what.
Now that's established. I have no idea what to put in here... My thanksgiving.. Really stressed me out. I woke up at 6... and started cooking... didn't get done untill 7 pm. My sister brought her kids over... and she didnt watch them.. So i had to. My mom was at work and my dad's crippled so i had to help him a bit. Also... the Miniature Dachsen has to go out like every half hour or so. So i had to do that. The kids wouldn't listen and so much was going on, i was getting stressed out. Everything seemed stuffy. I had to step outside because i started to shake. So... The day after Thanksgiving... (Friday) my sister and her husbands car broke down.. so i drove them around from 11 till 7 at night, doing all this crap so they could get a new car. NExt morning... i havee to take them back up to the dealership and drive them around, to get the car, insurance etc etc. That lasted from 9 am to 5 or 6 pm.
now... i'm home and my parents keep bugging me every 5 minutes. Literally. Complaining... making me do stuff. Someone called me 3 times i think. But the ID said "Tracfone" and my daddidnt take a name... so i have no clue who it is... whoever it is... leave a note in here... I wanna know... and I seriously need to go out... i dont like being home.
Odd... 3... 5. 7. 9... 12? oops wrong number...
So i've been feeling kind of odd lately. Kinda down. I didn't really know why, but i realized. It's really stupid and sorda an oxy moron of my life. I feel as if i don't fit in with my friends. I don't belong there. Not wanted... whatever. But all my life, i loved, i relished in being different, knowing that i could be something that everyone else couldnt... Me. I feel as if my friends don't really want me there, they only do because they feel bad. Who knows. I know its not true, and they'll all tell me otherwise... But i can't help but feel that way. Whats so different now that i'm second guessing my uniqueness?
Congratulations!! You're Below Average.
So, Today.. not much happened... I haven't updated in a few days... Not much has happened. My father parental figure had knee surgery. I got Grounded, But i'm on the computer. I went to school... Bekah has been out too... but she got her wisdom teeth out, her cheeks are puffed up. She found some tin-foil in my back pack... and decided it would be fun to decorate me along with kellys help. So she intwined in into my laces, and they wraped it around my shoe. Congratualtions Matt, you have a tinfoil boot. And a hat. kelly took my hat and wrapped it in tin foil. I walked around the whole day wearing a tin foil boot and hat. After i made a new one becuase the old one made my hat all messed up. People kept commenting; "trying to keep the aliens out?" "hey is that the hat from signs?!" no... infact it wasn't. But...Nothing much more happened. Still working on getting a hug from bekah. She keeps refusing. I'm pretty sure i know why. Mayhaps I'll stop.
You know... Gah.
Does anyone actually read this? I don't think iput much happy stuff in here. I don't think anyone does read this anymore. So i might just stop. IF you do read this then let me know and i guess i'll keep putting stuff in here.
Lately, it just feels like i haven't had much to be happy about. But i guess i don't have a reason to be sad... Or do I? It just seems i have more to be sad over than to be happy. Why is that? I have no idea. I guess I'm generally happy. But probably not as much as i should be.
=/ I need a boost or something.
Thinking of something that is 6 letters long...
Saturday... It was interesting. Kelly had her birthday party. We all met up at Old Country Buffet... It twas , Sarah, Kelly, Rob, Rachel F, Rachel K., Rachel List.... Becca (the freshman thats afraid of squirrels), that old guy Tad, and that old chick Mary-beth, uhhh....Kellys mom, and chris. So we're all there... Everyone is talking, People start calling me god. Rachel, chris and myself are kinda off in our own little world it seemed, but it was fun, Got to talk to Rachel and chris. Chris didn't say much but what he did say was funny. We talked for a while... UNtill Kelly started opening her presents... I entertained myself by dumping salt on the table... which rachel ended up throwing over her shoulder. Superstitious. I threw a little over myshoulder... but there was a lady directly behind me so i ended up dumping it on my shoulder... smart. As the night proceeded we left OCB... rachel had to go home, which was dissapointing, because she was entertaining me. But we all went to kellys grandparents. I forgot where i was going, so i got there about 5 seconds after everyone else. We sat outside for a bit, and played catch phrase. Then we went inside... and we had cake sat around and talked... told stupid stories. Something about a cammando grandma with an AK-47. Also Rob ended up being a stripper for charity, and people jsut bought him and put him in a room with a dog. We went outside again and played catch phrase... kelly was describing; Kelly-"ok ok ok! I'm a-?" me-"WHO--"...it was funny. So i went home... and thats about it. Untill next time my faithful followers.
Feed them rice... drink them water.. watch them explode...
So... today at school was alright, I felt down all day, I know why i guess... but it kinda stupid and pointless and i don't want to tell anyone so i just kept saying "I don't know", not many people asked though, so whatever. But when i got home, first thing i get... my dad calls... "why did you take your truck?" "because... i dunno felt like it, forgot i didn't need to"
him-"You drove your friend"
me-"no i didn't i just said i felt like it"
him-"I TOLD YOU YOUR ACTING JUST LIKE STEVEN, you know what? how would you like me to take your truck's keys just because i felt like it?"
me-"well... I'm not steven, so stop calling me steven... and I'll ask before taking my truck again... but i have to use it the next 2 days, and you agreed to it"
him-"no i didn't i said if he gives you money you can drive him"
me-"I TOLD YOU HE WAS GOING TO GIVE ME MONEY"
him-"then how come theres no gas in your tank?!"
me-"cause i haven't driven him yet! he's giving it to me when i pick him up"
him-"he hasn't given you the money!"
me-"oh my god! i jsut said he's giving it to me when i pick him up!"
him-"would you want me to take away your truck keys just because i wanted to?"
me-"what?!"
him-"one more thing and i'm taking it away"
me-"fine"
him-"bye"
me-"*click*
Treating me like i'm my brother, when i'm absolutely nothing like him. They push and force to try and become what they want me to be, but what they can't see, is if they keep pushing me like this i'll end up just like my brother and i'll be fucked for life! I don't want to be pushed and forced into something they want me to be, i want to be what i am, myself. They pushed my brother and sister untill they snapped... trying to mold and push them into what they want them to be, they broke... If they keep forcing me... I'm going to break and where will I be?
ok ok example:
i slept 2 hours at the MAX last night cause i was sick, i like couldnt breathe, and my ear hurt so bad, i was almost crying... and if you know me... it takes alot of pain to make me cry. But my parents just said "Take some vitamin C"... and they made me go to school... which i'm better i guess but my throat is a bit sore and i can't hear out of one ear. My mom gets home... we sit around for a while (no communication) and the birds again were screaming... and i picked up the spray bottle (note, i didn't spray them) and she yells at me "DONT SPRAY HER, SHE'S NOT FEELING WELL" Right there and then i wanted to go away.
Sometimes... I feel like i just want it all to end... for it all to go away. But thats not happening. Thats where the majority of my anger comes from. But thats ok... I'll just keep most of it in for now... only 1 3/4 more years...
NOTE: This is the most open i will probably ever be... Unless I'm extremely happy.. Then I will explain it with such words yee cannot help but have a colourful blossom of expression and emotion will fill your mind and fill you to the brink with that "aww" feeling that you will giggle with glee! hahah thats a funny word... two of them... giggle... and glee.....
Something about popsicle sticks and pudding.
Alright so Lets start with friday actually. Friday... I woke up and went to school, oh my god i feel privlaged (sarcasm eh?). So i go to school not much there, go home after school. I get home... watch a movie, then go to band. But! because its the homecomming football game, i got to march in a parade, because... I'm in band. So it raining, we're in our uniforms, none of the woodwinds play except me and a few flutes(i play saxaphone). So, because my section is full of dolts who are lazy, i had to play extra loud. By the time we were done my jaw hurt. So whatever i'm soaked andmy jaw hurts. We get to the field... wait about an hour, then go to do pre game. We high step out onto the field, do our little gig, then go back into the gym. They ask if anyone wants to play in the stands. and hell yeah! but i forgot my rain uniform, so i have to speed home, and by the time i get back because i live in the middle of no where, its jhust about half time. So we go out for half time, play cant take my eyes off of you for the king and queen and class reps, blah blah blah, thats all over with, they ask for pep band....oh yeah! i love to play, and play loud, so we get a few people out there and we're jamming. Thats over with. i go home. SATURDAY.... not much, wait around at home for a bit. 5 o clock comes around, i run to the ATM get some cash, go over bradys house. Because i didn't see the need to dress up. I wore some jeans, a long sleeve white t-shirt, and a kinda sift black t-shirt over that.. i felt spiffy. but whatever, i didnt look bad, and i didn't look formal. We go out to dinner, that was fun... so much fun... 80's songs with the cooks. SO we go to the mall afterwards, and do nothing, so we go to the dance. Yup... that was a load of BS... if i could of had the money for gas, i would have gone to see rachel at her horse thing. Would have been much more fun. i danced 2 or 3 times, but it sucked, i didnt have much fun. a few good moments. but no. So whatever. Go home, stay up late, watch movies. yup yup.
No no... the sprinkled one..
Well today was kinda interesting. School... didn't do much. First Hour. we just read. Second hour... Art, oh my god. so great. We just cut crap out. But brandons feathersword sword or something... he brought. HE TOOK THE BATTERYS OUT BECAUSE HE KNEW I WOULD PRESS THE BUTTON REPEATEDLY!! rawr!! thats not cool Luckily brady had batterys, and he put them in. MY god that sword is the best. It laughs!! oh my god, i loved it. Third Hour, chemistry. Dont remember. Lunch... all i remember is beating people with brandons sword and laughing. Fourth Hour...Band... We paraded around and did nothing but the same. So! 5th hour.... homework, math... I talked with bekah alot today in that hour. We never talk anymore, its almost depressing. But we talked, it was interesting... She ate a candy Bar so i massuming thats why she was energized. 6th hour!! and and eric thompson helped each other with LON-CAPA. And... i was making fun of sophmores... Same something, He's interesting... but cynical. He's just lucky he didnt say half the things he said to other people to me. That wouldnt be too smart. So i went with brady to his house... and chelsey didnt want to stay because i came. So me and brady put on our pirate stuff, and went marauding around town plundering and ravaging. OK well we didn't do anything illegal... we jumped out at cars, and waved and yelled at cars. So we did that for a while. When we went back, we goofed around for a bit. Eventually i went home. Did the kitchen... Then went to float building. IT was actually pretty cool. I was a vital tool. I did alot of work. It's almost done now by the looks of it. But scott shear. If he wasn't there. We wouldn't even be half as far as we are now. People call him stupid but he's really not. He knows what he's doing. People act so different out of school though. Some people that i didnt expect to be nice to me... actually were. It was fun. Glad i went. Untill next time! thats all i have. I came home ate dinner blah blah tired . So...right. This has been your daily dosage of
GOD
This day or that....
I'm not sure what day i plan on writing about, so its gonna be about 4 days mashed together.
First off, apparently I'm going to homecomming, brady invited me without me knowing, so i guess im going. Its gonna be ...brady... kelly... chelsey... chris... myself... and bekah... also maybe jake if kelly doesnt throw a fit about him having a date. But whatever. We're going to Ukai, they cook on your table and stuff. I'm probably gonna help bekah smuggle in some taco bell... no one will ever suspect a fat kid to smuggle food! I'm thinking of getting some WHITE pants... a BLUE shirt... and a white hat... and going like a smurf. That, or maybe a toga...
My parents sold my jeep, and gave the guy another 1000 bucks, and bought me a new car, they lied to my school monday and told them i had a doctors appointment, just so i could look at it. Its a chevy blazer. its like a dark forest green, and has a whitish silver strip on the bottom. Its pretty neat, i just need to get some mega air freshners.
I can't help but think about the thing i was confused about before... but now im confused about more than one thing. so im really confused... ya know? but whatever... to hell with it. i through thinking about it. I'll just not do anything and see what happens... well if id ont do anything about it... nothing will happen... cause... yeah... I'm shy, and gah... anyone got a hammer?
Sleep Study
Alright... I had that sleep study done... And it blew. I had to go there at 8:30. I get there... and i watch TV for awhile because there was jack to do. at about 9 this guy comes in and starts measuring my head, and drawing on me. Eventually i get a buncha tape and whole lotta wires attached to me. I watch TV for a bit longer... its about 10:30 now he comes back in "You ready?" "yeah sure why not" so i get all set up in the bed, he hooks some more wires to me... And he leaves. Then he comes back... just to tell me he's going to ask me some questions. So we go through a series of questions to test the stupid wires... Eventually he leaves me be. But now i can't fall asleep. i lay in the bed for about 30 minutes, right on the verge of sleep... he comes in again...gah! So it takes me another 15 20 minutes to fall asleep... but i do. I wake up periodicly during the night... cause i wasnt really tired. Eventually they come back in at 6:30 in the morning " hi im beth, its about 6:30... your moms coming at 8:30 right? so you got about 2 more hours *fix's a wire* sleep good" *Thumbs up* so i lay there sleep for an hour and lay there for an hour... she comes in " ok its 10 after eight! fill out this survey, you can take a shower... and give a week for your results" i fill out the survey and take a shower... and leave... my god that was worthless. after that... i go to another doctor... to see about my catscan i had thursday... "yup, it shows some fluid behind your ear... but since there are no symptoms, im not going to do anything" and he asks me about getting my tonsels and abnoids removed because if i do have sleep apnea it MIGHT cure it... pfft screw that.
This has been another exciting adventure from god! This is your daily dossage of mattage... singing off.
Emo sucks
I've been being really emo lately. I hate it. Sharing my emotions with people who just say "aww I'm sorry" or "that sucks" that doesnt help. But you know whatever. I'm tired of being like this. So I'm going back to holding it all in. It'll work. So don't expect many new posts, unless I'm actually really happy, or really PO'd or depressed. Lately my life is like a rubix cube. so hard to figure out, and once i do. it's too late, someone else has gotten it before me. I over think things so IF i ever do anything its too late. Most of the time, i Over think things and i dont do things at all. If i just stop thinking so much i would be better off than i am now. Atleast happier. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy, but not what i want to be. I can't stop over thinking things, and what i want to happen, never does... because i over think it. Damnit.
Grr...
I've been really almost kinda depressed lately, and i sorda dont really know why... i mean... i know a little bit. It's stupid. I am the king of knowing stupid depression, and this is one of them. This blows. Grr...
Fears?
I Don't have much to fear. I don't fear death, because I'm not sure whats next, and frankly, right now. It's not important. I Don't fear spiders, or snakes, or bugs. I am not afraid of the biggest guy in our school. I'm not afraid of knowing. I am not afraid of getting my butt kicked in a fight, because i know i will make my point. Life isnt about being afraid of what can happen to you, or what may hurt. But thats what we are afraid of. So am I. But in a different sense.
My one fear in life. Is a complicated one. It may be complicated, but the simplicity of it, is frightening. I fear losing my friends. We're going to graduate, and people are going to leave. I don't want that to happen. People say; "You'll make new friends".
I don't want new friends. I love the ones i have. They are perfect. I don't know what i would do without the friends i have. I don't want us all to forget eachother, I don't want us to split up, and only remember eachother when we happen to get a letter about a reunion, or run across your name in a phonebook. That is my fear.
Me and brady talked. and He said he was going to visit people, and he wanted to have a yearly reunion or something, maybe we all hang out for a week long. I would like that, It would make me so happy to know I wouldn't lose the best people I've ever known. I promise you all if you ever need anything, call me up, come see me, I will try my hardest to help you, if you need a place to stay, by god, don't waste your money, stay with me. I invite you all. I plan on going to see everyone in the future at times. always be expecting a random call from me, to see if you want to go get coffee at 1 in the morning, or hang out for a weekend. or something. I can't live without you guys. woo!
So..
So, theres about 2 people i like. But im not exactly sure what to do... I know i probably dont have a chance with either, but hey.. thats the point of crush's right? or something... I plan on asking one of them to homecomming ( i think) I just want to talk to them both, and hang out and see what happens... because i dont want to like one and ask the other.. that wouldnt be right. Though. With my luck, i won't be going with either of them, so i probably should worry. hahah.
Time?
It's a clear sunny day. It's spring, and almost summer. We're all back in the 2rd grade. We're too busy running from cooties, and playing red rover, to notice that this was the good time in life. We have friends, no one cares who you are. It's just fun. no worries. Your heading in for the end of recess. Then it happens. You blink. You just turned 16, you can drive, your growing up, and its getting closer... school is going to end... but not too soon, you still have a while, and you dread it, then it happens again. you blink. 2 years have passed. Here we are, on the edge of our seats, anticipation of only 2 more years swelling up inside of us to where we can barely take it. We forget whats happening, we dont care, we just want it to be over. we havent spent 10 years going on 11 years in school, to be held back now, no. this is OUR time, we are going to be free soon. and we are ready to grasp it at the first glimpse. Our friends come and go, but we still dont care. we are so close. We Dont even notice it, but we're going to lose so much. Then you blink. Your a senior, no.. its your graduation day! you finally made it, you cant believe it! your finally going to be free of the blonds that have chained you for what seemed an eternity. They call your name to go on stage, your walking across the stage, you shake the principals hand, and snatch your diploma with a delight that sends chills through your spine... your sitting in the audience... watching the other people walk across the stage... then suddenly it hits you. Your friends, you yourself... all your childhood fantasies... and good times... are all going to go away. Your going to be... "Grown up" you and your friends are going to scatter, and only talk to each other when you mistakenly come across their name in the phone book, by such chance, you cant even believe its them. Your still in your seat in the audience.. and you realize what all these people mean to you... and what you could have never accomplished without them. and what you still want to. You dont want to leave them... but you have to go to college, you have to leave. But its not the end you hope. because you said you'd be friends forever... right? I'd just like to thank all of my friends for being there, when they knew it, and especially when they didnt know it, you people mean more to me thank anyone will ever even begin to grasp. Thanks.
Friday the 13th... OoOoo Scarwee
Firday, I went to see Aliens Versus Predator with Jake, Brady, Brandon, and Dan. If you've seen the 4 alien movies, and the 2 predator movies, you'll understand it, and part of it will actually be funny. I was laughing my ass off. I think Dan only laughed because me Brady, Brandon and I think Jake was laughing... He didn't seem too impressed like you would be if you actually were laughing like that, but whatever floats yer boat. After that We hung out at bradys for a little bit. We jumped around on that trampoline, and started a fire... Of sorts.. We burned our school ideas. A bit ceremonially if you ask me, but it was cool. Brady, Jake and Myself went to jake's place afterwards, we ate pudding. good stuff. i felt zoned out and i had no clue why. everything felt distant. but i snapped out of it, and we watched TV for a bit. we went outside, walked around in the woods, ran through someones yard. walked down the road. ( all in the dark, with flashlights) a cat followed us, but we lost it. we got back, and started a fire. and the cat came back. we tried to go to sleep. but after we turned off the lights. it just got odd. i kept scaring jake. so many times. we were throwing stuff at each other... i was army crawling everywhere. sometime after that, we went back outside. started another fire. went back in... i started to scare jake again.. but soon gave up cause it was old. But it was great. in the morning, i woke up, and was half laying on a table thing...brady put it on me trying to get me to stop snoring. i tell people to kick me... but nooo! no one listens.. hahah. me and brady ate some cereal... then we had to get bradys contacts... and i needed to go home... so brady drove. yes. with no contacts. it was fun. .....................that about sums it up.
Stereo Types
What are stereotypes? Why do we have stereotypes? What gives people the right to label others?
Stereotypes are what people label others when they're afraid, scared, or some dumbass thinks it would be cool to be exactly like someone else. People get scared. Face it. They see a group of junkies on the street, in plaid, black leather and colored hair and think "oh my god, are those punks?! RUN! they'll turn you into anarchists!" what gives people the right to say who i am? what i am? How the HELL does anyone know who i am? Someone see's some well dressed kids, with a short hair cut, and a fleece sweater and its automatically "oh god, here comes some more preps". for all you know the kid in sweater could be listen to heavy metal, and go to raves. Just because someone saw a group of people who look different, act different or speak different, told people that they can lebel them, when they may be excaxtly like them. People label you before they even know you. That so called punk may listen to nelly, and play golf. And what gives people the right to say what a punk, or a prep is? or a scrub? grung? goth? its not their choice. just because you wear black, or you think anarchy is cool, or you wear khakis, or even if you dye you hair. people are labeling you. When its not even true. Why have labels? no one is exactly the same. Woohoo, people say im punk because i dont give a shit about what people think of me, or because im a smartass. well guess what. IM NOT. I'm ME... i'm not anyone else, im not a punk, im not a prep. I'm whatever the hell i want to be. There is no such thing as a punk, or a prep... because no one is the same. There are people are their lackies. No-one, has the right to say what anyone is, but themselves.
Long time no... Hey! look! a rock...
Alright, its been a whole since i've put stuff in here... so here goes a bunch of mumbo jumbo.
My parents and the birds have been pissing me off lately. Again. They scream all day. And of course i cant stand it. I get out of the house and my parents think im going nuts. I try to tell them about it. NOPE! they say im full of shit and i need anger managment! So. i get in trouble for yelling at the birds, i got grounded. NOt the mention my parents have been on my back about every little thing lately. of most recent. me and my parents were taking a bike ride to stockbridge, we're on our way back and we're "exploring". we're taking back roads every where. and i. notice a name of a road that will get us home quicker, and let us explore... my dad said he was ready to go home...so i say "we should go this way, its quicker" he tells me "no its not, m-52 is this way" but theres a roa--" "MATT STOP ARGUEING WITH ME, YOUR PISSING ME OFF"... so we take his road. adds an extra 3 miles to our trek. and once we reach m-52 he comes up to me "its time for class" and he tells me crap about my cardinal directions and crap telling me i need to learn them and which way was east and west .... i tell him "i know all that, im not stupid. you dont let me finish what im saying so you dont kn--" "THATS IT, IM TIRED OF YOUR ATTITUDE, YOUR GROUNDED".........
freakin. A.
I went and saw i, robot. pretty good movie. im going to have to buy it when it comes out. if anyone wants to go see King Arthur, let me know, maybe we can arrange a get together or something.
rar
ok this is going to be several days mashed into a bunch of complaining and some good spots. something about sunburned alot, birds, almost to the edge, stockbridge, 40 mile bike ride, drivers school.
FREAKIN A
Alright, my parents are pissing me off. They bug me all day and nag on me all day "do this, do that" if I don't, I get reprimanded. I do all that crap! that takes me half a day and then when they finally freakin leave for work i think i get some time to myself... NOPE, they call! give me tons of more crap to do! now its 10:00 about, and my dad just called nagging to clean to
FREAKIN KITCHEN!! if its not done hes gonna get pissy! well what happens why
I snap?! what are they going to do then?! a hire a freakin maid and have them clean?!
yankneck (yankee+redneck)
Alright this is going to be about why Michigan is a redneck yankee state, and why i am such a freakin hick. Oh, and the course of my weekend. all rolled into one story! arent you special...
Alright Saturday. my dad wakes me up at 9:30!!... what the bloody hell?! he tells me that i cant be sleeping the whole summer away, and that i should go to bed late and wake up early "no dad... that would just be stupid, im supposed to stay up untill 8 or so ( in the morning mind you) and wake up at the earliest, 1 'o clock" "matt, shut up". so i get up... turns out we take a bike ride into town. not bad only 6 miles. we watch the jubilee, god oh god why. Most boring thing ever. You know your a hick when the best part of the parade, and the longest part is showing off tractors. I think the best part of that parade is the PT Cruiser disguised as a cat, that was a kick butt car. Ok *WARNING HICKNESS COMING UP* after that we follow the tractors, and watch all those tractors that were in the parade... do an old fashioned tractor pull!! AS:LSdsfl... WHY?! we dont live in georgia! or alabama! why are we doing a tractor pull? so redneck... after that we go to my sisters... and i avoid all those many people i know that live in the trailer park. We go home, another 6 miles, not bad. 12 miles.
SUNDAY
He wakes me up at 9:30 again, oh god. We take another bike ride into town. 6 miles, again not bad. 18 miles so far. We rent some movies and just goof around. Nothing HillBillyish today, another trek home, 24 miles.
SUNDAY NIGHT
Me and my dad take the car into town. We decide on the back roads. Great, we hit a bird, ok no problem just keep going right? nope! we go to the corner, turn around and gawk at the dead bird. we open the door, poke it and roll it around, and my dad says "yep... he's dead alright" and as we're leaving scene of the crime, my dad runs it over again!! we go to the store do our stuff, and take the backroads home. My dad, runs over the bird AGAIN (3 times!!) i look at him.. "what? he might have been in pain" "oh my god, dad... we're rednecks"
MONDAY
my brother threw my bro out of the house. the cops toe my brothers car cause he tried to drive it with no gas nor insurance, so he ran outta gas and left it in the middle of the road. >_<. But finally my dads car gets out of the shop. (YES!! I LOVE THAT CAR) We get home and me and my mom take off again to look me a jobs. i get a couple of applications. I'm trying to stay away from the fast food, cause my brother and sister has worked at every single one around here. But its not looking so good. Tuesday im trying "LANLords" in howell (computer shop). But i get home, and i check out some college stuff. I might be going to a college in florida, speciffically for game and grahpics design. but i dont know yet.
MONDAY NIGHT
Me and my mom go for a bike ride.... 15 miles... oh so, thats 39 miles i've bike rode over my weekend and monday, i do about 15 miles a day... add that up, and jesus christ matt you have no life
>_<
Alright, today i was supposed to get a pool, and my dads car back from the shop.First of all. The pool. Originally me and my parents went to wal-mart and said "hey thats a pretty big pool, we'll put it on lay-away". Well. They borrowed money from me! ME!! to put the freakin thing on lay-away. Two weeks later, still havent seen that cash, not to mention my parents are skipping on my allowance, if i have to do chores, then i want cash!! >_O We were supposed to get the pool out tuesday, but that didnt happen. We were supposed to get it out today (Friday) But no, again... my parents arent getting it yet like they said. rar. So no pool. And then my dads car was supposed to get out of the shop today.... NOPE. some guy rear ended my dad on the highway while he was stopped in traffic, the guy was going 40 kph into stopped traffic... what the hell?? so anyway, he cars been in the shop, and it was supposed to get out today, and it wasnt ready. so im all ready to jam with my dads Mach 2 stereo system in his car... and they arent finished!! >_<. We have another rental car. generic piece of monkey feces! :P. But i justgot back from a bike ride at about 7:40, and i fell, i fell and scraped my leg on the freakin gravel. and thats all i have for my complaining
Raindrops are falling on my head...
Since i always sing part of this song, i thought i'd putthe lyrics in here, so people actually know the words, and i know more than 2 lines.
Raindrops keep falling on my head,
And just like the guy whose feet are
Too big for his bed,
Nothing seems to fit.
Those raindrops are falling on my head,
They keep falling.
So I just did me some talking to the sun,
And I said I didn’t like the way he got things done,
Sleeping on the job.
Those raindrops are falling on my head
They keep falling.
But there’s one thing I know,
The blues they send to meet me won’t defeat me
It won’t be long till happiness steps up to greet me.
Raindrops keep falling on my head,
But that doesn’t mean my eyes will soon be turning red,
Crying’s not for me.
Cause I’m never gonna stop the rain
By complaining.
Because I’m free, nothing’s worrying me.
It won’t be long till happiness steps up to greet me.
Raindrops keep falling on my head,
But that doesn’t mean my eyes will soon be turning red,
Crying’s not for me.
Cause I’m never gonna stop the rain
By complaining.
Because I’m free, nothing’s worrying me.
Because I’m free, nothing’s worrying me.
Raindrops keep falling on my head,
Raindrops keep falling on my head,
Raindrops keep falling on my head.
Sunday the day after saturday!
Alright that day, had to do loads of lawn work, infact thats all we did. Since Dawn right up untill dusk. My brother the whole day was ridin my back, and pushing me around. We were raking uop branches and stupid crap like that. Well my brother and I go down the hill and into the woods to dump some crap and he pushes me. I land in a pile of pine needles... so i get up, get on the tractor, he's walkin up the hill... i chase him waving a stick around likea viking and bellowing about 5 ft away from him... and i missed him >_< . so close! but no... fat bro can run.
Saturday the 19th
Alright. Yesterday was the 19th. Spentthe whole day with my brother and my parents. Before i even was out of my bed there was problems. 1. my parents have been keeping max (my golden retriever) in my room, and i wake up all hairy and with a mouthful of fur. 2. my parents were argueing with my brother, about what? i don't care, put a pillow over my head and keep the Z's rollin. 3. the birds... of my god... the birds, its like having an alarm clock you cant throw against the wall. Ok finally out of bed at 12. throw on some clean clothes (they were folded, thats how i know), grab my CD player, some CD's and 2 books.( i was almost done with one, only 5 chapters,( about 100 pages) wont take me very long... 1 and a 1/2 hours? anyway, i get the crap and wait in the car with my spiffy if unorganized self. Wait there for a bit... oh god my sister pulls drive. We end up taking my Nephew with us only to have to drop him off cause cause me and my bro took up to much room..... i could have spared some room but... i was comfortable sleeping. anyway.. we drop him off and we return the rental truck because its a gas hog (my dad got into a car accident and we have to use rental car while our car gets fixed) so we get a taurus... a generic piece of ever loving crap. we get going and my brother keeps pushing me, and hitting me... so i ignore it with a dose of loud music and reading. an hour later my dad notices a defect in the car so every 5 seconds he's pressing hard of the brakes to hear the brakes screech so im gettin sick cause i havent aten the past 2 days ( wasnt hungry) we stop at some garage sales, keep gettin beat up, exchange for another generic taurus. OK so this taurus is good, we spend 3 hours going to garage sales and stopped at taco bell (hey im not sick anymore) but my brother keeps smoking so im hacking in the back seat, not to mention he's still beating me up... so my parents are pickin on his about not having a job im laughing. we eventually get to the point of haircuts, oh thankgod my hair is gone!!! my brother hits me in public ok, last straw, bam... nail him in the gut. he leaves me alone the rest of the day. we eventually get home and my parents argue again, and im sleeping on the couch with my sunglasses on.
Alright a try
Alright so i decided to try this and just put the contents of my dad into here. How spiffy can it be eh?
Alright. So Today, i slept untill about 11. I would have slept longer but my brother woke me up because my parents locked the door and he couldnt get it. I let him in... and try to sleep. Next thing i know he's buggin me about what i did yesterday and how i feel about being out of school, and if i have money. Im thinking... smoothly worked that into the convo. Of course i tell him no, i dont have any money, get the hell outta my room i'm trying to sleep you poo faced babboon, and i did actaully tell him that. he looks at my dresser thinger majig.... oh god, i forgot to put my cash away. "its mom and dads" so he questions about mom and dad leaving cash in my room... "its from when i went into the grocery store i never gave it back... go away im sleeping" so he leaves... comes barging back in later on the phone and just sits on my bed talking on the phone. Kick him out and put my spiffy new complex lock into work. I wake up later at 12:30. Cook some grub, and do my god forsaken chores.... oh god... chores... everyday.... not only that i have to wake up to birds everyday. But i eat dinner sometime later, and go for a bike ride... i've been on my computer off and on.... i went for another bike ride... and i just got back. On another note, i've been considering writing a book for about a year. But just when i figure out how to get it onto paper... brady makes his book... so if i start writing a book... people will think im just copying him. But i'm not, he's one of the people who gave me ideas to put it down. and thats all for today.
