Girlfriend
So, as most of you know, i've been dating this girl named Aubree for about a year and 6 months. I used to be the type of kid who didnt believe in love, or thought that anyone who dated during highschool was just in "puppy love". But this girl has shown me different. I'm no longer in highschool, and she is graduating... but i love her. I can say that with no hesitation, and i don't care who knows it. Sometimes my parents may scoff and be like "oh well its his first relationship ( which its not), of course he thinks he is inlove" But its not that, its so much more. I am one of the lucky few people who find the one person they love, with all their heart. Sometimes i worry, not because i don' think she loves me, i know she does... but i worry if i can make her happy... if i'm the right person to make her happy... I've thought about it... for days- even weeks. And i've come to the conclusion that Aubree is perfect... you may say " well no one is perfect"... well she is, everything about her is perfect... and i wouldnt have it any other way. So i don't know if i'm worthy of being the man that makes her happy, but i'm going to damn sure try. Love isnt about finding your 'soul-mate'. You make your soul mate... you work at it, and sacrafice for it.
I know she reads this, so Aubree... I LOVE YOU. I love you more than you can imagine. More than the trees love the rain and the sun. I love you more than i think my heart has room, but thats ok... because as long as im with you... it'll just keep growing with your love.
good friends?
I feel compelled to tell someone about this no matter how childish it may seem. It seems no matter who I make as friends there always seems to be one of these there. Oh, lets start with this.. I make alot of friends. More girls than guys usually. I make these great friends, and we're real close. This has happened quite a few times. and then I introduce them to another one of my friends, figure we can all hang out. Well pretty soon after that, that new friend I made doesnt really want to hang out with me anymore, who used to tell me everything, now tells the friend introduced her to everything. They act like everything is fine.. but now Im feeling left out of the picture on everything... And its not like just a one or two person thing... it happens to EVERY single person that meets this friend. I know this probably just sounds like jealousy but... Everywhere i go there seems to be a friend like that... and I can't stand the feeling of being replaced.
100th Angry post.
Well this is my 100th post. Kinda lame. I dont even think anyone reads this anymore... if you do.. leave me some kinda comment.
First... YES FINALLY GRADUATED... and YES IM FINALLY 18!!!
Aubree and I have been going out for 6 months.
Ok, now for the complaining. What the hell is with fickle people. They piss me off. This girl tells me Im her cloest friend and she calls me everytime she has guy trouble or just wants to talk. and It is always at 2 am.. and I dont mind because I care. But she tells me she doesnt want a relationship with anyone and that she jsut wants to relax and take a break, she tells all the guys that... and then all of a sudden... the NEXT GODDAMN DAY she is dating some guy.. who i'v expressed that I dont care for, and whome graduated years ago. But that doesnt matter...I dont mind that... BUT SHE LIED TO ME. She lied to everyone. Shes done this 3 times. Im tired of shit happening to her and then all of a sudden she calls me at 3 am crying saying "I dont know what to do" and I pat her on the goddamn head and tell her everything is going to be ok, and give her adivce on what she should do. She never uses my advice and her situation always gets worse, so she calls me again. I pat her on the head, tell her its ok and give her more advice. But no, what does she do? A guy is obsessing over her and she doesnt like him at all.. so she goes to talk to him while they hang out becuase they are old friends and then they start dating? WHAT THE FUCK!? So then that goes down the hole and she calls me again. I pat her on the back tell her its ok and give her advice. She starts hanging on another guy, tells him she had a crush on him. Then tells him she doesnt want a relationship... tells me she doesnt want a relationship... but the next day shes dating some guy she has only hung out with for a couple of hours, and known not even a day!! I've known this guy but she wont listen to the guy who always gives her advice that will save her the heart aches and troubles. No, I'm tired of patting her on the head and saying its ok. She lied to me and she betrayed me. I am tired of being lied to.
Goddamn it.
Fickle people piss me off.
Matts Wisdom: 1)Mybuttons are hard to find but they are sensetive so if you keep looking, your going to nudge it.
2)IF you are a guy, do not invest in a relationship untill you can afford to buy a house. Sometimes gifts are a 1-up thing and you have to do better than last time or else you feel like an ass. So one day when you dont think you can out do her gift be like BAM I bought you a house! what now? K.
Thats all for today. Sorry if this is rambling and doesnt make sense. Im not sorry if someone is offended. Should have stopped reading if you were offended. I wrote this in anger and frustration so it may not all be how i REALLY feel I am just angry and this is the only way I can get it out because I cant talk to people about how i feel.
lol first post in a while.
Alright, a few things have been bugging me lately, and i normally wouldn't post it here, but it is really starting to bug me. Alot of people have been leaving me out of things lately. One second i'm your best friend, and people are telling me things, and asking me for advice... and the next im not trustworthy enough, or you act so distant from me that i think i've done something wrong. And it also pisses me off, when someone is talking about something, and i miss part of it and they say "nevermind" or "you dont need to know" i'm sorry? wtf that pisses me off. Im also sick and tired of people particularly two people who one, always comments on crap about me, and then the other one plays off of their comments and just sits there and teases me. I seriously can't take this shit anymore. This goes for everyone (except aubree and a few others)... You can trust me or not, you can tell me and let me help you... or not... but if not... then leave me the fuck alone, because i'm tired of the bullshit.
Thank you and have a Nice day.
Actually pretty much anyone who has access to this blog, is ok... Speaking of which.. Rachel, we REALLY need to hang out soon, we keep sort of planning things and then not following through, we need to follow through!!
Smurfs.
I've wondered before... why is smurfette the only female smurf? And where did all the other smurfs come from if she is the only one? is she REALLY that old that they are ALL her children? is that why she never hooked up with any of the smurfs? is papa smurf... REALLY papa smurf? and if so, was it forced? Is papa smurf a bad smurf? Why dont the smurfs have pets? and if smurfs were as tall as 3 apples, then how could they fit in mushrooms? Why did that one smurf like the bake so much? was he gay? Why was papa smurf wearing red pants instead of another color? red doesnt show dominance. Do the smurfs have hair under their hats? They obviously have it on their face. How do the cloth shoes protect their feet so much? How many smurfs WERE there actually?
Just a couple of thoughts.
9 things i hate about everyone.
I love this list... seriously.... love it... i hate it when people do these things... but its absolutely hilarious.
9 Things I Hate About Everyone
1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?
2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the T.V. remote because they refuse to walk to the T.V. and change the channel manually.
3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?
4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their asses!
5. When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.
6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?
7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.
8. When people say "life is short". What the hell?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!!
9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?
Matt's Wisdom
Mmkay, its been a while since i've done a Matt's Wisdom post. So today kids. I'm going to take a suggestion from Rachel, and explain each of the Labels to you. Are you ready for this? Good. We'll start with the most common and work our way down to the least common.
Punk- One of the most common labels there are. Now, stereotypically in todays culture. A Punk is a person who is against any form of government(anarchy). They don't care about anyone or anything. They are druggies, and get in trouble with the law. Now what Punk originally is, or rather was. Was a form of music. Not a certain sound, but rather a certain context. Punk music generally talked about standing up for yourself, QUESTIONING the government... not going against it. It told you to be part of your country, because we are. And we do have a voice... it's just that no one uses it. Alot of people also view punks as the heavy metal kids with colored hair and mohawks and drugs. Again this is wrong. Being PUNK as a person is about expression and being who you are because you want to be that way. It's about being able to stand up for what you believe; even if you are the only one.
Prep- Ah... the preps. Now many people think of these people as the stuck up kids. Who have never lifted a finger in their life, and get whatever they want. Who think they are better than everyone else. Snotty. Originally 'prep' was a term given to people who were constantly PREP-ARED for things. Someone who constantly expected things to happen and were prepared for it. But now days your associated with prep if you've have alot of money, if you like to dress nice or if you give someone the stiff upper lip.
Emo- The emo kids. I personally have alot of problems with emo kids. But i'll do my best not to make this oppinionated. The Emo kids are exactly that. Emotional. They over react, or take things to heart way too often. They fall in love easily, and feel the world is collapsing when a relationship has a bump. Stereotypically, they wear dark clothing and usually color their hair black, or a dark red. But to be emo you don't have to do that. Also, don't confuse dramaqueens with emo kids. They take offense.
The Jocks- Alot of people can confuse the jocks with preps. But they are actually different people. The jocks are the kids that do anything for sports. They love their sport and can't think about anything but that sport. Many of them do, or have done steroids. They are the ones always yelling at the pep rallys, but don't exactly know whats going on.
Goth- The goth kids. Now these kids can be confused with the emo kids. They stereotypically, are really pale, wear black, black eye liner and everything. They constantly think about death and believe themselves to be worthless. Goth kids are typically the "straight edge" kids. meaning they cut themselves. yes thats what straight edge means... its a razor. When actually a goth kid can be anyone. Usually they are the quiet kids that no one talks to, they don't think there is a meaning to life.
Nerd/Geek- Ah... i love this group... Nerds and Geeks are actually different, but i thought i'd put them together so i could explain them better. A nerd is someone who knows alot about book things. Such as school. They are school oriented and know the book studies... and yeah, teachers pet and all that good stuff. A Geek, is someone who knows alot.. more than they should about one thing. Such as... computers. They know their way in and out of a computer and can tell you anything, but couldnt tell you a damn thing about the civil war.
Ghetto/Gangsta- Now this is probably one of the most general labels. You can be ghetto if you live in detroit, if you wear baggy clothes, if you have WHITE shoes, if you wear gold, if you have a golden tooth, if you tell someone you gonna pop a cap. a Ghetto is actually a jewish term for poor/homeless during the holocaust. You look at what we call a ghetto today... and it really has no real relation to the holocaust. But many people view ghetto as Rap, and bling bling.
I think that about sums up everything I wanted to say today. This has been you daily dosage of Matt's Wisdom.
Fear:being ignored.
oh my god..
Before the MySpace frenzy.
Before the Internet & text messaging.
Before Sidekicks & iPods.
Before MIKE JONESSS
Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.
Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night.
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.
Way back.
Tag.
Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.
Red Light, Green Light.
Heads Up 7 Up.
Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.
Hopskotch.
Slip-n-Slides.
Tree Houses.
Mother May I?
Red Rover.
Four Square.
Hula Hoops.
The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.
Playing Street Hockey with the neighborhood friends.
Running through the sprinklers.
Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.
Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.
Wait.
Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter.
Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.
The original Power Rangers
Or what about:
The Secret Life of Alex Mac.
Ren & Stimpy.
Double Dare.
Rocko's Modern Life.
AAAHH!! REAL MONSTERS.
Wild & Crazy Kids.
Clarissa Explains it All.
Are You Afraid of the Dark?
The original 'All That' cast members.
Kenan & Kel.
Who could forger Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.
Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.
Not finished yet.
Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.
Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.
Class field trips.
When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.
When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.
When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.
When Toys R Us overuled the mall.
Go back to the time when
Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.
Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'
'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.
Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.
It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.
Being old referred to anyone over 20.
A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.
The worst thing you could catch from the opposite sex was cooties.
Nobody was prettier than Mom.
Nobody was cooler or stronger than Dad.
Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.
It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.
When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever.
When Ninja Turtles ruled the world. (THEY STILL DO)
If you can remember most or all of these
than you have lived in the 90's!
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I remember the good days... I remember all those things... I'm so old... but im young. I don't want to grow up.
Good times
Well, its been a long time since i've updated this thing. Hilary has been bugging me to update here so here you go. As you probably already know, I have a girlfriend now. Her name is Aubree. SHe has more energy than I do. I'm told that i need someone that can handle MY energy, so if she has more. its gotta be good. My parents grounded me for bad grades, and now that they are up they are being assholes, thinking that i have all this time to do things for them. Because they are too lazy to do it themselves. Well, friday is the zapzone thing for the band. I should be going but who knows... my parents are probably gonna be assholes about that too. Next week starts christmas break... oh excuse me. Holiday break. i'm supposed to be doing a sleep deprevation study. its like a point extra credit for every hour past 16 hours that you remain awake... bwahahah... Probably doing a LAN party at ski's so i can stay up longer. That all depends if my parents are gonna be jerks or not. I really do NOT want to live here after i graduate. I wont be able to stand it. I wont be able to take it.
I'm gonna start a new tradition...atleast with my own blog... every post, im going to tell everyone one of my fears/things people dont know. just so i can get them off my chest, because i feel as if i'm going to explode. or implode. or just plode...
GREATEST fear: My father. I'm deathly afraid of my dad. not so much him in general. He's raised me in such a way, where i'm deathly afraid of dissapointing him. To the point where if I lie to him, i panic. I freak out if i even THINK about doing something remotely different. I'm afraid of what he thinks.I break down if i do dissapoint him. I try my hardest just to get him to say 'good job'. We used to be best friends... now i can't even see him without there being a problem... there is always something wrong. I don't know if it will ever be the same... but i know i'll probably always be afraid of dissapointing him.
Guilt stricken, sobbing, with his head on the floor..
These are supposedly 27 questions that no one would ever think to ask.
1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you think? "eh?"
2. How much cash do you have on you? I recently missplaced 20 bucks.
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST"? chest
4. Favorite planet? Neptune
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone? mum
6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? Puff the Magic Dragon
7. What shirt are you wearing? a black one
8. Do you "label" yourself? haha no
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing right now. Im not wearing shoes.
10. Bright or Dark Room? Dark
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? funkay
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? thinking.
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say? "Um yeah thats fine with me :)"
15. Quote some rap lyrics: WTF rap blows.
16. What's a saying that you say a lot? "what?"
17. Who told you they loved you last? parental
18. Last furry thing you touched? dog.
19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days? none.. not even asparin.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? 2?
21. Favorite age you have been so far? I live for the moment
22. Your worst enemy? "im my own worst enemy" its a song.
23. What is your current desktop picture? none.
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? "I have to ask for you to tell me stuff?"
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret? A million dollars. mistakes and regrets make me who i am.
26. Do you like someone? I gave up, remember?
27. The last song you listened to? The Freshman -Verve Pipe
Bowling
Well saturday I went bowling with a bunch of people. This happened to include, Hilary, Becca, Cliff, Amanda, Aleksa, uhh... Emily, Brendan, A guy named Jordan, Ski, Mcbride, A girl names Lisa, Another gril from fowlerville, Alex Scott, Krystal and her boyfriend! So it was really fun. I drove Hilary there, but Follwed Ski, and his car kept overheating.. so we had to pull over , many'a time. When we did get there, it was Ski, Hilary, Aleksa, Mcbrizzle, and Alex on one lane. I was rather busy goofing around to actually try to bowl, i was having too much fun. After the second game, Mcbrizzle, and Alex left... and soon afterwards, Aleksa, so it was me and hilary, and ski on one lane. I can't remember much from the 3rd game except what happened during the games "I can't find my cherries!" "matt, did you pop your cherry?" "I broke my sword and popped my cherry...." After we all left, Hilary, Ski, and I went to Mcdonalds ,t oacquire ourselves a 5 star ***** meal. Which ended up being only 2 stars **. Hilary yelled at some guy as we were leaving and that was about it. I can't remember anything else.
Deffinetly. Need. to. do. That. Again. With. Everyone. Else. Capish?
Tired
You know, i've been worn out lately, tired, and stressed. I'm not as happy as I usually am. I'm just really good at faking it. I gave a stress presentation.. but it doesn't mean i know how to coop with it any better. I just need to get away. I need to get out. I need to move on. But i'm not ready to leave.
You know, i think im gonna stop wearing my hat after this school year. It's been 4 great years of my hat.. but maybe its time to move on eh? Haha, maybe i'll give it to someone as a "remember me" gift? haha right... like i'll be able to seperate myself from my hat.
Good times and old times
You know, being a senior, and having tons of homework, I've had alot of time to think. And you know what? Im excited. But sad. I cant wait to go out and see whats there. I want to go to college. I want to experience it. But I'm afraid of loss. Im afraid of lisng my friends and not seeing them. I'm almost 100% sure im going to northern. Atleast I'll have Cliff up there, and if Rachel goes up there that'll be even better! I've been in an AWESOME mood lately too, i'm extremely happy. I recently made Senior class rep. for band counsil, im excelling in music, i finally made up my mind what i want to go to college for major and minor. I'm getting good grades (except physics). I like this really cool girl, some of you know who she is, some of you probably figured it out, not that hard. I'm happy, and just knowing that makes me feel even better. I'm getting a car today, and hopefully wil lbe able to drive it by monday. YES! I was listening to a really good old song today, so i thought i'd put it in here.
Please come now I think I’m falling
I’m holding on to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I’m trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I’m down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain’t so far down
I’m looking down now that it’s over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I’m down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain’t so far down
Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there’s something left for me
So please come stay with me
‘Cause I still believe there’s something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me
Hold me now
I’m six feet from the edge and I’m thinking
Late
It seems lately I am always showing up late to friend get together. Because of work or because of my parents. I hate it when I show up late, I always feel like a third wheel then, and i never really know whats going on. I have the insistant feeling that i missed something (which I have). I need to quit my job.
Im also getting tired of people thinking that just because I act stupid and have fun, that I really am stupid. I'm not stupid >=(. AND WTF is with struck?! giving me such a low grade because i went a step further on the problems. I hate you struck. I'll give you a significant figure. >=O
Grand Ledge
Wednesday we had the grand ledge invitational. I'll be honest. I had my doubts. We havent pulled together as well this year as in past years. I was almost regretting going to grand ledge because we always set a standard there... we always get the crowd going. This year was no let down. We did awesome. We rocked our show. We may be small, but we're awesome. We played so awesome. The video rocked too. Thanks to the band for making my last grand ledge so awesome. As i said in my little speech. I was actually crying I hope you know. I love band. Maybe ill come back and chaperone your trip next year. Wednesday is the FINAL marching band show.. and thats going to be really sad. We also start jazz band and concert season. <3 band. Yeah, i know im a band geek, but hey... atleast i have something to enjoy this much.
I've been in a really good mood lately.
Last football game
So friday was My last football game. It was sad. I wont have another home football game... Band is my favorite class, and marching band is.. just... gah i love it. I almost broke out in tears after half time. This wednesday... i probably will. Grand ledge invetational. My last one. A week from the grand ledge invitational is my FINAL marching show. It's gonna be sad.
Rachel, sorry for not going to your bon-fire after the game. I figured we could always ahve another bon-fire but Becca's birthday only comes once a year (unlike mine which is twice a year).
Physics happens to be my worst grade. and I dont know why im taking it. The class is rediculous. there is so much CRAP. its not hard.. just alot of CRAP.
I made employee of the month at my work... Its about time. 5 free meals, a parking spot, and 1 paid day off. Which I will be using.
Becca's party was a blast. Went to her house after the game. Sat around and talked for a little. played with her brothers drum sets. We played twister again. I love twister. Jojo is my faorite freshman, im sorry but shes nuts. She looks innocent, but once you get on that twister mat... its all over with. She is really good at it, not to mention flexible... and pushy. Unfortunetly friday I had blood drawn, and was leaning on my left arm (the arm that blood was drawn from) and I had to fall to the side, to avoid falling on her. My arm started shaking. oh it was interesting.
Yup thats about it.
I'm tired...
So today.. for the first time in 3 years.. my mom asked me if"anything was wrong" or "are you stressed?" i said yes, and for some reason... started crying. I told them that I don't talk to anyone about my problems andthat was probably partly what was wrong.. and they kinda just left me alone... I thought they were going to be nice to me, but my dad as soon as he got the chance, he began lecturing me and starting his long spiel, making me wrong, and glorifying himself. That went on for about an hour... then when I thought it was over, he had me go to the store with him. He asked me a bunch of questions, and told me what its like to be a parent and about my brother and sister... yeah... Needless to say, this is the first time i've cried in a long time.. not very happy. Sorry to anyone who read this.
Yeah..
Yeah... I'm extremely stressed. ANd I feel like im about to break down. Chances are I'm not going to tell you why.. cause I generally don't share my problems... But if you ask me... I might... But if you ask with other people around... Don't expect an answer. Again, I don't generally share my problems. So good luck if you think you can get it out of me. Also... please.. if you ask, and I just say no... for the love of god.. don't bug the hell out of me.
Rennaissance festival.
To start.. Brady couldn't go. He was doing stuff with his parents.. lame excuse... but whatever. So it was just Jake, Brandon, Rachel, and myself. Rachel's mom drove us again, and that was spifftacular, because no one had to pay gas money. So we got to the rennaissance festival, and not even 5 minutes of being there... We were approached about Jail. Rachel, of course was going in, because well.. she just was. Turns out she had all 3 of us guys thrown in too. I was thrown in for being a "pudding filled sock puppet". They let Rachel out really soon, and she won jailor says (i almost won last year... i was so close... bah) and then she had to wait about half an hour for us to get out because it was her fault.. ALL HER FAULT. YOU SEE THAT RACHEL, ALL YOUR FAULT. So all we had to do was sing a song about being a cow. We got some turkey legs, and watched a joust. The joust wasn't that entertaining and the lady behind me gave me a headache... we walked around for a long time... missed a ded bob show, walked around some more... saw the ded bob show and left.... There was ALOT more in there... but i for some reason cant seem to remember it all. Oh, i found this really cool mask under a bench... ill bring it monday... because it is that cool.... Anyway, I had an awesome day... and I'd love to go every year, with the same group of people. because.. my friends are just THAT awesome.
I'll give you a dollar.. if you read this all.. and then fill it out...
[-] If I were a month I would be: August
[-] If I were a day of the week I would be: Wednesday
[-] If I were a time of day I would be: midnight
[-] If I were a planet I would be: saturn
[-] If I were a sea animal I would be: Sea horse
[-] If I were a direction I would be: east
[-] If I were a piece of furniture I would be: my bed!
[-] If I were a sin I would be: ice cream
[-] If I were a historical figure I would be: JRR Tolkien or... JFK
[-]If I were a liquid I would be: water...or hydrochloric acid
[-]If I were a stone, which would I be: sapphire
[-][ If I were a tree, I would be: maple
[-] If I were a bird, I would be: hummingbird
[-] If I were a tool, I would be: a chainsaw
[-] If I were a flower/plant, I would be: tulip!
[-] If I were a kind of weather, I would be: Rain.
[-] If I were a musical instrument, I would be: WoOo a drum set.
[-] If I were an animal, I would be: armordillo!!!!
[-] If I were a color, I would be: blue.
[-] If I were an emotion, I would be: Happiness.
[-] If I were a vegetable, I would be: disabled.
[-] If I were a sound, I would be: elation.
[-] If I were an element, I would be: Sulfur.
[-] If I were a car, I would be: A Taurus SHO.. fast...
[-] If I were a movie, I would be directed by: haha justin bailey
[-] If I were a book, I would be written by: JRR Tolkien, margeret weis.
[-] If I were a food, I would be: lo mein
[-] If I were a place, I would be: The Amazon Rainforest
[-] If I were a material, I would be: sssssilk!
[-] If I were a taste, I would be: strawberries
[-] If I were a scent, I would be: good smelling.
[-] If I were a word, I would be: SPIFFY
[-] If I were a body part I would be: eyes
[-] If I were a facial expression I would be: smile
[-] If I were a subject in school I would be: band...what?
[-] If I were a cartoon character I would be: stitch
[-] If I were a shape I would be a: square =(
[-] WHAT IS YOUR NAME? Matt
[-] WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING NOW? im not wearing pants...... its ok im wearing shorts.
[-] WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Rush
[-] WHAT'S THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Ramen Noodles
[-] DO YOU WISH ON STARS? aye.
[-] WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? blue
[-] HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? its night time... its dark.. cloudy... awesome.
[-] LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Brandon?
[-] FAVORITE DRINK? vernors, Ruby red squirt... OH OH and, Ill go with Rachel on this one... Cherry Vanilla Dr pepper
[-] HAIR COLOR? tan/sandy
[-] FAVORITE SPORT? Marching band.... what?
[-] DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? nope
[-] SIBLINGS? 1 brother and sister
[-] FAVORITE MONTH? october.
[-] FAVORITE FOOD? taco?
[-] LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Merlin
[-] FAVORITE DAYS OF THE YEAR? June 4th, January 1st.
[-] WHAT DO YOU DO TO VENT ANGER? I cant.
[-] WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? Ninja Turtles
[-] HUGS OR KISSES? hugs
[-] CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA? swirl
[-] LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? house (durrr)
[-] WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? uhhhh
[-] WHAT DO YOU HAVE UNDER YOUR BED? the floor.
[-] WHO IS THE FRIEND YOU HAVE HAD THE LONGEST? Bekah
[-] WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? watched Merlin.
[-] WHAT INSPIRES YOU? Silence.
[-] WHAT FRIGHTENS YOU? losing friends.
[-] PLAIN, BUTTERED OR SALTED POPCORN? buttered
[-] FAVORITE CAR? Dodge Charger.
[-] FAVORITE FLOWER? Tulip... purple ones actually.
[-] NUMBER OF KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? 4
[-] CAN YOU JUGGLE? school and work.
[-] FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK? friday, and thursday.
[-] WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? had cake.
[-] IN HOW MANY STATES HAVE YOU LIVED? 7
[-] IN HOW MANY CITIES HAVE YOU LIVED? 11
A - Age you got your first kiss: 7?
B - Band listening to right now: Rush
C - Crush: you'd really like to know wouldn't you
D - Dad's name: Ron
E - Easiest person to talk to: Rachel actually.
F - Favorite bands at the moment: too many to list.
G - Gummy worms or gummy bears?: are the worms sour?
H - Hometown: Williamston
I - Instruments: Alto, Tenor, Baritone saxaphone, Clarinet, BassClarinet, ContraBass Clarinet, Drums.
J - Junior High: WMS
K - Kids: Paco.
L - Longest car ride ever: to TN
M - Mom's name: Antonia
N - Nicknames: Matt? Giggles.
O - One wish: not sharing, you can ask me
P - Phobia[s]: none really
Q - Quotes: "The depths of a person that truly show who they are can never be seen, the likes of who they want you to see are all to obvious... the small things you pick up on when they aren't looking will always prove to be true"
R - Reason to smile: everything.
S - Song you sang last: lol barbie girl...
T - Time you woke up [today]: 6:00
U - Unknown fact about me: uhhh..
V - Vegetable you hate: zucchini
W - Worst habit(s):being reserved.
X - X-rays you've had: 3
Y - Yummy food:tacos
Z - Zodiac sign: gemini
01. What is your name? Matt
002. Spell your name backwards: Ttam
003. Date of birth: June 4th, 1988
004. Male or female? male
005. Astrological sign: gemini
006. Nicknames: MAtt? didnt we go over this?
007. Occupation: MCDONALDS
008. Height: 5' 8"
010. Hair color:sandy tanish.. brown?
011. Eye color: blue
012. Where were you born? Louisiana
013. Where do you reside now? Williamston
014. Age: 17
015. Screen names:j0k3r5gam3
016. E-mail addy: ask me in person or on AIM
017. What does your screen name stand for? jokers game?
018. What is your lj name? who?
019. What does your Blurty name stand for? don’t have one
020. Pets: 4 dogs, 5 birds.
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? 17
022. Piercings? 0
023. Tattoo's? none
025. Righty or lefty? lefty
026. Wearing: t shirt and shorts
027. Hearing: RUSH
028. Feeling: happy
029. Eating/drinking: nothing currently
~Girls/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~
061. Have you ever been in love? not “in love” but I’ve loved people
062. How many people have you told "I love you"? several
063. How many people have you been in love with in ‘that way’? 0
114. Does someone in your family wear a toupee? No lol but that’d be so weird
115. Do you have any nieces or nephews? one of each
116. Are your parents divorced? no
117. Do you have step parents? Nuh uh
118. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family? No
119. If so for what? N/A
120. Did some of your family come to America from another country? Mother
02. Music Stuff
121. What song do you swear was written about you or your life?
122. What's the most embarrasing cd you own? i like my CDs
123. What's the best cd you own? Green Day
124. What song do you absolutely hate? RAP
125. Do you sing in the shower? ...how did you know that?!
126. What song reminds you of someone special?
03. Okay, I Name An Artist And I Give A Lyric From Any One Of Their Songs:
127. Pink: get this party started
128. Aerosmith: walk this way
129. Madonna:it’s time for the good times, forget about the bad times
130. Korn: im a freak on a leash
131. Backstreet Boys: backstreets back alright!
132. The Beatles:oh god... uhhh.... yesterday..
133. Sublime
134. J.Lo: waiting for tonight
04. 135. *Nsync: it’s tearing up my heart when I’m with you
136. Limp Bizkit: lets keep rolling rolling rolling
137. Britney Spears: hit me baby one more time! lol
138. Creed: im 6 ft from the edge and im thinking
139. Enrique Iglesias: you can’t escape my love
140. Good Charlotte: This is the Anthem
141. Christina Aguilera: no matter what they say, words cant bring me down
142. Eminem: im the real shady
143. New Found Glory: im feelin this
144. Kelly Clarkson: but hes so beautiful, hes such a beautiful disaster
145. Kelly Osbourne: fuck?
146. Mandy Moore: I’m missing you like candy
147. Eve: don’t know don’t care
148. Aaliyah: err...
149. Nelly: N they say
150. Alicia Keys: No one to share, no one who truly cares for me
151. Incubus: morning sun
05. Favorites
152. Color: blue..
153. Food: tacos....
154. Song: Alot..
155. Show: Family Guy
157. Band/singer: Green Day
158. Animal: Armordillo
161. Movie: LOTR, dungeons and dragons, anything that can make me laugh.
162. Pair of shoes: shoes are shoes.
164. Actor: Mel Gibson.
165. Actress: Sandra Bullock
166. Potato chip:The kind you eat.
167. Drink: vernors
168. Alcholic drink: I'm UNDERAGE!!!!
169. Holiday: april fools day.
170. Perfume/cologne: females.
171. Pizza topping: cheese.
172. Jello flavor: blue raspberry
173. Lunch meat: ham.
174. Board game: Monopoly. Catch Phrase
175. Video game: GW
176. Website: xmission.maddox.com
177. Book: DragonLance
178. Computer game: DaggerFall
179. Number: 5
180. Cereal: Lucky Charms
181. Comedian: Robin Williams,adama sandler, jim carry
182. Dessert: ice cream
183. Disney character: Stitch
184. Clothing store: Sam goody.
185. Passtime: reading or biking.
186. Teacher: Roman
187. Childhood toy: Ninja Turtles
188. Carnival game/ride: ferris wheel.
189. Candy bar: snickers.
190. Magazine: Pc Gamer... lol
191. Salad dressing: French or Ranch.
192. Thing to do on the weekend: Movies,hang with friends.
193.Hot drink: hot chocolate
194. Season: Fall.. specialyl when its starts to get colder..
195.Sport to watch: Hockey/football
1 96. Person to talk to online: Becca, Rachel, Phil, Justin...
199. Do you have posters on your wall? haha the williamston softball team.
200.If so of what? ^^
201. Do you have a tv in your bedroom? yes
202. How many pillows are on your bed?: 5
207. Do you have your own phone line in your bedroom? I have a cell, does that count?
208. Do you listen to music while trying to fall asleep? sometimes
209. Describe the last nightmare you had: Haven't had one recently
210. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? …maybe
211. How many people can comfortably sleep in your bed? Comfortably? 3 probably.
212. Do you sleep in any unusual positions? every night
213. Do you have to share your bedroom with a sibling? no
214. Do you snore? yes
215. How about drool? no
216. Do you have an alarm clock in your room? Yeah
217. What color is the carpet in your room? wood floor
218. What's under your bed? the floor
07. This or that
219. beach/mountains: mountains
220. Donuts/bagels: dbagels
221. Day/night: night
222. Wicked witch of the east/wicked witch of the west: east
223. Heaven/hell: heaven
225. Coffee/tea: tea
228. Britney/Christina: neither lol
229. Swiss cheese/american cheese: american
230. Real World/Road Rules: what?
231. Backstreet Boys/*Nsync: ...
232. Silver/gold: silver
233. Nike/Adidas: adidas
234. McDonalds/Taco Bell: taco bell
235. Sweet/sour: sweet
236. Punk/emo: punk... emo kids make me sad.
237. Hot/cold: cold.
38. Winter/summer: winter
239. Spring/fall: fall
240. Operas/plays: both.
241. Read/watch tv: read
242. Cd's/tapes: cds
243. Dvd's/vhs: dvd
244. Old/new: depends on what
245. Shorts/skirts: skirts duuuhh
246. Pink/red: Pink
247. Coloured pictures/black and white photos: depends on what
248. Meat/vegetables: meat
249. Mexican food/chinese food: chinese
250. Commercials/infomercials: commercials
251. Scary movies/comedies: comedies
252. Bikinis/one piece bathing suits: uhh..
253. Sandals/tennis shoes: bare foot
254. Dogs/cats: dog lover.
255. Unicorns/fairies: fairies
256. Water/land: water
257. Sugar/spice: spice girls? I liked ginger.
258. Black/white: white and black
259. ribbons/bows: ribbon!
260. Chicken/beef: chicken
261. Colored christmas lights/regular white christmas lights: colored!
262. Cars/trucks: trucks... and fast cars.
264. Popcorn/pretzels: popcorn
265. Hip/hop: hop! lol
266. Passionate kiss/peck: uhhh. hand shake.
267. WWE wrestling/real wrestling: WWE
268. Back rub/foot massage: havent had a back or a foot rub.
269. Picture frames/photo albums: albums
270. Pens/pencils: pencil, you can erase
hat Is Your Opinion Of The Following
271. Eminem: sucks
272. Virgins: what about em?
273. God: i have a different opinion
274. The Osbournes: ._?
275. Reality TV: bah
276. J.Lo: omg...I'd pay her to go away
278. Emo music: ...meh
279. Valentine's Day: Only fun if you have a Valentine and sometimes, not even then
280. Christina Aguilera's comeback: she came back?
282. Abortion: pro-choice
284. Murder: bad
285. Death: sad
289. Pornography: dont do that.
290. Fortune tellers: fortune cookies are lame.
293. Politics: independant.
294. Country music: naah
296. Cloning: for medical reasons.
What You Think Of When You Hear These Common Names?.
299. Jack: Jill
300. Tiffany: jewelry company
301. Ben: er..
302. Maria: cary
303. Jennifer: aniston
304. Nicole: sister
305. Amy: pollock?
310. Tom: Tom Hanks
314. John: foster is retarded
315. Joel: 5th grade
323. Natalie: what
324. Christy:
Have You Ever...
331. Mooned anyone? no
332. Been on a diet? yes
333. Been to a foreign country? yep
334. Broken a bone? yes
335. Swallowed a tooth/cap/filling? no
336. Swear at a teacher? yes
338. Got in a fight? yep
339. Dated a teacher? wghat?!
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants? nay
341. Thought about killing your enemy? Haven’t we all?
342. Gone skinny dipping? no
344. Told a little white lie? DUH
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell? no
346. Stolen anything? banned for life.
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid? YEP!
348. Been on TV? yeah
349. Been on the radio? yeah
350. Been in a mosh pit? lol yep
351. Been to a concert? yup
353. Loved someone so much it makes you cry? no
355. Broken the law? yes
356. Been to a rodeo? no
357. Been on a talk show? No maybe when I'm a movie star...
358. Been on a game show? no
359. Been on an airplane? yes
360. Got to ride on a firetruck? Yeah!
361. Came close to dying? Sort of
364. Terrorized a babysitter? Ummm…..
365. Made a mud pie? yes
366. Had a dream that your falling off a cliff? Yes many times
367. Snuck out of the house at night? to watch the stars, yes
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name? uh no there's the slight problem of me being UNDERAGE!!!
370. Felt like you didn't belong? yah
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel? yep
372. Smoked? no
373. Done drugs? nope
374. Been arrested? no
375. Had your tonsils removed? nope
376. Gone to camp? YEAH! I could live there
377. Won a bet? no
378. Written a love letter? Umm…no
379. Gone out of your way to be with the one you love? no
380. Written a love poem? Isn’t that the same as the letter?
386. Asked a friend for relationship advice? nay. to shy.
389. Gotten a speeding ticket? No
390. Done jail time? no
391. Had to wear a uniform to work? yes
392. Won a trophy? yes
393. Thrown up in public? yes
395. Failed/got held back? no
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school? One year I think
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds? yahh
398. Taken ballet lessons? no
399. Attempted suicide? nah
400. Cut yourself? Not intentionally
Randomness
425. Do you believe in aliens? well in a manner of speaking
426. Name three things that are next to your computer: games, books, tv
427. Do you have any hidden talents? make noises.
428. Do you wish MTV would play music videos? yes
429. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be? fantasy
430. What would your movie star name be? Makel Nuklehed!
431. Do you play any sports? Marching Band.
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen? excorcist.
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently? 40 yr old virgin
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen? American Beauty.
435. Do you drive? yes
436. What is your dream car? dodge charger
437. Do you think your good looking? I don’t know and I honestly don’t care
438. Do others think you are good looking? I've heard yes and no
439. Would you ever sky dive? Sure!
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot? sure
441. How many rooms do you have in your house? 6 or s0
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters? NO I LOVE THEM
443. Do you believe in God? sort of
445. Do you believe there is a heaven? yah
446. Do you believe there is a hell? yeah
447. Do you own a pooltable? No but that’d be cool
448. Do you have a pool? yes
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen? no
450. Do you like chocolate? Who doesn't
451. Who/what is on your 2005 calendar? medical
452. How many U.S. states have you been to? 7
453. Ever wished on a shooting star? all the time
454. Best Halloween costume you ever wore? bunny.
455. Do you carry any weapons on you? Fake sword
456. What is your weakness? Caring too much
457. Name something you can't get enough of: fun with friends
459. How many kids do you want to have? 2
460. Future daughters names: Katie, kelly.
462. What is your ideal way to die? doing something fun/stupid
463. How do you release stress? dont
464. Are you a trendy person? Not particularly
465. Are you an artisitic person? sorda
466. Are you a realistic person? sorda
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off? No
468. Are you a strong person? yes, both physically and emotionally...I’m strong-willed too!
469. Are you a strong willed person? Well there you go!
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you? KAtie
471. Who is the last person to IM you? ...Katie.
472. Do you hate chain e-mails? OMG YES
473. Are you a deep sleeper? no
474. Are you a good story teller? yep
475. What do you believe is your best quality? smile and generally engergetic personality
476. What is your greatest accomplishment? music.
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense? candles
478. Do you do yoga? no
479. Do you have your own credit card? no
480. Let's say you win the lotto: WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! Wait how much
481. Do you have a check book? No
482. Do you like your driver? My computer one? Heck yes
483. Do you tan easily? no
484. What color is your hair naturally? used to be blonde
485. How many fillings do you have? 1
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit? 1
487. Worst feeling in the world? no friends.
488. Best feeling in the world? love
489. Is the glass half empty or half full? full
490. Last thing you downloaded? music.
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life? not really
492. What do you think people think of you? Enthusiastic
493. Are you a likeable person? if you know me
494. Do you need therapy? Ummm…depends on the day
495. Do you take medication for a chemical imbalance? no
496. What the best way to be proposed to?
499. When are you moving? Hopefully never
500. Are you happy this is over? YES
And now you know more than you ever wanted to and have probably wasted years of your life by reading this, I hope you're having fun!
Adventurrrree...
I feel the need to go on an adventure. or do something adventureous.. or something I dont normally do... Like hang out with friends. Hahah... On another note... I'm not going to homecomming. Of course I don't have anyone to go with, but I also have to work. What is with the student council this year? And the teachers? The freshman are supposed to have a HARD-TIME. But no, the teachers throw a fit, and the student council reps for the freshman throw a fit.. and say we gotta take it easy.. TAKE IT EASY?! Class color day... They wanted to give the Pouse... or however its spelled... WTF is that?! no one would be able to do that... Class music day... we wanted to give them POLKA! mmkay, that would be cool.. but no... it was too hard. And since when do the freshman get class shirts? wtf is this? the teachers are supporting the freshman hardcore and its pissing me off. Their color was Turqouise... and they wore blue... AND GETTING COUNTED. no thats just wrong. Another thing, Homecomming king and queen. The same goddamn people are nominated every year. EVERY YEAR. there should be some rule that once you are nominated, even if you dont win.. you cant be nominated again, you lost out. good job!
Homecomming game friday.. you all should go.. and support the band... THE BAND...
Yeah.
Hmm..
Alright, there really isnt much to update. School has started. Band so far is my best class. We're not doing nearly as good as we should for it. I got invited by the new Fowlerville girl(senior) to go to fowlervilles homecomming game.. and Ima go. I think it'll be fun. My parents keep taking my cash. I should be getting a car on the 12th. THE 12TH!!! cross your fingers. For your entertainment... i have come across another test.
Put an X by the movies you've seen. If you get more than 70, you're a movie whore.
COPY and REPOST ! PLACE YOUR SCORE IN THE SUBJECT LINE
(x)Pirates of the Caribbean
(x)Boondock Saints
(x)The Mexican
(x)Fight Club
(x)Starsky and Hutch
(x)Neverending Story
(x)Blazing Saddles
(x)Garden State
(x)The Princess Bride
(x)Young Frankenstien
(x)AnchorMan
()Napoleon Dynamite
(x)Saw
(x)White noise
(x)White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
total here : 14
(x)50 First Dates
(x)Jason X
(x)Scream
(x)Scream 2
(x)Scream 3
(x)Scary Movie
(x)Scary Movie 2
(x)Scary Movie 3
(x)American Pie
(x)American Pie 2
(x)American Wedding
(x)Harry Potter
(x)Harry Potter 2
(x)Harry Potter 3
()Resident Evil I
(x)Resident Evil 2
(x)The Wedding Singer
( )Little Black Book
total here : 15
(x)The Village
()Donnie Darko
(x)Lilo & Stitch
(x)Finding Nemo
()Finding Neverland
(x)13 Ghosts
(x)Signs
(x)The Grinch
(x)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
(x)White Chicks
(x)Butterfly Effect
(x)Thirteen going on 30
(x)I Robot
(x)Dodgeball
(x)Universal Soldier
() A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came A Spider
(x)Deep impact
total here : 13
(x)KingPin
(x)Never Been Kissed
(x)Meet The Parents
(x)Meet the Fockers
(x)Eight Crazy Nights
(x)A Cinderella Story
(x)The Terminal
(x)The Lizzie McGuire Movie
()Passport to Paris
(x)Dumb & Dumber
(x)Dumb & Dumberer
(x)Final Destination
(x)Final Destination 2
(x)Halloween
(x)The Ring
(x)The Ring 2
()Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
()Practical Magic
(x)Chicago
(x)Ghost Ship
(x)From Hell
(x)Hellboy
(x)Secret Window
()I Am Sam
(x)The Whole Nine Yards
(x)The Whole Ten Yards
(x)The Day After Tomorrow
(x)Child's Play
(x)Bride of Chucky
(x)Ten Things I Hate About You
(x)Just Married
(x)Gothika
(x)Nightmare on Elm Street
(x)Sixteen Candles
(x)Bad Boys
(x)Bad Boys 2
(x)Joy Ride
()Seven (SE7EN)
(x)Oceans Eleven
(x)Oceans Twelve
()Identity
total here: 35
()Lone Star
(x)Predator I
(x)Predator II
(x)Independence day
()Cujo
(x)A Bronx Tale
(x)Darkness Falls
()Christine
(x)ET
(x)Children of the Corn
(x)My boss' daughter
(x)Maid in Manhattan
( )Frailty
( )Best bet
(x)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x)She's All That
(x)Calendar Girls
()Sideways
(x)Mars Attacks
total here : 12
(x)Event Horizon
()Ever after
(x)Forrest Gump
(x)Big Trouble in Little China
(x)X-men 1
(x)X-men 2
(x)Catch Me If You Can
(x)The Others
(x)Freaky Friday
()Ring of Fire
(x)The Hot Chick
(x)Swimfan
(x)Miracle
(x)Old School
(x)Ray
(x)The Notebook
(x)K-Pax
total here : 15
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x)Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x)A Walk to Remember
(x)Boogeyman
(x)Hitch
( )Back Door Sluts 9
( )Anal Acres 1
( )Anal Acres 2
( )B-Cup Divas
(x)The Fifth Element
(x)Star Wars episode I The Phantom Menace
(x)Star Wars episode II Attack of The Clones
(x)Star Wars episode III Revenge of The Sith
(x)Star Wars episode IV A New Hope
(x)Star Wars episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x)Star Wars episode VI Return of The Jedi...
()Troop Beverly Hills
( )Swimming with Sharks
(x)Air Force One
(x)For Richer or Poorer
(x)Trainspotting
( )People under the stairs
( )Blue Velvet
()Sound of music
(x)Parent Trap
(x)The Burbs
(x)The Terminator
(x)Empire Records
(x)SLC Punk
(x)Meet Joe Black
()Wild girls
(x)A Clockwork Orange
(x)the Order
(x)Spiderman
(x)Spiderman 2
()Amelie
total here : 26
(x)Mean Girls
(x)Shrek
(x)Shrek 2
(x)The Incredibles
(x)Collateral
(x)The Fast & The Furious
(x)2 Fast 2 Furious
(x)Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
(x)Closer
total here : 9
(x)Titanic
(x)Saved
(x)Bowling For Columbine
()Farenheit 9/11
(x)The Sixth Sense
(x)Artificial intelligence (AI)
(x)Love actually
( )Shutter
(x)Ella Enchanted
(x)Princess diaries 1
()Princess diaries 2
(x)Constantine
()Million Dollar Baby
(x)Envy
(x) Eurotrip
(x)Malibu's Most wanted
(x)Big Daddy
(x)Black Sheep
(x)The Breakfast Club
(x)West side story
total here : 16
(x)A Christmas Story
()Spanglish
(x)Pulp Fiction
()Sleepover
(x)The Evil Dead
(x)*Killer Klowns From Outer Space*
(x)The Seed of chucky
(x)Vanilla Sky
(x)Nightmare Before Christmas
()Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
(x)Interview With The Vampire
(x)The Crow
(x)Purple Rain
(x)Reservoir Dogs
(x)Wayne's World
total here : 12
(x)Wayne's World 2
(x)21 Grams
(x)Blow
(x)Edward Scissorhands
(x)Clerks
(x)Beauty and the Beast
()Guess who
(x)monster in-law
(x) eLF
(x)stuart little
(x)stuart little 2
(x)Mall Rats
(x)Chasing Amy
(x)Dogma
(x)Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
total here : 13
(x)Beetlejuice
(x)The Last Samurai
()The Amityville Horror (old or new)
(x)The Aviator
(x)Romeo and Juliet
()Barbershop
()Beauty Shop
(x)legally blonde
()legally blonde 2
(x)the forgotten
()confessions of a teenage drama queen
(x)grudge
total here: 7
Over All: 187...
Oh my god I'm a hardcore movie whore.
Have fun with that kids.
Psychology
I really hate psychology class. So far its easy, and simple... but... its ruining how I think, or rather... telling me why I think the way I do. I dont like that. I liked being able to say that im a spaz, and thats just who I am... but now... I'm a spaz, because I have low seretonin levels? WTF. No. It's telling us why we see things certain ways, that our personalitys arent exactly original. I liked the days when I could shake my head at not knowing why someone did something, I liked it when I could use my "imagination" which by the way, may not be an imagination, in why people think that way. I don't mind knowing these things, but I dont like someone telling me how I think.
On another note, i beleive we're gonan try and go to the renaissance festival this weekend. hopefully everything works out. Rachel, if we give your mum the money again, can she get us the tickets? and shes willing to drive?! yay. I think we might have to go friday though... cause I work saturday... 11 am to 7 pm. I hate working.
>EDIT< Actually... friday wont work.. because they arent open friday... only Weekends, labor day, and friday the 23rd... so maybe you guys will have to go without me... or we can go labor day? or I could just call in.
Drain the pressure from the swelling
First Hour(1)-Physics
First Hour(2)-Physics
Second Hour(1)-Tech
Second Hour(2)-Tech
Third Hour(1)-Psychology
Third Hour(2)-Health
Fourth Hour(1)-BAND
Fourth Hour(2)-BAND
Fifth Hour(1)-English 12
Fifth Hour(2)-English 12
Sixth Hour(1)- German 2A
Sixth Hour(2)- German 2B
Anyone have any classes with me?
On Another note, Rachel read on and count the band points.
Band camp is just awesome. I am actually enjoying it, except the laps in the morning. My freshman all know pretty much what theyare doing except sometimes they don't quite understand. HILARY, is doing just fabulous, despite how much she complains. We've been doing some "forced fun time" where we have to hang out with everyone for a couple of hours. I think tomarrow im going to try and hang out with my freshman more. I'm told by some of the MSU people that I would fit right in with the other tenors and saxs in the marching band. One of our conductors told me that alot of the MSU students say im outstanding, funny, and they wish I was their brother so they could take me home.... Well... I'd take me home too, who wouldnt want a pocket matt?
It's been 4 days and i almost lost my voice today. Im very enthusiastic. Yes Rachel... ENTHUSIASTIC. I can do that. Nanner. Nanner. Boo. Boo. Carolyn(drum major) told me that during Dress Down im almost the only one she can hear... oh yah. Anyone want to call me.. please do... we have lunch at 11:30-12:somethin. and forced fun time from 12 something to 4:30 or so. so I am more than willing to talk to someone.. because ya know... I get bored sitting around singing with Mcbride.
Looking over the past
Looking at my blog I noticed that i've had this OVER a year. Looking at some of my old posts, i've noticed a few things:
1.I complained alot more then
2. the spelling errors due to my typing were horrible and incoherant.
3. I have some really cool friends.
here are a few exerpts.
"Me and my dad take the car into town. We decide on the back roads. Great, we hit a bird, ok no problem just keep going right? nope! we go to the corner, turn around and gawk at the dead bird. we open the door, poke it and roll it around, and my dad says "yep... he's dead alright" and as we're leaving scene of the crime, my dad runs it over again!! we go to the store do our stuff, and take the backroads home. My dad, runs over the bird AGAIN (3 times!!) i look at him.. "what? he might have been in pain" "oh my god, dad... we're rednecks"
MONDAY"" If you've seen the 4 alien movies, and the 2 predator movies, you'll understand it, and part of it will actually be funny. I was laughing my ass off. I think Dan only laughed because me Brady, Brandon and I think Jake was laughing... He didn't seem too impressed like you would be if you actually were laughing like that, but whatever floats yer boat. After that We hung out at bradys for a little bit. We jumped around on that trampoline, and started a fire... Of sorts.. We burned our school ideas"
Cedar Point
Cedar point; pure awesomness. Woke up at 4:00-4:30. Picked up justin and met at Bradys house. I had talked to Rachel the day before, and we concluded that as always; her. brady and I were all gonna ride in hte same vehicle, and of course Tracy(tracey?). Justin, Jake, and Cody rode in the other car. The car ride down there was actually pretty fun too. We played mad-libs and came up with some pretty intersting storys. me and Racel ended up giving a short puppet show to the others.
Ohio smells, no really; it does.
Cedar point was better than I expected. We went on this water ride, that was slightly interesting... my sock got wet. the second water ride we went on... dominated me. 3 waterfalls. though I'll admit, Rachel got it pretty bad too( My shoes stayed wet untill I got home). People kept wanting to go onto these slower rides... I was ready to go!! I wanted to go on something fasstt!!
We eventually ended up waiting in line for the Millenium... wow bad spelling tonight... But it started to rain so they shut it down.
Brady and I asked some youngins how old they were because they were smoking, later I was told one of them looked like he wanted to kill me.
Went on the Raptor, and it was awesome. I love rollercoasters. Though I have to say.. justin WAS pretty pale in the picture.
Rachel, Jake and I waited in line for the dragster for nearly 2 hours. Some lady (who I still say was on acid) randomly started talking to Rachel, it was by far one of the funniest things i've heard. They eventually shut down the Dragster due to weather conditions, and we left. We ate at fazolies, which is probably the best fast food/italian resteraunt ever. I was shivering, due to being wet in an air conditioned place... I was really..really...cold.
Toys R Us, I've noticed that whenever we go out as a group of friends, or take a trip, I end up buying Rachel something, but this time I didnt because I needed to save my money to give to Brady for Gas, so Rachel... I found something for you! ah hah!! Remind me about it.
Cody and I were ploting strategys before bumper cars, and we ended up desolating. Rawr.
Ride home wasnt as exciting as the way back, but what can you expect when the person next to you is sorda sleeping? It gave me time to think though. Most people are bothered by awkward silences... but I'm just satisfied knowing the other person(s) is/are there. Got to bradys and gave jake a ride home.
Arrived at home.
Socks were still wet. =(
Closing Time
Closing time
Open all the doors and let you out into the world
Closing time
Turn all of the lights on over every boy and every girl
Closing time
One last call for alcohol so finish your whiskey or beer
Closing time
You don't have to go home but you can't stay here
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
Closing time
Time for you to go out to the places you will be from
Closing time
This room won't be open till your brothers or your sisters come
So gather up your jackets, move it to the exits
I hope you have found a friend
Closing time
Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
I know who I want to take me home
Take me home
That song has currently been stuck in my head. I remember when I was in middle school, having MTV on before I left for school, and that song always being on, that song was awesome. Which makes me think, we're not kids anymore, and our fun times are starting to go away... We all keep thinking about things that STOP us from having fun, When we were little.. we never thought of why not, just always "when?". Just because we're getting older, doesnt mean we can't still have fun, we just need to stop worrying so much. I mysely worry constantly. This is our Last year guys... We need to make it the best its ever been. Plus we need to start thinking of senior pranks.
I hate work.
I'm still working alot...
Thursday- 11 am-7pm
Friday-2pm-10pm
Saturday-2pm-10pm
Sunday-11am-7pm
Next week Im not so sure about.. I was supposed ot have the 14th-19th off for band camp, but she scheduled it a week early.. so she has to re-write my schedule.
Brady is planning a Cedar Point trip, and I REALLY want to go, not just because I've never been... but because its with friends, and I havent done anything for a while, plus I havent seen brady all summer. My parents are telling me its too far to go... Why? 1. Its only ohio. 2. Im 17 you cant baby me anymore 3. I want to go explore things, Im at that age...not want.. NEED to go out and explore things.
I've been really stressed lately... actually to be honest, I almost cried I'm so stressed. I dont cry much. I'll admit I do, but not regularly... I need a break. Summer vacation is supposed to be exactly that.. a VACATION.. but its been filled with working, lectures, and hardships.
Long...ass... survey
(>>yOuR pasT<<)
1. what was your kindergarden teachers name? I cant remember, it was in howell
2. what was your most embaressing moment? Its hard to embaress me.
3. have you ever made fun of someone, then felt so bad about it that you appologized?yep
4. when was your first bf/gf and who? lol.. 1st grade. Mandy.
5. have you ever asked someone out? yes.
6. have you ever rejected someone? yes
7. have you ever been rejected? yeah =8. have you ever thought about suicide just because life wasnt going your way? Hasnt it crossed all out minds?
9. who was your first crush? Oh my god, this girl in my day care, she couldnt read but she rocked. but she ate her boogers O_o
10. what was your first job? uhh, Advertisment.
(>>yOuR PrEseNt<<)
1. whats your advisory teachers name? is that like a counselor? Mrs. Cockeril
2. what always seems to embaress you over and over? talking about how I feel.
3. whats your area code? 517 home slice.
4. do you have a gf or bf? Nope
5. what toothpaste do you use? Colgate is currently in the restroom.
6. where do you shop for lawn gnomes? Franks nursery.
7. do you highlight your hair? Ii've dyed it
8. do you have a wild waves season pass? fo' shure.
9. whats your favorite breathmint flavor? Orange
10. do you dislike one of your friends boyfriends? Yes.
(>>yOuR fUtuRe<<)
1. what do you wanna be when you "grow up"? I really dont know anymore, im having second thoughts
2. what would you want your future daughters name to be? Kelly? emily? hell if I know.
3. what would your future sons name be? I always thought Mark was a cool name
4. do you want to ever get married? yeah.
5. how long do you think youll live? lol not very.
6. where are you going to live when you "grow up"? I dunno.
7. what collage do you want to go to (if yur going to collage)? its COLLEGE. not collage =(
8. how old are u gonna be before u move out of your mommys house? lol probably like 20
9. whos gonna be your brides maids? I have to decide that?
10. whos gonna be your best man? ME!! no..
WHAT DO YOU THiNK OF:
50 First Dates: pretty good
The Bourne Supremacy: i have it
The Village: have that too, not that good.
The Butterfly effect: was ok
Anchorman: have that too, you know.. too many people quoted it
Catwoman: booty call
A cinderella story: wouldn't want to see it
Harry potter 1, 2 and 3: I've seen them.
Signs: NEVER SEEN IT
The Ring: funny
I. robot: Amber still has my copy
Shrek 1 and 2: puss n boots!
Spiderman 1 and 2: ok
13 going on 30: never watched the whole thing
Bruce Almighty: own it
Confessions of a teenage drama queen: havent seen it
Freaky Friday: was ok
Dirty Dancing: never seen it
Cold Mountain: have it
The Princess Diaries: never seen it
Lord Of the rings 1, 2, and 3:have them
New York Minute: NSI (never seen it)
Jennifer Anniston: what? oh. shes pretty.
Jim Carrey: he's pretty funny
Halley Berry: *shrugs*
Adam Sandler: he makes me laugh
Ben Stiller: he has his moments
Ashton Kutcher: ASSHOLE! take my name!
Tobey Mcguire: don't care for him
Denzel Washington: I think he's cool
John Patrick Amedori (sp?): who!?
Andy Dick: what?
Bam Margera: hair cut
Opposite Sex
||1|| Guitar or Drum Player - female drummers are so cool
||2|| Skater or Surfer - skater?
||3|| Brown or Blue Eyes - i don't care!
||4|| Blonde or Brunette - doesnt matter.
||5|| Brains or Looks - both would be nice.. but brains would be a must
Food
||11|| Hamburger or Hotdog - hamburgers
||12|| Pie or Cake -jake likes pie.
||13|| Apple or Banana - Banana
||14|| Coke or Pepsi - Pepsi
||15|| Chicken or Beef - Chicken.
||16|| Oreos or Chips Ahoy - ..Oreos
||17|| Pancakes or Waffles - WAFFLES
||18|| Chocolate or Vanilla - both
||19|| Strawberry or Cherry - strawberry! ^-^
||20|| Watermelon or Cantaloupe - Watermelon
||21|| Potato or Macaroni Salad - macaroni salad
||22|| Wheat or White - both
||23|| Tic Tacs or Altoids - both.
||24|| Sausage or Bacon - bacon.
||25|| Sour Cream and Chives or BBQ - depends.. o-O
Sports
||26|| Baseball or Football - football.
||27|| Swim or Track - swim
||28|| Tennis or Golf - Tennis
||29|| Skiing or Sledding - oh oh , sledding
||30|| Bicycling or Jogging - bike
Stores/Restaurants
||31|| McDonalds or Burger King - I WORK at mcdonalds
||32|| JC Penny's or Sears - wtf?
||33|| Walmart or Target - Target! you anti-american communists
||34|| Trophy's or TGI Fridays - lol what?
||35|| Albertson's or Vons - say what?
Clothes
||36|| Pants or Shorts - pants
||36|| Zip-Up or Pull-Over Sweatshirt - both
||37|| Sandals or Tennis Shoes - tennis shoes..
||38|| Dresses or Skirts - Say what?!
||39|| Mittens or Gloves - mittens! I wanna feel like a kid
||40|| Print or Solid - solids
Names
||41|| Bob or Bill - Billy bob!
||42|| Jessica or Jennifer - Jessica
||43|| Aaron or Erin - Erin.
||44|| Carrie or Kari - Carrie
||45|| Todd or Tom - Todd
||46|| Lynn or Lee - Lynn
||47|| Sarah or Susie - Sarah
||48|| Jack or John - john
||49|| Lisa or Linda - Lisa
||50|| Matt or Nick - MATT!!!!!!
Music
||51|| Punk or Rock - Rock
||52|| Country or Bubble Gum Pop - wtf?
||53|| Rap or Techno - techno
||54|| Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera - neither
||55|| *N Sync or Backstreet Boys - lol backstreet boys.
||56|| Korn or Staind - Staind
||57|| Limp Bizkit or Linkin Park - neither
||58|| Guitar or Drums - Drums
||59|| Piano or Violin - both
||60|| CDs or Radio - Cd's.. though the radio is cool
TV
||61|| Dawson's Creek or 7th Heaven - what?
||62|| Angel or Buffy the Vampire Slayer - ooo...
||63|| Law and Order or The Practice -
||87|| Fish or Hamster - say what?
||88|| Tiger or Lion - what is happening?
||89|| Butterfly or Lady Bug - what?!?!
||90|| Seals or Otters - seals.
Products
||91|| Tide or Gain - Tide
||92|| Herbal Essences or Suave - YES! YES!
||93|| Dove or Irish Spring - Irish spring because it says irish
||94|| A-JAX or 409 - a-jax. old fashioned oh yah.
||95|| Crest or Colgate - either
Banned
I have made disabled anonymous commenting. It's not so much the comments that bugged me; because they wern't true. I really have nothing to hide. It's the immaturity of some people. Names would have been great. I really wouldn't have cared who said it. Chances are you are either afraid of me, or afraid of being proved wrong to your face. Either way, you can no longer comment.
Deep wounds heal slow
Whats with the beach boys lately? First common ground, which was TONS OF FUN. Rachel, please thank your dad for letting me use his pass. But the beach boys are every where!! Second I hear them on TV. Third, 90% of the music played at my work is the beach boys! So because of this... I have been forced to constatly think of my favorite song by them:
Wouldn't it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldn't have to wait so long
And wouldn't it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong
You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together
Wouldn't it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through
Happy times together we've been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldn't it be nice
Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldn't be a single thing we couldn't do
We could be married
And then we'd be happy
Wouldn't it be nice
You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldn't it be nice
Busy
I've been realyl busy lately with work. I havent had much time for friends. So to give you guys the scoop, Heres my Schedule for the up comming week.. starting with.. Tomarrow (saturday the 23rd)
Sat- 2pm-10pm(possibly later)
Sun- 7am-3Pm (I can probably do something that day)
Mon- Off
Tues- Off:They gave me alot of days off this week
Wed- Off: I wasn't kidding
Thurs- Off: See what I mean?
Fri- 5pm-10pm: 5 hour day
Sat- 11am-7pm
If you want to hang out.. LET ME KNOW. All of you should have my cell phone number. Give me a call, leave me love voicemail.
Disney Movie Marathon
While I was at work I got a phone call! Rachel had called me and left a voicemail. Asking if I'd like to go to a Diney Movie Marathon at her house! I didnt get the message till after work but it all...worked out. no pun intended.
At Rachels we were supposed to watch disney movies; but justin could not find them. We ended up watching Office Space. I have to say.. no matter how much you watch that movie, it is still awesome. Afterwards we did not exactly feel like watching a movie so we ventured to Rachels camper to gather board games!
Uno Scores:
Rachel-3
Matt-1
Yeah she wooped us all on that one.
Life- Probably jsut as long as Monopoly
I ended up winning, but not without my faults... 4 kids. 1 boy. 1 girl. and 2 twin girls.
"oh no! theres been a car crash!"
"Emily! learn to drive!"
"That's up to Rachel"
"take him"
"here let me set this up for you"
"suck up"
"Matt! are you trying to provoke her again?!"
Born Anew
A new template, what do you guys think? The Earthy colors just wasn't cutting it anymore.
So, I went to see Batman Begins. I have to say, it is a rather good movie. I like how they went indepth with the ACTUAL batman past. Also they left it open for a sequal, which is always good. I was dehydrated the other day. Almost passed out. Went for a bike ride and went farther than I thought I would. Didn't bring enough water. Too hot for this eh?
I don't really have anything to write about so... YEAH!
***WELCOME BACK RACHEL!!!!***
Paranoia
This is gonna be a mix of Matt's Wisdom and Matt Ranting.
My Brother. Everytime he comes home from his "school" my parents treat me like im stupid. I excel at computers and the like and my brother is going to school for it. He learns things that I do not know. But this does not mean he knows more than me. Just simply knows different things than me. But my parents would rather treat my like im stupid and dont know what im doing. They treat and tell him that he is great. They put the impression on me that he's better. why?
Addiction. Whats with people being addicted to things and making excuses? People smoke and when asked about quiting they say "it's not that easy" fine i'll accept that. but when it becomes such a problem, and you give me more than "its not that easy" there is something wrong. It's not that easy will work for a while but sometime you just have to suck it up. My brother smokes, and he tells me that "you just cant stop". No you really just can stop. you really can just drop it and walk away. People make too many excuses for these things. Sometimes people you jsut need to stop. So heres my message:
Stop making excuses and do it. I don't care how hard youthink it is. Get off your lazy ass and do something about it.
Phils blog. blame him.
The True You |
| You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you. |
| With respect to money, you spend as little as possible. |
| You think good luck will definitely be yours, someday. |
| The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. |
| You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. |
| When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends. |
Now about the money.. thats not so true... i actually have a problem with spending too much on a person.
Bad Luck.
I swear. I have THE worst luck. First. I back my dads car into a pole. He pretty much freaks out a that... Then I get into trouble for staying at Rachel's house a bit too late... and even worse yet.. on the way home from Rachel's house... I hit a goddamn deer. A DEER. I crested a hill and there it was, I pressed on the brakes, and luckily was able to slow down enough to not cause any damage.... The deer got up and ran away... I called my parents, and it gave me the answering machine the first time.. and then I tried their cell phones... it rang and then gave me the voicemail... tried the cells again and it went straight to the voicemail... they shut off their phone. well thats just freakin lovely. GAH! Deer. As Kyle said... they love the light.
time flows by
I was gonna put a song here, but that'd be kinda lame eh? it's a song I wrote, and maybe I'll put it here later. but have you ever had this feeling?
You know people care for you, and you know no matter what happens they will be there... yet you still feel alone, and like no one cares... because the person you want to care like that, doesnt?
If you do... I've felt that way before, It's not a great feeling and It is hard to describe. You know whats wrong... yet you don't. Either that or you don't want to know whats wrong. Sometimes people just like to have that lingering feeling. People say it and you try to believe it... but you can't ALWAYS be happy, you have to be sad if even only for a couple of seconds. Life just flows by in a matter of minutes and moments and we're too busy to stop and realize it.
Many people don't realize it, but I am actually a good person to talk to. I may not seem like it.. because I'm a bit of a spaz... but I do love to listen to people (if you are my friend) I love to help people out, and give advice.. or just to listen if they want to get something off their chest. I used to do it for Kelly and Bekah alot... Also.. I'm good at keeping secrets.. you know why? because I can't remember them half the time =P... just kidding. But if you guys ever need someone to talk to... ya know i'm here... anyway. that was random..
You know what a good song is? Mr. Brightside(the killers)... You know what another good song is? Sweet Dreams(dont remember the name)... Another... Church on Sunday(Green Day).. another... 500 miles (The Proclaimers) i think thats the name of the song...
Tag you're it.
someone gave me this:
1)List ten things you enjoy, even when no one is around. What lowers your stress / blood pressure / anxiety level? Make a list, post it to your journal, and then tag five friends and ask them to post it to theirs. Do it now because it's fun.
1. Read- I love to read.
2. Blast Music, even oldies- I love music.. I could cut out all the vocals and still be happy.
3. Listening to people who don't talk alot- talk.
4. Bike Ride- Gives me time to think, or not think. And it makes me feel less stressed.
5. Watching the rain- This is relaxing. I'll add dancing and singing in the rain here.
6. Passing cities on the highway at night. I love all the lights. its pretty.
7. PLAN HOW I AM GOING TO TAKE OVER THE WORLD!! BWHAHA....again.- Self explanitory.
8. Singing when no one is around- now, you may think that this is a bad thing, and i need to sing in public more.. but theres just something about it that makes you feel good.
9. Ranting- Now, I actually ahve fun while I do this, and I try to make it funny. Most people find it humorous. but it actually does clear some of that anxiety.
10. just simply hanging out with friends, it gets you away from everything and its like a cleansing of the system.
.... I tag... Rachel, Justin, Phil, Becca, and for the hell of it, cause she reads this every now and then. Chelsey. Go forth and do this!
Ode.
Friendships will end
As new ones begin..
My heart cries out
and I don't know where to start
I say i'm happy for you
I smile a time or two
Yet inside I want to cry
because I may be happy for you...
But not for me
Chorus:
Don't go yet
Don't leave yet
I'm not ready for us to part
So
Don't go yet
Don't leave yet
Because we're just about to start
Sitting in the rain
dealing with the strain
feel it pounding on my heart
yet it only seems to stain
Somtimes when
I see you
I can't stop
the memories
What will happen when we leave?
Will we all change?
For the better?
for the worse?
well..
Chorus:
Don't go yet
Don't leave yet
I'm not ready for us to part
So
Don't go yet
Don't leave yet
Because we're just about to start
don't go yet
Don't leave yet
I'm not ready for this part..
That was inspired by many different peoples thoughts and feelings as of late, It's not that great, I know. hah.
Soft Spot
If you thought I was a hard person... I'm really not.. I'm actually pretty much a softy... example:
So Today... My mom went and got her new puppy.. it's a long haired Miniature Dauschund. You knoe something that REALLY bugs me? Taking an animal like that. I hate it. I feel so bad and sad when I take a puppy away from its mom & family. I feel even worse.. when you have to put it down for the evening to sleep.. because you have to make it go to sleep.. but you can't touch it when it cries.. so it learns? What kind of fucked up world is this? That's way too much for something like that... I wouldn't be able to handle that.
It makes me incredibly sad to think about it, it's just wrong. Don't get me wrong... I like the puppy.. but... I feel bad. Tonight... when my mom put it in its new bed thingy, and turned out the lights.. it sat there and cried and yelped...
I wanted to cry! holy crap!
What right do we have to take something from their parents or family like that? So what if we are the most advanced race on the planet, or the smartest.. Homo Sapian sapian?! why the hell did we put "smart smart"?! That's just wrong.. lol I feel bad... O_o
Eventually the ties where down and they stop crying, or rather... he's cried himself to sleep.. anyone else think thats horribly wrong? but what can you do? Blah. People suck.
Loss for words.
Lately I've been at a loss for words. If you know me I can usually jabber on for hours. -- Maybe not hours, but you get the idea. I haven't wrote a thing of Matt's Wisdom in a while for that reason... I don't know what to write about. Though, after Rachel said it in her Blog/Journal... I think I shall write about Depression.
What makes a person think they are depressed? What classifies you as depressed? Is it all mental? or is it biological? Is that why medication can "supress" the feelings? Who TRUELY knows. We're supposed to take doctors words for things, but they have been wrong so many times... why is it we take their word for this?
I don't think being depressed is when you want to kill yourself, think you are worthless. No... thats
depressing but it is not depressed. I think being depressed is something you allow yourself to be. I'm not saying you can turn it off and on, but its more of an emotion. That's why you FEEL depressed. Not to be confused with sad... Sad is when something bad has happened. Or something of the like. Depressed is when you can no longer feel happy. You no longer
want to laugh. To take an exerpt from a friend... Hope he doesn't mind :
"The darkness that consumes me is the punishment for messing up....i have messed up everything in life, including other peoples lives....i try not to mess up but it only makes things worse...in the end, all the things i know and all the people i love....thats one big mess up too....i seek help from friends, i seek quideance, i seek the only thing that friends can give me....but not even friends try to help me....i should just never do or say anything, but that would turn into a big mess up....friends tell me that if i dont always mess up that i wouldnt need to apologize so much.....their right too....if i can figure out what i mess up on, then i wouldnt have to apologize so much."
That is depressed. You can no longer function normally without feeling... like that. Now why do we allow ourselves to get this way? We just stop thinking about everything that we have ahead of us, we concentrate on what could have been rather than what will be.
People need to laugh more. We need to stop being so serious about things. Now I'm not suggesting that we all stop drop and roll... but rather that when we break a nail... Wreck your parents car *cough*, or lose the TV remote, that we don't go int oa fit of crying and whining... laugh about it. The night I wrecked my dad's car... I wasn't crying myself to sleep and wondering when I would next see daylight. I was
laughing as Justin as my witness.
If depression is biological, then it is something we obviously cannot help. They now make medication to supress these depressed feelings and make you see the brighter side of life. Be more social, let you know what there is to live for-- why don't we just give people some alchohol? hah.
That's all I can think of for now.. I may add more to this later. This wasn't as good as past wisdoms, but ...yeah.
This has been your weekly broadcasting of Matt's Wisdom.
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Well... I'd love to post about the day before Brady's party... or Brady's party... or hell today... but...I just wrecked my dad's car... and... I'm screwed...
Rachel... Thank you for being such an awesome friend.. and the only one to offer to come pick me up. Your such an awesome friend and it's great to know I can rely on someone like you. If you EVER need ANYTHING let me know, and I will try my hardest to do it or get it.
But Rachel did it...
SURVEY
1) What time is it right now? 8:00 pm
2) Name as it appears on your birth certificate: Matthew Ryan Cutcher
3) Nickname(s): Matt, Matty, Cutch ( only people who dont really know me call me that)
4) Parents name: Ronald and Antonia
5) Number of candles that appeared on your last birthday cake: 17!!
6) When do you regularly blow them out: June 4th
7) Companion Animals: 5 birds (die bastards) 3 dogs
8) Eye color: Blue
9) Hair color: Sandy I guess... err... someone want to tell me? I dont look at my hair much..
10) Piercing: no!
11) Tattoos: no
12) How much do you love your job?: Dont have one... YET
13) Favorite color: Blue
14) Hometown: Billtown, MI
15) Current Residence: Billtown, MI
16) Favorite food: Edible kind.
17) Been to Europe: Yup! twice. Germany.
18) Have you ever toilet papered anything: Sisters room.
19) Loved somebody so much it made you cry: This is besides family right? I dunno.
20) Been in a car accident: nope... I'm a safe Driver!! ask Rachel... =D
21) On salad, do you want Croutons or bacon bits?: both
22) Sprite or 7UP: 7up
23) Favorite Movie: I Love anything that can make me laugh
24) Favorite Holiday: St. Patricks day
25) Favorite day of the week: Friday
26) Favorite word or phrase: Last it would have been "pineapples will rule the world!" but... now... I'm not sure.
27) Favorite Toothpaste: The kind you use.
28) Favorite Restaurant: bravo WAS good.
29) Favorite Flower: Tulips.
30) Favorite Alcoholic Drink: Rachel had a good answer for this one. clever. O_o
31) Favorite sport to watch: hockey.
32) Preferred type of ice cream: SUPERMAN!!
33) Favorite Sesame Street Character: Never watched it
34) Favorite Disney or Warner Bros.: Marty the Martian
35) Favorite Fast Food Restaurant: Wendy's
36) When was your last hospital stay: LAst year.
37) What color is your bedroom carpet: Wood
38) How many times did you fail your driver's test: I didnt.
39) Have you ever been convicted of a crime: Nope.
40) Who was the last person you hugged?: Rachel.
41) Which store would you choose to max out your credit card: I don't like credit cards.
42) What do you do most often when you are bored: Read, Bike ride.
43) Name the person that you are friends with that lives the furthest away: Lyn
44) Favorite class: BAND!!!!
45) What time do you go to bed? 11:30pm-12:00 am
46) Who was the last person to call you? uhh.... I dont get very many calls.. probably Ski.
47) What/who are you currently obsessed with? Losing weight! damnit!! (excuse my langauge) and hanging out with friends.
48) Favorite all time TV show: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
49) Last person you went out to lunch with: Myself
50) Last Movie you went to: Kingdom of Heaven
51) What time is it right now? 8:06... holy crap that was fast.
Epiphany
You know, I realized.. through all my worrying and such... It's not worth it. I should take things as they come and not try to change them. I'm pretty much done in my attempt to get a girlfriend. Somethings just aren't going to happen, and I have to deal with it. On this not, because I have stop worrying about it so much... I'm back to being the old me! that's right. I'm gonna be loud again! I'm going to try and hang out with all you people again, I wasn't really trying before, just kinda hoping someone would invite me to something.
Mmkay, so lets play some word association/fill in the blank... some of these will be about me.. so be honest and say the first thing that comes to your mind.
Matt is _______
Matt should _______
House-
Cat-
Cell phone-
Fan-
Summer-
Graduation-
Exercising is ______
If I were Matt I would ________
I ______ Matt because ______
T.V.-
Shoes-
Friends-
Family-
Legos-
Mmkay thats all I can think of. Everyone who reads this has to fill this out... why? because. That's right. Because.
Scratch that
Yeah that last post... You can ignore it if you want... because... I felt really sad.. and... it was stupid. Rachel made it a rule that you can't delete posts.. so.. yeah.
School... Was ok, another day... Brady gave me one of those school scarf thingies... it is SO cool. I was suprised when katie gave me a birthday present.. she called me over, and I was expecting to be nailed with something.
Tonight.. went to jakes for a bon-fire. It was awesome.
"you just play the g-string"
"fantasy position"
"The cowses and the horses"
"MARSHMELLOWS!!! ... I don't like marshmellows"
"I think I'll have a cookie...frosted sugar cookie..."
"I don't like frosting"
"It's pooping gum?"
"twinkle twinkle had a little star"
So many more.. These are the reasons I am afraid to graduate. I don't want to lose things like this!!
Communication skills?
I've noticed lately, after talking with Rachel for a bit... that I'm not as talkative as I used to be. I used to be able to chatter for hours. I could go on for hours. About absolutely nothing. Now... I can hardly hold a conversation... Rachel.. you may say I'm paranoid... but I'm not really... I mean about somethings... yeah.. but others.. not really. I personally.. believe this lack of talking is due to the gap in my hanging out with friends. I havent hung out with anyone lately.. and that bugs me. We need to get together soon. Just a group of us.. Hang out. I've been trying to hang out with a person for a while, and they are always busy... you probably know who you are... and I don't mean any offense by this. Just merely venting. Other than the talking on my part. I haven't been exactly happy lately, and I think thats why.. I get the feeling that I'm losing my friends. Now that may seem critical, and you'll say "thats not true!" but it's the feeling I get.
Prom and all that good stuff.
So, I guess I should talk about prom eh?
Let's start with Friday. Friday I woke up around 7 or so. Did some work, and then at 3 I went and picked up my tuxedo. Saw brady and jake there too. Put in some job applications.
Saturday... I woke up at around 7:15... I went early to wash the Car. I needed to get a post prom form so I tried multiple times to stop at the highschool and pick one up... first time.. around 9 o'clock.. no one was there. So I go and wash the car. That took roughly 2 hours. On my way back home, I stop by the highschool again... still no one there. So I go home and do some yard work. 2 o'clock rolls around and I head off to pick up Rachel's corsage(coursage?). After the corsage I head off to pick up Rachel and her mum some flowers. I do that.
After that I head back to the highschool.. and YES someone is there. I get a form, fill it out. I go home and take a shower and get into my tux. After manipulating the button thingys for the wrists.. My father took many pictures. I escaped from his grasp and headed off towards Rachel's. I had no trouble finding her house that time and actually picked the right drive way too! When I pulled in Rachel and her parents were outside taking pictures. Rachel had on an absolutely gorgeous dress, and she looked just stunning.
Her parents take some pictures, her mom fixes my shirt/pants and they take some more. Rachel nor myself much like pictures. Or rather as we described it... we dont mind them... just do not prefer them. I did give the flowers to Rachel and her mum first (hoped they liked them) and after the pictures, Rachel's parents took even more pictures of Rachel, and did some 'hair shots' for an aunt? We head off to my house so my dad can take some pictures. Eventually we get off to bradys around 4:30. we show up at bradys close to 20 minutes early and his mom says " I never thought I'd live to see the day"... She takes pictures of me and Rachel.She offers us some lemonade and we jsut wait for everyone else to show up. Brady and Tracey(tracy?) show up and bradys mom takes pictures. Jake and Hannah show up, more pictures. Cody and carie show up... more pictures... then we take the group pictures. boy girl boy girl... boy boy boy.... girl girl girl... they opt for some outside photos but we decline and boycot. We eventually make our way outside with minimal pictures taken and we head off.
We get to Bravo and we order and eat... Rachel was rather upset about her dress... I still say you can't see it. After dinner we headed off to schulers, and Rachel wanted this big soft stuffed ducky... but it was 50 bucks... and I couldn't afford that =(, so I got her the smaller one. Brady reminded me to take the receipt so she couldn't return it... Good thinking brady. We head off to Prom and get there with only a little bit of trouble, nothing much. Rachel and I danced for some songs and not for others. We all went outside for a walk and just goofed around... Follow the leader!! Near the end there was one last dance, and then we left about 15 minutes early. We headed back to bradys house and we all changed. I went back to my house for a pair of pants (which I had forgotten) and we get to the Post Prom around midnight. There was lazer tag, bungee thing, twister and coffee things. I played 4 games of lazer tag, 4-0. didnt lose (woohoo!!) I think the greatest victory was Rachel and I ( believe there was another kid... didnt really ever see him though) against phil and 2 other people. 28-13 win. We rock Rachel. Near 3:30 I started to think some things... thats why I wasnt smiling like I normally am. and I decided that it wasn't worth thinking about and started to have fun again. We all ended up laying on the floor. Jake and Hannah ended up falling asleep I believe. Rachel kinda dozed near the last 15 minutes... though brady wouldnt let her sleep. Phil did attempt to wake her up during that time... but I shooed him away.. I dropped Hannah off after passing her house, head off to jakes and drop him off. Finally drop Rachel off. And that was prom.. I actually had LOADS of fun, and thank you Rachel for inviting me.
